Dear Journal,
It's September 4th again but late at night well, it's still Wednesday so its not as
late as my last entry. You'll notice when exciting things are going on I like to talk about
them in my journal. So you're in luck with all the interesting stuff. Let's see today was
definitely exciting with Future Max roaming around and Liz making new friends there's
never a dull moment here.
We see Liz at her locker listening to Maria talk about a conversation that she had with Lucas last night. Liz on the other hand is staring at Tess who is looking through her notebook alone.
"Maria."
Maria stops talking to Liz and looks at her, "Yeah?"
"Why aren't we nice to Tess?"
Maria looked over at the small blonde going through her notebook.
"Because she's after Max."
Liz looked at Maria cynically, "I don't think she is, ya know she was raised by Nasaedo he filled her head with things. I think we should be friends with her."
Maria nodded and looked over at Tess, "Oh I get it, keep your enemies closer, let's do it."
Liz stopped Maria, "No, I mean it. Look you stay here or go catch up to Sam I'm going to talk to her alone."
Maria shrugged and went to find Sam and Alex while Liz headed over to Tess.
"Hey Tess."
Tess looked up, "Hey."
"So, what's going on."
"I'm not really into bonding Liz."
Liz made a frown, "Have you ever tried?"
Tess smiled and looked at Liz who was trying to be sincere.
"No, I guess not really."
Liz laughed, "Well then how do you know."
Tess shrugged, for once she didn't feel like she had to put on an act in front of Liz or worry about Max. For once Tess felt like maybe she could be friends with Liz.
"So, Tess I think you should bury the hatchet with Max ya know you and Kyle look so cute together."
At this Tess turned a bright shade of pink, it seemed like she had real feelings for Kyle.
"You should just talk to Max and clear the air, I mean him and I are just friends and I think you guys should be friends too."
Tess looked sideways at Liz.
"Why are you being so nice to me Liz?"
Liz shrugged, "Because you're letting me."
The two laughed and had a good conversation on the way to homeroom as they separated they both felt good about talking for once. Talking without the undertones of evil stares and glares. Without Max Evans in-between the two they both had a chance for a friendship. Tess couldn't help but smile on her way into homeroom she took the seat next to Max and leaned over to talk to him.
Max looked worried like Tess was going to try and jump him or something.
Tess held out her hand and smiled.
"Friends Max?"
Max looked puzzled he shook Tess's hand.
"Sure, friends."
Tess nodded and smiled just then Lucas walked into homeroom and sat next to Tess they all began making small talk.
Meanwhile Liz entered homeroom to find Maria sitting on one of the desks obviously filling her two friends in on what Liz was doing. Kyle stood up and went to join them, he joked with Sam a bit and then sat down next to her.
"Are you guys talking about me?"
Maria smiled and nodded.
"I was just filling them in on your new friend."
Liz smiled and nodded.
"It was time to bury the hatchet and get over it."
Kyle smiled, "Good for you Liz."
Liz smiled back, "Thanks Kyle."
As the day went on Liz couldn't help but run into Max. He seemed to be every where she was. And all she could think about was how Future Max was in her room right now sleeping on her floor. Liz had left a note telling him that he could use some of her father's clothes since they should fit him a pair of kakis and a white shirt. She would be back as soon as school let out.
In British Literature they all began Courtly love and of course Max had to read the first poem in front of the class. As Max stood in front of the entire class he cleared his throat and began the first line of William Shakespeare's Eighteenth Sonnet. His eyes moved strait to Liz and he didn't look back at his book once as he recited the poem.
"Shall I compare thee to
a summer's day?
Thou art more lovely and more temperate;
Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,
And summer's lease hath all too short a date:
Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,
And often is his gold complexion dimm'd
And every fair from fair sometime declines,
By chance, or nature's changing course, untrimm'd
But thy eternal summer shall not fade,
Nor lose possession of that fair thou owest;
Nor shall Death brag thou wanderest in his shade
When in eternal lines to time thou growest
So long as men can breathe, or eyes can see
So long lives this, and this gives life to thee"
The room stayed quiet and Liz's heart was skipping beats all over her chest. Max's eyes went to the floor as girls gasped in the room. The teacher Mrs. Feldner grabbed hold of her book so close to her chest like a newborn child.
