I would just like to say MY GOD is it hard to find a good Kyo angst storybut here aretwo good ones that I found gfo read them! ASHES and FREEDOM IN A CAGE(this one got kinda hard to follow half way through I think I might have missed a chapter somewhere)
JAWX THORN what the hell do you do to always be the first person to review my story? I mean really? It's knida scary but in a really cool way yeah that was defiantly the longest one yet um I think this is going like seven chapters I've got every thing planned out smiles evilly chapters I have everything planned out already now its just finding time to write it and not get it taken away during class that happened on the day that I was writing the first and second chapter I almost had a panic attack cuz my teachers taken away books I read and read them and I didn't want her to read that so I was praying shed through it out then I'd just rewrite it but I've got the worlds worst handwriting and she realized it wasn't homework so she just gave it back. I was ready to cry that's how happy I was. I live on the jersey shore (yeah we get snow and a lot we also probably start later in the year then you) you proly (to lazy to try and spell) live in one of those wonderful places that start school early and are warm all year round like Florida or Arizona (really want to move there don't like the cold or pine trees(allergies))
CLOTI gasp I made some one shudder oh that's so cool I was freaked out at how angsty this story was once I read it over too so your not alone I got al lot of it from reading vampire novels I bought at garage sales. Scary thing is I'm actually a really happy person which is why it's going to be a happy end though . and squeal I got a new reviewer! In regards to the fishnets there really comfortable if you happen to be accident prone and don't believe in band aids for some odd reason and you don't like having the scab get caught on your shirt. I discovered this after tripping down a flight of stairs and getting rug burn on my arm. My friend thought I was a moron though. It was kinda fun though except for the fact that I trip in the same spot every time. Meh
GAME-KID17 your confused? How? By what? I thought I was being really clear? I mean the not telling who the attacker is is going to be a major plot point in the next chapter or so and that's the only thing I can think of to be confused by! And I hinted at who it was in one of the chapters!
NIKKLER: you've got a good guess there but I'm not telling you who it is you'll find out in the last chapter (prolly 8) I'll send the next chapter 2 u my frined got stuck betaing this one
I felt my hands tied above me. I struggled to pull them free the ropes cutting into my wrists painfully. Then his breath was on my face, my struggles now becoming frantic. He smirked sadistically down at me, and then ripped my shirt from my body. He reached out and stroked down my chest, to the waist of my pants before bringing his hand up to my face as I continued to struggle for freedom. His fingers brushed over my face he then rubbed his thumb against my lip. I opened my mouth to protest and he slipped it inside. I bit down drawing blood. He yanked his thumb free and slapped me hard across the face. He dragged the nails down my chest viciously leaving bloody trails behind. He then yanked my pants down.
"I was going to prepare you first but seeing how uncooperative you're being I don't think I will," he hissed in my ear. My struggles now bordering on hysterical. Fear of what was to come gripping me.
I jerked awake almost falling off the bed when strong arms encircled me, holding me down. Not recognizing my surroundings I fought desperately for freedom. I toppled of the bed taking who ever was holding me down with me.
"It's ok. It was just a dream. It's ok. I'm Haru relax I'm just Haru. Nobody is going to hurt you I won't let them," Haru's voice said above me gently rubbing my back as I calmed down enough to realize where I was. I sat there in his arms shaking and trying to get my self to believe what he was saying. Once I had calmed down Haru pulled away, and tilted my chin upwards so that I could be face-to-face with him.
"What was your dream about?" Haru asked me gently rubbing my the back of my head. I shook my head not wanting to think about the day everything began, "If you don't tell what's been happening to you won't be able to help you. And I can't protect you from whoever's been doing this to you unless I know who did it," Haru whispered gently keeping eye contact wit me trying to convince me to tell him.
'I can't tell him if I do he won't believe me. Why should he my father didn't? He'll kick me out of his house if he finds out that it's more then just the cuts and bruises or who's been doing this to me. He'll think I'm disgusting if he knows the truth," I shook my head looking down trying to disguise the tears pricking at the edges of my eyes that had welled up at the thought of Haru hating me. I couldn't figure out where these feelings were coming from or why I had them for some one I had only met three days earlier.
"It's ok you don't have to tell me now. You can do it when your ready I'll wait. Don't worry about it," Haru continued to whisper as he pulled me to him once again.
"Kyo."
"What?"
"If you stayed here you wouldn't have to deal with who ever is doing this to you. They won't be able to hurt you if I'm here. I have more than enough room and I live close to the school," Haru suggested staring at me with eyes that seemed to look straight through me.
"What about your parents?"
"My mother is dead and don't live with my father anymore."
I watched him torn between going back home where I was comfortable and used to the routine or staying here safe with someone I barley knew but was irresistibly drawn too. "I'll stay here but I have to call Tohru. She doesn't know where I am," I said pulling away for the warmth of Haru's arms.
"Who's Tohru?" he asked staring at me once more.
"She's my sister. She's probably having a panic attack not knowing where I am. Where's the phone so I can call her?" Haru pointed behind over his shoulder into the adjoined room that I hadn't noticed until just now. I slowly pulled away not wanting to leave his protective embrace and walked into the other room in search of the phone. I found it quickly and dialed my home number. It rang five times before the answering machine picked up.
