Dear Journal,
It's September 1st I'm Samantha Simmons and I'm so sorry that I've forgotten to write to you in the last three days. I do have a good excuse though Life, that and the fact that my life just can't keep calm at all. No it's not like I'm making excuses it's true. I was actually impressed that I've been able to keep this diary or no Liz calls it a journal so well. So give me a break here and I'll fill you in on the last three days. Well it's Sunday and I guess starting where I left off Friday then may work. So I had a crazy vision in my dreams of me and Michael, no, new policy Rath and Macaria I figure if I'm going to keep this thing controlled I have to separate our identities even though she seems to wanna keep us as one. Now may be the time where you're a little confused so I'll get right into Friday night's dance.

It's West Roswell High's gymnasium and there's a bunch of teens dancing to fast pop and R&B music Alex and Sam are with everyone except the POD squad dancing in a large group. Sam and Maria break form once and a while to do a preplanned dance sequence for everyone's amusement. Sam feels a ripple of energy and looks to the doors of the gym. Max and Isabel followed by Michael walk in, Michael's hair has been cut almost to a Crew cut length Isabel is wearing a cute red dress and Max is looking Posh in a loose white shirt and kakis.

Michael is all Sam can see as she continues to dance with Alex he is a Rebel without a cause if she ever saw one looking very James Dean-ish in black work boots a leather jacket white shirt and dark jeans cuffed. Their eyes meet but Sam has to look back at Alex. She sees Liz look straight at Max and smiles the songs change and

Sam motions that they take a well needed rest. They all head to the bleachers and meet the three Podsters there. Everyone sits down as a second of awkward silence is broken by Max asking Liz to dance to a slow song that now begins to play. Maria and Lucas follow along with Sandie and John. Alex, Michael, Sam and Isabel are left there sitting. Isabel looks over to Alex and then to Sam.

"Sam would you mind if I borrow your date for a second for a dance?"

Alex looks to Isabel and then to Sam who nods.

"Sure Isabel my feet are killing me anyways."

Isabel smiles while Alex gives Sam a look and leads her to the dance floor. Sam and Michael watch them in silence for a moment.

"Nice hair cut Michael." Michael nods. Sam looks over to him and smiles. "How did the interview go, eventful?" Michael shrugged he had learned a lot more about himself than World War 2. Sam tried to shake off her vision of Macaria and Rath together she winced and when she opened her eyes it looked like Michael was feeling some of that passion too. Sam look away from him quickly and to the dance floor Alex and Isabel were dancing closely Sam felt a wave of jealousy spread about her. Isabel laid her head on his shoulder.

"You know Alex, I never got to say how sorry I was about how I treated you this summer."

Alex smiled and looked over to Sam he felt torn, feelings that he had put at bay were bubbling up to the surface and there was Sam sitting half eyeing them next to Michael.

"It's okay Isabel, I'm totally over it now." Isabel nodded and then looked into Alex's eyes. "Over me too?" Alex smiled, "Well, yeah sort of I mean I'm here with Sam." Isabel looked worried, "Right Sam." Alex felt embarrassed for her, "Look Isabel I thought you made it clear that you wanted us to just be friends I don't understand what's going on now?"

Isabel sighed and looked to her brother and Liz who were dancing and really not talking all that much.

"I'm sorry Alex, I guess I don't know what I want."

Alex nodded as the song began to end.

"Well I can't just wait until you hopefully want to be with me, I've liked Sam for a long time and we've never really had a chance."

Isabel looked away as the two parted.

"I'm sorry Alex hey, look forget about it okay I'm just being a bit childish."

Alex watched Isabel walk away as a faster song came on and a swarm of guys went to Isabel's side for a dance.

Max and Liz who hadn't talked mainly not knowing what to say to each other parted as well and began to walk slowly towards the other side of the gym.

"Liz I just wanted to say that you look amazing tonight, I mean you always look amazing and."

Liz looked down shyly, and smiled.

"Yeah, you know you look good too Max."

Max caught Liz's words and smiled. They sat down next to each other for a second and stared out at the dance floor.

"See, so we can be friends right, I mean ya know good friends."

Liz smiled down to her shoes and nodded.

"Yeah we can do it."

Max looked at her he concentrated on her lips and watched as Liz looked up meeting his eyes. He wanted to kiss her so bad.

Liz met Max's eyes he looked a nanosecond away from kissing her and she had to stop him otherwise she wouldn't be able to after a kiss.