"Mr. Evans that was wonderful, and you memorized it how grand."
Liz was sinking into her seat.
"The only thing now Mr. Evans is can you tell me what Mr. Shakespeare meant by this sonnet?"
Max looked back at Liz to answer the question.
'The author is describing his love for this woman. She's the most beautiful creature he's ever laid his eyes upon."
Max looks away from Liz for a second and onto the floor. He pauses and breathes deep his eyes return to Liz as he continues.
"He describes how all the beautiful things in the world, wither or die and the seasons change. But not his love's beauty or his love for her. Those things despite time and any other element the world puts in their way cannot change the way he feels for her. They way he looks at her and how his heart beats rapidly in his chest."
Mrs. Felder sighs lightly and then catches herself.
"Thank you Mr. Evans umm, anyone else want to read the next poem?"
Max sat down not taking his eyes away from Liz who was red and burning up. Sam leaned over to her cousin.
"Wow Liz."
Liz just nodded.
"Look this weekend let's hang out at my house on Saturday okay?"
Liz looked over to Max and then back to her cousin.
"Okay sounds great."
With that the day dragged on by. Tess and Lucas sat with Liz, Alex and Sam they all just seemed like they were friends forever. Liz and Tess never realized they had more in common than Max Evans.
Sam dreading her two hours tutoring Michael had completely forgotten to ask Lucas for a ride home. She ran out into the student parking lot too late Lucas was gone as well as half the student body with cars. So much for their connection she thought as the last bus pulled away Michael was sitting on his bike getting ready to put his helmet on.
Sam was a bit shocked, Michael saw Sam and waved. Nervous Sam looked behind her thinking he must be waving to someone else because Michael doesn't wave. Michael smiled and put his helmet on, he rode across the street right on the sidewalk where Sam was standing.
"Do you need a ride Sam?"
Sam looked around hoping for a familiar face, the thought of being close to Michael made her very nervous.
"Umm, well yeah it looks like I do."
Michael smiled and handed Sam his extra helmet.
"Hop on."
Sam smiled shyly and put the helmet on she looked back at Michael clueless.
"Well now you get on behind me."
Sam nodded and sat on the bike holding the sides of the bike to keep herself steady. Michael turned around almost insulted.
"Sam you're going to fall off if you ride like that you have to put your arms around me, like a hug."
Sam shook her head no.
"I think this'll be fine let's go Michael we have to go over your test ya know."
Michael shrugged and restarted his engine the bike jolted forward and scared Sam grabbed around Michael's body and clung there. Michael laughed as he took off out of the parking lot.
"I told you." Michael shouted.
He could feel his blood pressure rise. He never felt this way with anyone no girl had ever touched him the way Sam was touching him now. It wasn't just physical he felt warmer with her touch. Like he was coming home on Thanksgiving or something like a part of him that had been lost was now found. He couldn't help but smile all the way to the Crashdown.
Sam was feeling the closeness too. She wanted to fight it but the attraction the connection was still there and just as powerful as it once was. She tried to keep the picture of her and Rath together tried to keep the images out of her mind. She couldn't her eyes stayed closed until the bike stopped and they were at the Crashdown.
Liz had gotten a ride with Maria and as soon as she got to her room she saw Future Max clad in her father's clothes reading one of her books. He looked up and smiled put the book down and stood up.
"So did you do what I asked?"
Liz nodded, Future Max looked pleased.
"Good, so now we just have to work on, well me."
"Yeah, so what happens if we succeed I mean what happens to you?"
Future Max smiles, "I will cease to exist another version of me will take my place somewhere else."
"So you'll.."
Future Max nods, "Disappear."
"Oh, okay. Umm did we get married?"
Future Max tells Liz about them getting married how it happened. Meanwhile downstairs Sam is trying to fight her attraction to Michael by avoiding his eyes again.
"Why don't you look at me?"
Sam looks up from checking Michael's test he got a really high score on it but she wants to work on the things that he missed.
"Excuse me?"
