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Chapter 19: New Years

All I wanna do
to be close to you
all I wanna do
to be next to you
all I want is you
to give up all we have to be
I can't remember why I'm here
if you'd let me spend my life with you

-Sugarcult

Disclaimer: Don't own that fannnnnnntabulous song. BUT I DO OWN THIS EFFING STORY. Just not the ppl. get over it, plz

"Happy New Year!" Bree screamed and threw confetti all over my bedroom.

I opened my eyes and pulled the blankets over my head, "It's not New Years."

"No, it's New Years Eve!" Bree yelled happily and jumped on my bed, "Get up we've got a party to go to!"

"Party?" I asked confused.

"Yes, party at Sirius'!" Bree smiled, "You know who will be there!"

I groaned. I am still avoiding James and Bree has been pestering me to talk to him. I don't know if either of us are ready to talk.

"I don't think I want to go." I replied, "I think I might go home tonight."

"Home?" Bree pouted, "But we're having a big party at Sirius'!

"So I've heard."

"Everyone from Hogwarts is going to be there!"

"Yeah but," I sighed, "I think I told my mom I'd be there to spend New Years Eve with them."

"Are you sure?" Bree giggled.

"Yeah, sure." I replied.

"Listen," she started, "If you change your mind later, why don't you come on down to the party?"

"Well."

"Just think about it." Bree said hopping off my bed, "I'm gonna go help Sirius get ready and stuff."

"What time is it?" I asked sitting up. I know I stayed up late, but I didn't know I slept in late.

"Almost three." She shrugged walking out of the room.

"Three!?" I asked jumped out of my bed, "I can't believe I slept in so late!"

"So?" Bree shrugged, "I do it all the time."

"Yes, well, you're not me." I replied heading towards the bathroom to brush my teeth.

"Hey!" she cried, "I've become very responsible over the years!"

I glared at Bree, "Last night the front door wasn't even shut all the way."

"Well," Bree scrunched her nose up, "It wasn't my fault."

"It wasn't?" I laughed, "I'm going to jump in the shower."

"Okay," Bree smiled.

After spending most of my day getting ready for the night and debating whether or not to go to Sirius', I was finally ready. I quickly grabbed my scarf and wrapped it around my white turtle neck and put a large jacket on.

Bree had left long ago to help Sirius put charms on their apartment to make it bigger. As tempting as the offer sounded, I wanted to see my parents on New Years.

I decided to drive my car since it was a muggle neighborhood. It took me about twenty minutes to get there. I rushed up to the door so I could get out of the freezing cold.

"Lily!" My dad cried when he opened the door, "We weren't expecting you!"

"Yeah you were," I smiled as I let him take my coat.

"We were?" he asked, "But, Bree said you were going to that party Sirius was throwing?"

"She did, did she?" I asked, "Well, I changed my mind."

"Well, that's great," he smiled as we headed into the dining room where a few guests were sitting.

"Happy New Year's Eve!" My mother said coming in the family room, "How are you, Lillian?"

"Peachy," I smiled as the doorbell rang.

"Why don't you take a seat?" She said pointing to a chair next to my cousin, Gabe.

"Who else is coming?" I asked.

"Oh, not many more people. Gabe was one of the few that could make it." My mom said pretending to straighten a picture on the wall.

"Like who?"

"Like-"

"Lillian?"

I turned around and saw a blonde haired, blue eyed, bony figure standing next to a large beefy brown haired man.

"Petunia?" I glared, "What are you doing here?"

"I should be asking you that." She spat as my dad tried to take her coat.

"Who is that?" I asked pointing to the big man next to her.

"Vernon," she said holding out her left hand, "My husband!"

"Congratulations," I said in a sarcastic tone.

I hadn't seen Petunia in years. Mainly because she didn't want to set foot near me.

"Mother, can I speak with you in the kitchen?" Petunia asked, sticking her nose in the air and heading into the kitchen.

"Why the bloody hell is she here?" I heard Petunia hiss to my mother as I sat down on the couch next to Gabe.

"Petunia, she is just as welcome in this house as you are." My mother replied.

"She's a freak and doesn't belong around us!" she cried, "Mother, she's putting everyone in danger!"

"Petunia, she's not doing anything." She replied as my father walked away and entered the kitchen.

"Do you not remember what happened a few years ago on New Years!?" She yelled, not bothering to keep her voice down. I blushed as I noticed that Gabe was looking at me. Since Gabe and I were very close cousins, he knew about me being a witch, but didn't know all the details.

"Petunia," my dad sighed, "We remember, but that is in the past."

"Bloody freaks like her almost killed us!" She yelled, "How can you put that in the past!?"

"It wasn't her fault."

By now I was crying…hard. A year or two ago when Voldemort was starting to get strong, Death Eaters were a new thing. They traveled from home to home tormenting people. Nobody knew who they were, so it wasn't a big threat. Unfortunately, my family was attacked. It's something most people don't know about me. And it's definitely something I don't like to talk about.

"Petunia!" My father hollered as she walked back into the living room, eyes full of tears and anger.

"I don't ever want to see you again, Lillian!" she yelled, "I'm sick of you and freaks like yourself! Don't ever contact me again! You are a terrible person running around with your freak boyfriend and freak friends!"

"I don't have a bloody boyfriend," I said, fighting back the tears, "And my friends are not freaks."

I got up immediately and grabbed my coat. I had to leave. I have no idea what had gotten into Petunia. She has never reacted like this.

"Darling, don't go." My father pleaded, "We'll work this out."

"Good bye, Petunia." I glared before walking out the door and towards my car.