Liz snapped up as Max began to lean over.

"Yeah we should go and see if the others wanna go dance to some fast songs."

Max hopped up and tried to hide his embarrassment with his hands wedged deep in his pockets.

"Right yeah let's go see what they're up to then."

Liz nodded and led them over the floor to the others. Alex was making his way back to Sam and Michael who were avoiding each other's eyes and making small conversation. Alex looked to Sam and smiled she returned the smile as he held out his hand.

"You wanna dance?"

Sam shook her head, and Alex looked confused.

"No but do you wanna go and talk for a little bit?"

Alex nodded and the two went out into the hall to talk they were kept in Michael's sight all the way out of the gym. Meanwhile Maria came over with Lucas and tried to get everyone to dance with them Michael shook his head no and went to get some punch and watch everyone. Outside Sam and Alex sat on the bench in the hallway talking.

"So, what's wrong Sam? Is it about Isabel cause ya know I."

Sam shook her head no. She smiled and then kissed Alex, when she kissed him she got small flashes Alex playing bass with his band, Alex crying at the Vet. when his dog's leg was amputated. Sam smiled as she broke free of the kiss and looked at Alex questioning everything.

Alex looked dazed.

"So that's a flash."

Sam smiled, "You saw something?"

Alex nodded leaned over the two kissed again and continued to kiss. There was minor flashes and Sam broke away again giggling.

Alex smiled and looked a bit surprised.

"Why are you laughing?"

Sam shook her head as Alex leaned in again she shook her head and put her hand up to stop him.

"Wait I have to tell you something before well before things go any further."

Alex leaned back and smiled romantically.

"Well I know a lot, what other skeletons are hiding in that closet Sam?"

Sam tried to shake off her nerves she was determined to tell Alex about Macaria and Rath even if that meant ruining it with Alex. He had the right to know.

"There's something about who I was that I haven't told you about yet."

Alex grabbed Sam's hand and smiled.

"You can tell me."

Sam nodded and smiled right back and looked into Alex's eyes.

"I know I can, well here goes, the person I used to be she was very important to this whole story. You know the whole reason why we're here."

Alex looked lost.

"Do you mean why you were reborn?"

Sam kinda shrugged, "Well sort of."

"The person I used to be, Macaria she was in love with Rath, very much in love. And, she was a princess."

Sam laughed to herself and looked to Alex who was nodding for her to finish.

"She made choices which led to, no, Kivar, um, he's the one that, he was in love with her and she."

Sam felt a frog in her throat she knew if she said it, that would change so much.

"I'm sorry I've never really told anyone all of this, Kivar is the reason we died, no they died and he did it for me, well for Macaria the person I used to be."

Alex put his arm around Sam shoulders and comforted her as tears began to well up in her eyes.

"She, I could have married him and this wouldn't have happened, he just went crazy and Rath, well Rath is Michael."

Sam winced as she realized all that she said she could feel Alex's arm slowly slide off of her shoulders as she looked up he was looking directly in her eyes.

"Michael, that's the one you were in love with?"

Sam shook her head, "No she's in love with him Macaria. But she's not gone she's inside of me she's a part of me a strong part and ever since we came here near the granolith things have changed Sandie and John and I'm getting more visions about my past as her."

Alex squeezed Sam's hand gently and wiped away one of her tears. She was begining to ramble. He picked up her chin and smiled really close to her.

"You are not the reason that all this happened. If this Kivar guy was truly in love with you he would have let you be happy and not gone all psycho and look where it got him without you, or Macaria. And I know you and Michael are just friends I'm not threatened."

Sam smiled and wiped her face with the back of her hand. She felt so tired and light she hadn't been that open with anyone ever and it felt good to tell someone of her pain.

"I know you're not threatened but I've been having those same feelings for Michael they're uncontrollable and I don't know what to do."

Alex looked slightly pained and stood up, he turned back to Sam.

"So you do have feelings for Michael?"

Sam was beginning to get angry with Alex for acting this way.

"Well yeah I guess I do, but I saw you with Isabel I mean you can't tell me you don't have feelings with her?"

Alex was about to retort when Sam giggled to herself and sat back down. Alex was slightly stunned and stopped before he could say anything to look at Sam.

"What is it?"

Sam began laughing louder.

"Maybe we should just stay friends for now Alex."

Alex touched his lips the ones that were just on Sam's he began to see what Sam was laughing about.