"Hey this is Kyo I was just calling to tell you that I'm ok and that I won't be home for awhile. I'm staying with my friend Haru right now. I'll see you… eventually. Until then don't worry about me. That includes you Tohru," I said whispering the last part into the phone. I stood there shaking I had just made it final that I would here with Haru. I couldn't back out now, even if I had wanted to. I felt Haru's arms encircle me bringing me back to lean against his chest.
"Don't worry it'll be ok," Haru whispered into my ear nuzzling his face into the back of my neck. I nodded still nervous about what would happen now that I was living with him.
"You should eat it's been days since you did last," Haru whispers in my ear pulling me gently into another room, while I tried to cope with the idea of leaving everything I knew behind.
'I deserve better than having to live with the abuse, at least that's what Haru thinks…but I don't. Haru barely knows me he doesn't know what I do. But how can something someone I just met thinks be right and what everyone else that's known me for so much longer be wrong? Wasn't I the reason my mom killed herself? To get away from me? Everybody has always told me that I shouldn't have been born so isn't the abuse what I deserve in return?'
"Here I made raman," Haru said placing a bowl down in front of me jarring me away from my thoughts.
"Huh?" I ask staring around me.
Haru smiles gently, while blowing on his raman, amusement sparking in his eyes. "I asked you what you wanted to eat but you were to lost in your thoughts to answer so I just made raman. I figured raman was a good thing to make since pretty mush everyone likes it and your still sick."
"Oh," I replied and started eating my own raman, the rest of the meal past in silence. Once finished Haru left walking into the living room, I turned around to watch him as he dug around in the closet before pulling back with a futon. He then pulled it into the bedroom, disappearing from sight. He then walked out a few minutes later.
He looked over to see me watching him and smiled, "like what you see?" he asked walking over and sitting back down In front of me. I looked at my raman trying to hide the embarrassed blush covering my cheeks.
"I set up a futon in the bed room that way if you have another nightmare I won't have to wander around in the dark trying to get to you from the living room," Haru said watching me as I pushed the raman around the bowl.
"wait your going to sleep on the futon? But it's your house! You should get the bed. It's not fair for me to take it," I said realizing what he was planning on doing.
"Exactly you're my guest. Plus your sick sleeping on the floor won't help your health any. Once I save up enough money I'll buy another bed. Or we could just share the one I already have," he added a small lecherous smile appearing on his face.
"Wha-"
'he just like everyone else. He just wants to…' Trying not to panic I looked up at him to see him trying to hold back laughter amusement sparking in his eyes at my reaction. Not able to control it Haru's laughter bubbled out.
'He was just joking. Joking. Just joking,' I told myself calming down. I glared angrily at him refusing to join in his laughter not finding anything funny about the situation still shaking slightly at the implications of what he had just said. 'I shouldn't be mad at him. He couldn't have known what has happened,' Haru stopped laughing almost immediately as he noticed the look on my face.
"I'm sorry I shouldn't have said that. We just met and you don't know me that well," Haru said picking up my bowl of raman and washing it out in the sink as well as his own.
"There's a bathroom attached to the bedroom you can take a shower I'll find some clothes for you to wear."
I nodded and headed into the bathroom. Setting the water on the hottest setting I climbed in and washed trying not to think about Haru being right out side. I looked down at my legs and saw all the cuts there. They weren't caused by anyone except myself. I had started cutting during the first month in hopes of being able to take away the pain from what had been going on however it had only made it worse so in less than three weeks I had stopped, cursing myself for my weakness at not being able to go through with it and just kill my self and for my weakness of having wanted to get away from the pain by adding to it. Feeling the water run cold I got out of the shower and toweled off. There was a knock at the door as I wrapped the towel around my waist. I opened the door to find Haru holding out a pair of sweat pants and a t-shirt. I took the clothes and headed bock into the bathroom pulling on the sweat pants, which were falling off my hip. I then pulled on the shirt thankful it was a button up and not a pullover.
As I walked out of the bathroom, and into the bedroom Haru looked up from his position on the futon and smiled staring at me as I pulled a comb through my hair.
"What are you staring at?"
"Nothing…your hair in the moonlight."
After he said that I starred at him dumbfounded and clueless as to how I should respond. I looked at him expecting him to be holding back laughter once again. However this time he was staring at me trying to convey what ever it was that he had left unsaid. My stomach seemed to have dropped out of my body and my lungs refused to work right as my heart clenched in something other than fear like the rest of my reactions had been. Haru's expressing darkened slightly before he plastered on a strained smile.
"Good night," he said lying down, pulling the blankets with him, and turning over facing away from me.
"Good night," I whispered back shutting off the light, and crawling into bed. As I laid there trying figure out what the feeling in my chest had been The feeling was somewhat similar to the feeling I got when I thought about Tohru. But somehow almost completely different.
yup back to short chapters sigh at least I'm posting on this fic the rest of mine died cuz I couldn't get anyone to read them. sob my friends wouldn't even read them. But this one I just lots of positive feed back and I can't pay my friends to read it! And so you should review this story cuz I'm just not loved by my friends.
REVIEW! THERE'S A REASON THAT BUTTONS THERE AND IT'S NOT TO LOOK PRETTY. IT'S THERE CUZ THERE NOTHING THAT MAKES ME HAPPIER THAN GETTING ANY KIND OF FEED BACK (other than going to a Billy Idol concert someone wanna hook me up with tickets?) AS LONG AS I MANAGE TO GET A REACTION OUT OF PEOPLE!
