Chapter 2- My best friend
I'm just a girl
I do some damage
I use my gender, to my advantage
Is this a crime
3/22/2005
Ok so it's been 2 days since I wrote in this thing. Sue me wow I have spent way too much time in cheerleading practice. I'm starting to sound like Paige. Um…nothing really interesting has happened to me. I mean besides the rumors and stuff I'm fine. Emma and I are starting to gain our friendship again at least I think we are. She gave me a smile in Media Immersions today does that mean anything? I don't care, I felt happy. Emma and I haven't talked in forever. When that whole mistake issue happened everyone started to ignore me. Emma, Craig…everyone! It's been really hard but whatever it's my life and I made it this way. If I had only listened to Emma and not have bought that blue thong I would have been fine now. But I wanted to be different from the Manny everyone knew. That lovable Manny who was in Emma's shadow! I didn't want to be known as Emma's pet anymore! I wanted to be my own person… I wanted to be hotter, sexier like Paris Hilton. Even though she was kind of a slut (I mean the whole porn tape thing) but she still ended up better than me. She is making millions of dollars and has all the friends you could imagine and I am making nothing and have no friends what so ever! GOD I HATE FAMOUSE PEOPLE! Cool it Manny!Ok so yeah…nothing really interesting has happened. WAIT Ashley was acting like a bitch to me the other day. It was terrible it's as if she's the one that makes my life horrible. I was at my locker getting my stuff for math. I was trying to hold in my tears but I started to cry a little bit. I had just had English and I failed my test which brought my grade down to a C+. I know I'm not the one to think about my grades like a Liberty but ever since the "mistake" I've been trying to make my mom proud of me again.
Flashback
I slowly slid down my locker. I don't know why I was reacting like this about a test I mean it was the middle of the semester I could bring it up I don't think these were tears from the test t I think these were tears of all the emotions I've been feeling. I couldn't hold it in anymore and that test just let everything out. Ashley and Ellie walked passed me.
"Maybe she's pregnant again" I heard Ashley hiss
"Yeah…with Spins baby" Ellie added "Gosh what a slut"
They stopped and laughed and continued walking.
"She never could keep her legs closed" Ashley said looking at me
I tried to ignore what they were saying. I tried to pretend like I didn't care. But Ashley…she has these devilish eyes…these piercing eyes that are so mean and evil. I don't even know how to explain it but I stared back at her. Wiping away my tears. Acting as if I didn't care. Wanting to go home, my life was bad because of Ashley and she just wanted to make it worse.
Flash Back OverI know Ashley is such a BITCH! I mean I was hurt by Craig to but no one cares because I was the one that wore the blue thong. I bet Ash wears thongs too…I mean mainly ever girl in the world wears thongs it's like human nature but how come I am the only girl that is considered a slut for it? OMG! OMG! OMG! But I don't care anymore they can all go to hell. HELL I TELL YOU! You know this notebook think isn't that bad. Yes I consider you a notebook…not a journal…not a diary…but a notebook. And maybe even my best friend.