"You think so?"

Sam nodded and Alex sat down next to Sam and put his arm around her shoulders.

"I think there's too many people that are still lingering in our lives for us to be together right now."

Alex nodded and looked out to the parking lot and then back at Sam.

"So we're just friends?"

Sam nodded and kissed Alex on the forehead.

"Yeah, and I think you should go find your lady in red and talk to her. She seemed to be a little well not over you two."

Alex smiled as the two got up and hugged all the way back into the gym Sam smiled as Alex made his way over to Isabel and cut in on a slow dance.

"Alex?"

Alex smiled and nodded as he twirled Isabel around.

"Isabel Evans I was thinking."

Isabel was all smiles as she let Alex hold her in his arms.

"What were you thinking?"

"Well I was thinking I'd give you another chance to apologize to me say tomorrow night some random movie, my treat."

Isabel smiled shyly and tossed her long blonde hair to one side.

"What made you change your mind?"

Alex smiled and looked to Sam who was watching them.

"A friend."

Isabel looked over to Sam and knew that there wasn't anything between Alex and Sam but a friendship she looked into Alex's eyes and smiled as Alex kissed her. Sam looked away and went back to Michael who was sitting on the bench again alone watching Sam walk his way.

As Sam sat down she met Michael's gaze.

"How's single life treating you Guerin?"

Michael shrugged and smiled looking to Alex and Isabel he was a bit surprised but also relieved.

"I should ask you the same question is that Isabel locking lips with your date over there?"

Sam smiled she didn't look to see the two kissing she just nodded.

"Yeah, we've figured that friends is the best route for Whitman and I."

Michael nodded and looked over to everyone dancing again.

"Michael, do you, not dance?"

Embarrassed Michael shrugged.

"It's bad for my image, you know, dancing."

Sam smiled again she seemed to be doing that alot tonight.

"Yeah I guess so, ya know I just finished kissing that boy and now he's with Isabel are all West Roswell High dances this crazy?"

Michael laughed and looked back to Sam as a fast song started up. Everyone except for Alex and Isabel came over to the two including Kyle and Tess. Sam and Michael were absolved from their conversation, for now. Maria and Liz went straight to Sam after seeing Alex with Isabel.

"Girlfriend are you okay?"

Sam smiled and nodded.

"Yeah, Maria I'm fine, Alex and I both realized that we were just better off as friends besides a twelve step program to get over Isabel isn't gonna work. They need a chance to be together."

Liz smiled at her cousin and stole a glance at Max who was talking to Michael.

"So do you wanna dance then, just us girls?"

Sandie popped her head in the conversation.

"Yeah you guys we have to do our dance that we all made up together in seventh grade."

The girls giggled and grabbed each other's hand leaving the boys and Tess to watch as they started dancing crazily. Everyone looked on as they danced wishing they could have that much freedom. Sam was feeling like things were going to change between her and Michael very quickly she wanted to talk to Alex about Maria's reaction but right now it would be too soon.

The song changed over again to a slow song and all the boys except for Michael came and got their dates Kyle and Tess walked to the opposite side and danced as Sam made her way back to the bleachers Scott tapped her shoulder behind her.

Sam smiling turned and was staring at Scott in a nice outfit similar to Max's his radiant blue eyes staring down at her and his blond hair all spiked up.

"I thought you had a date?"

Sam smiled and nodded.

"Yeah he seems to be with Isabel Evans right now."

Scott looked shocked and over at Alex and Isabel who despite the change of music were still dancing the same way exchanging kisses every once and a while.

"Wow, he goes from one beauty to another how does he do it?"

Sam smiled and looked down.

"Well would you like to dance, you owe me one ya know."

Sam nodded and the two were on the dance floor. Scott's hands were at the small of Sam's back and she looked over to Michael who wasn't in the best of moods since Scott had tapped her shoulder. In fact he was sitting completely forward watching them both not even hiding his jealousy.

"So, are you going out with anyone at this present moment?"

Sam couldn't keep her eyes off of Michael.

"Sam? Are you?"

Sam shook her head and looked at Scott.

"Huh?"

Scott smiled and asked her again.

"Are you going out with anyone right now?"

Sam looked back at Michael who was still staring at her.

"I don't know."

It was as if Michael could hear everything they were saying with her words he sat up straight and still penetrated her soul with his eyes.

"How do you not know?"