(No POV)

Lily found herself in a random park as far away from her parent's house as possible. She didn't even remember how she got to the park bench she was sitting on. She had no idea exactly where she was, nor was she aware of how terrible she looked. Her hair was frizzing from the rain and snow falling, her make up was running down her face from crying, and her clothes hung off her limp body. She was in a terrible state, but didn't plan on fixing it anytime soon.

What Petunia said had effected her greatly. She didn't even realize it until now how much those words hurt her. For almost twenty years, Lily let the insults, threats, and curse words roll off her back. But, hearing Petunia blame her for the attack and yell about what a terrible person she was hit her like a ton of bricks.

What happened? Lily wondered to herself. Before Lily even knew she was a witch Petunia was perfectly fine with her. Why, suddenly, did she decide to hate Lily. Just because she was a witch? Just because Lily was different. Lily shuddered at the thought of her sister being so perfect and…abnormally normal!

How she longed to have someone hold her and tell her it was okay. She needed someone to help support her and love her and—

Lily raised her head as she realized what she was thinking. No, could now be the time she finally realized it—Yes, she knew what she needed. She needed James. She needed his warm grasp around her and she wanted to feel his hot breath on her face and feel his heartbeat as she wrapped her arms tightly around his body—

But is James willing to take her back? Now that she has finally realized it, will James still want her? What if he grew out of love with her? What if he had found a new girlfriend? Lily started to cry again as terrible thoughts passed through her mind.

"There you are!" Lily lifted her head up and saw Bree hurrying forward, underneath and umbrella, "I've been looking for you everywhere. I saw you when I was walking by."

"Bree," Lily started, but couldn't finish because tears started to fall again.

"I know what happened," Bree said quietly, sitting down next to Lily, "I'm sorry your night is ruined."

"She just came right out and said it." Lily replied, "She didn't even breathe in between all the insults."

"Lily," Bree said hugging her tightly, "Don't listen to Petunia. She's jealous."

"Jealous? Of what?"

"You're beautiful, you've got great friends, a successful career, a man that loves you…what more can you ask for?" She said comfortingly.

"Thanks," Lily said wiping her tears, "I just feel so terrible."

"What you need," Bree started, "Is James."

"I know," she nodded, "But I don't know where he is and-"

"Lily," Bree stared at her, "I know where he is! He's moping around the party all miserable. Now, I know your evening has gone completely wrong, but why not make it better? It's almost a new year…start out fresh!"

"What if James doesn't want to see me?" Lily asked, remember the terrible thoughts.

"Once you fall in love with someone you can never hate them."

Lily smiled and hugged Bree, "You must care about me if you came all the way out here to talk to me and you sat on a wet bench with me."

Bree shrieked and stood up, "Ugh!" She whipped out her wand and dried herself, "Come one, Love, we're going to set things right."

"Sounds good," Lily said standing up.

"Here," Bree said making two glasses of champagne with her wand, "To a fresh start, to you and James, to our health, not to Petunia who deserves to rot in hell, and finally, to us. May wherever our lives take us, we end up there together!"

"Cheers!" Lily said as they tapped their glasses together before drinking it and the glasses disappearing, "What would I do without you?"

"Well, first you'd get soaked again because it's going to rain and I'm the only one with an umbrella, then you'd probably live a dark terrible life!" Bree laughed.

"I hope we die together." Lily smiled as they walked down the street towards Sirius' apartment, "Happy and maybe even on a Sunday?"

"Why Sunday?" Bree asked.

Lily shrugged, "Feels like a good day to die."

"Alright," Bree smiled, "We'll die together, happy, and on a Sunday."

Lily laughed, "We'll be like in the hospital all old and we'll just be asking nurses to keep us alive just until the following Sunday!"

Bree joined in on the laughing, "Promise?"

"Promise, what?"

"Promise me that we'll stay together for the rest of our lives."

"Bree," Lily sighed, "I already promised you this."

"Well, I promise too," she smiled.

"Good," Lily grinned, "Because heaven is going to be boring without you there!"

The two women walked down the busy roads full of cherry people, ready to bring on another year. They finally made it to the apartment, nearly soaked from the snow and light rain. They quickly walked into the building and went into an empty elevator where they dried themselves with their wands.

"You ready?" Bree asked, standing outside of Sirius' door.

"Yeah," Lily nodded her head, "What time is it?"

"Shit," Bree said looking up from her watch, "Less than a minute until midnight!"

"We better get in there!" Lily said and they rushed into the apartment. Everyone was crowded around a large muggle television, watching the countdown. Bree separated from Lily and went to find Sirius. Lily continued on her own hunt towards James.

"Five…four…" Lily spotted James standing in front of the television, not looking as excited as everyone else, "Three…two…"

Lily tapped James on the back as everyone shouted one and started to celebrate. James turned around and his eyes lit up.

"Lily-"

Lily interrupted him and kissed him, along with many other couples, "Happy New Year, James."

James kissed Lily back as confetti was thrown in the air, people shouted, Sirius passed around another drink to everyone, and everyone hugged each other, wishing them the best in the new year.

"James," Lily said pulling away, "I love you. Will you go out with me?"

James grinned, "You're one stubborn girl, Lily Evans."

Lily hugged James tightly and kissed him again. But this time they were interrupted by Sirius, "I can tell this year is going to be much better than the last. Welcome back, Lils."

"Happy New Year, Sirius," Lily said hugging him before turning to Remus, Bree, Ashley, and many other friends.

"Good job, Prongs," Sirius said elbowing him, "You finally did it."

"Yeah," James smiled, "Funny how love works, eh?"

"What do you mean?"

"When I start to give up on her," James explained, "She finally starts to want me."

James and Sirius smiled widely and drank another glass of champagne before going off to celebrate some more.