Kinda short chapter. More soon hopefully. Argh evil hiccups wont go away!! Newayz, thanks… oh and I have no idea what to name this chapter so its just chapter 17 :-p (yeah, real creative of me, eh? rollseyes)
Disclaimer: Bah damn these blasted hiccups! I'd disown them and then own HP etc and then I shall take over the woooooooorld lol jkjk (hah drank a can of dr. pepper on the way home so im kinda out there! Lol no tahnks to david! Lol)
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"Lillian Marie Evans!" I quickly wiped away my tears and spun around to see Bree standing by the exit door, "What the bloody hell do you think you're doing?"
I looked around the parking lot full of cars and shot an obvious look her way, "Going home."
"Why?" She asked. That was a stupid question.
I shrugged, "I don't feel good."
"Wrong answer." She glared, "I saw everything that went on in there."
"Then you should know why I have to leave!" I cried, "I can't be around James anymore. I'm putting him in danger."
"You mean you're afraid," She said quietly, "There's no need to deny it."
"What are you talking about?" I asked offended.
"You know somebody needs to hit you in the head with your senses," she replied walking nearer, "And it might as well be me."
Bree walked up to me and swung her purse so it hit me in the head. It wasn't even that heavy, I don't know what she was trying to accomplish.
"What was that for?" I asked, rubbing my head.
"I'm trying to figure out who is being more of a stubborn arse," she stated.
"You." I muttered, hoping that she didn't hear.
"You," she said with a tone in her voice that she did hear me, "Who is denying your feelings for James. Or James, who is letting you walk right over him and out the door."
"You don't understand-" I pleaded.
"I don't need to hear it!" she cried, "I don't understand why this is so hard for you. And I don't understand why you have this thought programmed in your mind that you cannot date James. He loves you and you love him, what's the problem?"
I bit my lip and looked up at the dark sky scattered with stars. I closed my eyes and felt a snowflake fall onto my cheek.
"I don't know what has gotten into you," Bree whispered, tears starting to fall out of her eyes too, "You were completely head over heals for him, then one day your not? I don't understand why you just won't love him."
"You're pureblood," I shrugged, "You're just like him which means your not in as much danger. I shouldn't even be your friend because I'm a walking target."
"Maybe you shouldn't be my friend." She said crying, "I don't want to be friends with someone whose mind is brainwashed by that horrible…thing! Lily, don't you realize it? You're letting him take over you right now. By pushing everyone away and not taking chances, you're helping him get stronger."
"I just…" I started, but stopped quickly, "I can't help it."
"Fine," Bree said quietly, wiping her tears, "Let him take over your life. I will see you at home."
Bree headed back towards the exit before turning around one last time, "That is if I'm allowed to be in the same room as you anymore because we might get attacked if I stand next to you."
"Bloody hell!" I yelled, stomping my foot into a puddle as Bree went back into the reception hall.
I stomped my new shoes in a few more puddles before stomping towards my car and getting into it. I sat there for what seemed forever, just thinking about what Bree had said. A few times I thought about getting out of the car and going back into the reception hall to, but I quickly changed my mind.
"I need to move on." I said out loud, "It's over."
I nodded my head before turning on the car and driving out of the parking lot and towards my apartment.
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I walked into our apartment and threw my purse onto the floor and kicked my shoes off so they purposely hit the wall.
I grabbed a blanket and wrapped it around myself before sitting down on the couch in the dark. I didn't even have enough energy to turn on the television or make a phone call or even eat. My mind was still swarming with thoughts about James and Bree.
They were right…and I was wrong. I'll admit it. But it was not wrong of me to believe I'm putting them in danger.
Because I am…and they know it.
I lay on the couch for hours but I didn't move one bit. All I did was sit there and thought about all the things I regretted in my life. I was about to finally give up and go to sleep when I heard the front door open. I saw Bree walk in and slowly hung her coat on the rack by the door.
I glanced at the clock…two in the morning? Where has she been? When Bree turned around I closed my eyes and pretended to be asleep.
"You can stop pretending." She glared as she walked by.
Dammit. She's better than I thought.
"Sorry," I opened my eyes slowly.
"For what?" she asked, "For fake sleeping or being my friend?"
"Bree," I sighed, "I was just trying to make a point."
"Well, you certainly made a point," she replied, "A rude and wrong point."
"I'm sorry," I replied, feeling the tears again, "I'm just getting more scared everyday."
"Doesn't mean you need to stoop to his level." She replied walking towards her room, "We'll talk about it in the morning…if we're not dead by then."
Bree slammed her door shut loudly and left me alone in the family room. Well…that went…terrible.
I sighed as I got up and dragged myself to go to bed where I would struggle for hours trying to fall asleep.
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