Chapter 1- Confessions of a Teenage Girl
I'm just a girl
With good intentions
I don't cry to get attention
Most of the time
Right…Um…I guess this a journal thing. My mom bought it for me…its pink which is good. It has a picture of a…hold on…oh it's some sort of fairy on the front. I know most people start there diary's or journals with. Dear Diary, or Dear Journal. But that's not me… I think it's boring and it's not like anyone is going to read this…well maybe me when I'm like 50 and looking through my old stuff. But I don't consider this a journal any way I just think of it as a book I write in. My mom said I need a journal to tell my secrets to because I don't have any other siblings and my mom is always busy. I think my mom sensed that I have like no friends when Emma stoped coming over and I wasn't out late anymore. I think she's trying to boost my self esteem or something. I really don't know because it's not working! I still feel the same even though I wrote a paragraph in this thing. So I'm supposed to write what's going on in my life right? Ok let's start with what happened today at school. Um…Craig touched myhand well actually we were something happend and he touched my HAND! See I know you guys are like aren't you and Craig dating? No sweets we aren't actually Craig and I haven't even talked since the…you know…well you don't know because that was last year and this is the first time I'm writing in this. So let's just say Craig and I haven't had any connection since our mistake! And I know it sounds CrAzY but I still have some feelings for Craig. I still love Craig but now I'm to scared to talk to him, or look at him, or glance at him, or smile at him. You know I'm just scared of what he'll do. And anyway they'll start more rumors about me…I mean there are already enough. I'll explain later. But yeah Craig and I actually had contact today…first time in forever! I'm so happy I mean I'm not going to wash my hand for like a week.
Flash Back
Ok here I was walking down the hall trying to read my English book because we had a test today I totally forgot about last night. I could feel the glares and the stares as I walked by everyone but I tried to pretend I don't notice it I try to ignore it now. Ok if it's that important I was wearing my new denim jeans and a pink shirt it was really cute well you have to see it but I think it looked hot. Even though I know people look at me and think "slut" but whatever. So I'm reading my book and someone bumps into me. All my books fall on the ground a long with me. I fell right on my butt and it really hurt it still hurts now. I look up and it's Craig. I have an embarssed look on my face as he gives me a smile.
"I'm sorry Manny" he said holding his hand out to help me up
I tried to pretend like I didn't care that he was looking at me or trying to make contact with me. Because I think thats what you do when someone cheats on youwith his ex-girlfriend. I don't know I just don't want people to look at me funny. So I had an OmG get away from me type of look on my face. I grabbed onto his hand as he pulled me up and then I tried to pick up my books. Craig was still standing there I could smell his cologne. I don't know why he was wearing cologne at school but it smelt really good. I got all my books and was about to say thank you to Craig when the queen came over.
"Craig we're going to be late for class" Paige said grabbing onto Craig's arm "Oh hi Manny." She added giving me a fake smile
"Hi" I whispered
This was the most acquired situation I have ever been in. Craig talked to me for the first time in a long time and then Paige comes and ruins the moment. We stood there for a wile in silence Craig was trying to avoid eye contact with me as Paige was staring at something else.
"I'm going to be late for class." I said starting to walk away
"Oh yeah class..." Craig said
"Manny hun, we have practice today after school so don't be a minuet late. We need our mascot."
Paige made me the mascot? I thought we were over that fight! OMG, OMG, OMG, I was a bout to quit the team. I had an angry look on my face as Paige gave me her "innocent" face.
"Hun, I'm kidding!" she said with a smile "Even though I hate to admit it you are one of our better cheerleaders and I'm happy you're on the team."
Maybe Paige really meant that, because this time she didn't give me a cheesy smile. I gave her a smile to and I started walking away.
Flashback over
Yup so that was mainly my day. I still don't trust Paige's smile though…I'm sure she just put a fake one on there because Craig was there. Practice was the same Paige bitching and everyone doing what she says, so there was no difference in that. But I don't care because Craig talked to me. OMG (enter girly sqweal here) I can't wait for school to start tomorrow!