Sam meets his eyes just to prove a point. She finds herself lost inside of them and shakes his look away.
Max walks into the Crashdown and sees Michael and Sam he walks over and interrupts them.
"Hey guys has anyone seen Liz?"
Sam welcoming the distraction stands up.
"Yeah, she's upstairs I'll go get her for you Max."
With that Sam is going up to Liz's room while Max sits down to talk to Michael.
He pulls out two tickets from his pocket.
"I got tickets to go see Gomez with Liz this Friday night."
Michael nods. "Shouldn't you ask her before you buy the tickets Maxamillion?"
Max shrugs, "How about the way you were with Sam, what's going on with you Michael?"
Michael shrugs, "I don't know Max I just feel so different around her ya know. It's like she's, the one."
Max leans in and then feels Michael's forehead, "Are you feeling okay Michael?"
Michael swats Max's hand away.
"I have no idea, I just know that I want to be with her, near her all the time it's like I'm.."
"In love with her?"
Michael looks over to Max shocked but also nods slightly.
Upstairs Sam knows better to knock on Liz's door. As Liz comes to the door she lets Sam in.
"Hey what's up?"
Sam shrugs, "Nothing much Max wants to see you he's been looking for you so I came up to tell you."
Liz smiles and nods.
"Okay thanks."
Sam gets the idea that Liz wants her to leave, Sam awkwardly goes back downstairs slowly. In Liz's room she's talking to Future Max.
"So what do I do?"
Future Max shrugs, "I got Gomez tickets I want to ask you to go."
Liz blushes she loves Gomez.
"So I say no to Gomez."
Future Max shrugs, "You said no before, I'm not going to take no for an answer."
Liz looks at Future Max whose eyes are transfixed on Liz's bed he's remembering their first night together.
Liz meets his eyes to break him of this spell.
"So, then I tell him I have plans with Maria that night and I can't break them."
Future Max perks up and smiles.
"That might work."
Liz nods composes her self and then makes her way down the stairs where Sam is getting herself a soda as slow as possible while Max and Michael are talking. As Liz approaches Max stands up and they go to sit down at the counter. Sam brings her soda back to he booth and continues to check Michael's test.
"Liz, I want to ask you to the Gomez concert this Friday."
Liz smiles and tucks a piece of her hair behind her ear.
"Oh, well I promised Maria that I would have a girl's night in Max, a sleep over. It really means a lot to her ya know."
Max nods and puts the tickets back into his pocket.
:"Well then how about something on Saturday a movie."
Liz looks shyly back at him.
"Max I thought we promised that we would just be friends."
Max looks a bit taken back.
"You said it, I never promised Liz."
Liz just wanted to be in Max's arms right now to kiss him to feel his arms around her. She shook her head.
"No Max, we have to just be friends for now we have to."
Max shook his head and then let it fall.
"I can't Liz."
With that he walked away and over to the UFO Center for his shift at work. Liz turned around and went back up to her room. She looked at Future Max she didn't see him anywhere had he disappeared.
"Max!? Max!?"
Future Max came out of the bathroom.
"Yeah?"
Liz smiled, she was afraid he had disappeared.
"Well I told him no to Gomez, so."
Future Max looked down at his hand, he was still there nothing had changed.
"I guess we have to wait until Friday then."
Liz nodded and smiled she picked up some of her books and began to study. Future Max followed her lead and picked up the book he had started today. The two didn't talk for a long time.
The thing about time travel is its' so confusing. I mean if Future Max really did
change his destiny with Liz wouldn't he have disappeared right when he came to
Roswell. See that's what makes time travel so confusing. Like is he on this totally
different thread of time that's why he can co-exist here altering this thread while
maintaining here on earth. I guess it's supposed to be confusing everything else is why
not time travel right? What I do know is telling everyone Michael, Max, everyone is
going to be really hard. And then what? Then the questions start and what do we say?
It's times like these that I wish Pete was still here. I mean what if Michael begins to
remember me, remember what we meant to each other. And what about Liz, how am I
going to explain why she has powers and Kyle doesn't. Or more importantly to Max and
the others. How much of our lives and theirs do I let them in on?