Sam shrugged the song was winding down and Michael's temper was flaring, he got up and watched Sam try to answer Scott's question.

"Uh, well cause I'm not really sure I guess."

Michael gave Sam one last look and walked out of the gym. Sam flinched and pulled away from Scott.

"Oh, hey I don't feel so well, I'll be right back okay I'm going to go get some air."

Scott tried to follow Sam.

"Wait I'll come with you Sam."

Sam shook her head no.

"No, no enjoy the dance I'll be right back please."

Scott tried to smile as Sam went out into the hall to find Michael.

"Michael!"

Sam looked about but didn't see him. She looked to the doors that lead to the parking lot and went outside.

"Michael!"

There was no answer the air was chilled and Sam put her arms about her and looked to the sky. The sky was magnificent and hypnotized her she looked about and found herself a patch of grass and laid down with her black dress tucked under her. She looked to the stars and smiled at them. This whole night had been way to much for her, she started to hum the same lute piece that she heard Macaria humming in her vision.

Michael who was behind a tree trying to settle his feelings heard Sam humming the tune. It drew him near and he laid down next to her silently she hadn't even noticed.

"Why does that tune sound so familiar?"

Sam was a bit shocked and looked over to Michael they met eyes again and both couldn't hide a smile.

"I don't know maybe it's a pop tune, it just comes into my head every once and a while."

Michael looked back at the sky and Sam stole a glance at him and then looked to the sky too.

"So what are we looking for?'

Sam looked up and Saw most of the gang looking at Michael and her laying side by side on the grass. She shot right up and couldn't help but see some surprised looks on their faces.

She was blushing and stood right up as quick as she could in heels.

"The stars, they're beautiful tonight."

Everyone looked up and noticed the stars and smiled and nodded. Max who was leading all of them looked back down to Michael who was slow to get up, he gave him an entertained look and then turned to Isabel and Liz.

"Well I guess we should be getting home then."

Everyone nodded as Isabel and Alex parted Sam walked with Alex to his car and they sat silent for a moment with the car turned on and the radio tuned softly.

"Well, so, what's going on then between you cause you know Maria may just freak!"

Sam laughed to herself.

"I know that's why there's nothing going on I mean there can't be I can't hurt Maria like that plus the whole best friends' rule."

Alex looked at Sam sideways.

"Best friends' rule?"

Sam nodded, "Yeah never date your best friend's current crush, past crush, current or ex boyfriend."

Alex nodded slowly, "Oh, I've never had that problem."

Sam smiled and giggled, "I figured."

"So then the whole Sandie and John thing?"

Sam shrugged, "No violation Sandie, or who she used to be was married to who John used to be it's cancelled out."

Alex nodded in understanding.

"Well then Maria was in violation cause she was with Michael and you two were together first."

Sam smiled at Alex's theories.

"True but she had no prior knowledge about us so it's not fully in violation."

Alex smiled.

"Neither is you getting back with Michael then! She's with Lucas."

Sam looked over to Alex, "But she doesn't know that and we can't tell her so there can't be a Michael and I."

Alex slumped back in his seat. And put his car into drive.

"This gets less complicated for me and yet more complicated for you."

Sam laughed as she turned up the radio and let Alex drive her home.

Ya know Alex was right, his life got less complicated I mean now he's with Isabel, well he does have to keep a secret from her now which is kinda bad for a relationship. But then I have the whole well I'm alone and can't be with Michael because I just can't hurt Maria like that and I can't tell her about us it's too risky.

It's just another wild weekend for Sam Simmons, let's see I worked and tried to avoid Michael on Saturday Alex and Isabel came to eat on their date they looked really happy so I'm happy for them really I am. I decided that we are going to meet at my house on Tuesday and then drive over to the Granolith and discuss our plans further. Alex thinks it's a great idea and we can try to help Courtney and see if we can stop her peeling. She will need a new husk but at least the whole shedding thing will stop.

Sunday of course it's the day before Monday, which means the day before things like school, and tutoring Michael! And who knows what else this week has in store for me you can probably tell I'm not at all very excited about anything. I'm having weird visions that we have to talk about at the meeting. And that's about it I guess I'll give you the rundown of everything, so if I don't talk to you for a while it's not cause I'm ignoring you but because there hasn't been anything interesting to talk about. I could bore you and tell every single detail about class. Though you may fall asleep, if journals could fall asleep. And with that I'm heading to bed.

Sam puts her journal away and lets the lights dim with her powers.