Title: Welcome To Life

Author: Cry Tears of Darkness

Summary: Same as past chapters. Though, to spice things up now, after Lucas talks to his mom, he has some decision making to do, then we fast forward about 4 days then Nahtan and Haley break up after she sleeps with Chris on tour when following her music. Lucas may see this as an oppertunity...

Disclaimer: I don't own any of these WB characters. Nor do I own the song lyrics to "Santa Monica" by Theory of a Deadman (itallicized).

Author's Note: Yes,I know this chapter seems to be going no where, but we got to get Haley out so the rest can happen. Maybe seem pointless, but it's necessary. You'll see, no worries.

Lucas's Point of View

I tried to sleep that night, knowing that I caused problems between my best friend and her husband. How awful of me, I'm supposed to be her friend, I'm supposed to be his brother. And I'm not supposed to be in love with her, I'm supposed to love her. Why now, why am I head over heels for Hales now? This is crazy! I've known her too long to ruin it. Too late for that bright idea now.

She fills my bed with gasoline
You think I wouldn't notice
Her mind's made up
Her love is gone
I think someone's trying to show us a sign
That even if we thought it would last
The moment would pass
My bones will break and my heart would give

"Luke." I heard as I picked up my phone when it rang later that night.

"Hales, what's wrong?" I asked her.

"I don't think we can be friends anymore." She said, I could hear her holding back tears.

"What, why? Is this Nathan's idea?" I asked her.

"No, yes, I mean. Luke I'm married to him. And you kissed me." She said.

"Hales, come on. It, you, but, I..." I was lost for words.

"Goodbye Luke." And she hung up the phone. Just like that. My whole world disappeared in twenty seconds flat.

And I remember the day when you left for Santa Monica
You left me to remain with all your excuses for everything
And I remember the time when you left for Santa Monica
And I remember the day you told me it's over

Haley has always wanted to sing. She has always wanted to be a star. And that's what she got. She met this guy named Chris and he took her on tour with him. She left Tree Hill two days after that phone call. Who would have guessed? Not me.

Maybe Haley is giving up on everything and not just on me. Maybe we're all too small and inferior to her. I don't know anymore, especially after this past week. I've seen a side of her I've never known. It hurts, now that she's gone.

Nathan's Point of View

It hurts to breathe
Well every time that you're not next to me
Her mind's made up
The girl is gone
And now I'm forced to see
I think I'm on my way
Oh, it hurts to live today
Oh and she says "Don't you wish you were dead like me?"

Haley's gone. She, got up and left with Chris to sing. She left me. I, don't know anymore. It's all so much, it's not real right now.

"Nate." I heard a sweet voice on the phone when I answered it.

"Hales, is that you?" I asked. I must be dreaming.

"Nate, I, I want to say I miss you." She said.

"I miss you too. Come home to me. Let me hold you. Don't end it like this." I said. I needed her. I wanted her. I wanted her home now.

"I can't.." She said. It hurt so much. She was so far away from me both physically and emotionally. Since Lucas kissed her, since she began singing with Chris; it's been different.

"Hales..." I said. But I heard a click and she was gone. "Hales" I said again hoping she was still there. Talking to myself.

I went to bed that night and I couldn't sleep. Haley wasn't there, and it hurt still. So much. Where was she when I needed her? Where was she when I was crying over her? Make it go away...

And I remember the day when you left for Santa Monica You left me to remain with all your excuses for everything And I remember the time when you left for Santa Monica And I remember the day you told me it's over

"Nate, I have to talk to you." Haley said into the phone the next day.

"Me too, last night was horrible without you." I said.

"It was horrible without you too. So I hope you can understand better what I'm about to tell you." She said. Oh no, what can she possible have to say?

"Hales, what is going on? Where are you when I need you?" I asked her.

"Nathan. Umm, last night. I missed you, I couldn't sleep without your arms around me. And Chris heard me crying and he came in my room."

"Hales..."

"Let me finish. And I don't know how but we slept together." She cried.

"You... What? Chris? HALEY!" I screamed. It felt like a thousand daggers were shooting through me. Not only did she leave me but she cheated on me too.

"Nate, please try to..."

"Try to understand? That you cheated on me? Don't you think you caused me enough pain! So when I needed you you were fucknig another guy!Stop with the bullshit excuses!"

"Nate, please. It's not like..."

"Not like that? Screw this Haley. This next thing is the hardest thing I've ever had to say. We're over." And I hung up the phone.

Lucas's Point of View

I wanted more than this
I needed more than this
I could use of more than this
But it just won't stop
It just won't go away

We could have been good together. We would have been good together, Hales. If only I had played my moves right. If I hadn't messed up or waited too long. I can't be stuck on the past though. I need to move on. I'll find another way to get to you. To make you see that I'm the one for you. But first, I need to stop hurting over the fact that you left.

Nathan's Point of View

I needed more than this
I wanted more than this
I asked for more than this
But it just won't stop
It just won't go away

What is this? I expected more, Hales. This is not how marriage is supposed to work. You're not supposed to run off and cheat on me, with Chris none the less! I never would have imagined this is what you would do to me. You were the good one, always. What happened? I needed you and you turned your back on me, there is no returning now. It feels like you took my heart and just sliced it apart then scattered the pieces over the country. The pain won't go away. It won't leave. Hales, I'm dying without you and I refuse to go back to you. You're killing me and I'm letting you. How sad is that?

And I remember the day when you left for Santa Monica
You left me to remain with all your excuses for everything
And I remember the time when you left it all behind
And I remember the day you told me it's over

Last night I dreamed. And in my dream, you left me over and over and over. So it wasn't a dream, it was reality on repeat. Stop killing me.

Lucas's Point of View

And I remember the day when you left for Santa Monica
You left me to remain with all your excuses for everything
And I remember the time when you left for Santa Monica
Yeah, I remember the day you told me it's over

It's not over Hales, you're wrong. I'll find you. I'll be with you. That's how much I love you. I know where I need to go from here.