IAN:walks on to stage clear throat ATTENTION IMPORTANT NOTICE: ok now that I've got your attention LILRAMONA and ANZU2 are having a friendly competition that will result in a longer story for you guys w00t! so go thank ANZU2 for that LILRAMONA was going to end it either this chapter or next but she changed her mind so that they can have the competition. The competition is WHO WRITES THE BEST ANGST! The RULES are as follows if YOU READ LILRAMONA'S story YOU MUST READ ANZU2'S story. You THEN REVIEW BOTH OF THEM saying what you liked and didn't like and whose you think is better BE HONEST! LILRAMONA and ANZU2 are going to be reading each others story. Hopefully there will be no more eating of rough drafts looks pointedly at LILRAMONA
LILRAMONA: big innocent eyes that are clearly guilty what? I was hungry. ANZU2 your rough draft was really good…in both writing and in taste. giggles and grins kinda evilly
IAN: your mom's rough draft tastes good puts whole weight on LILRAMONA
LILRAMONA: falls over from IAN's Weight IAN STOP LEANING ON ME AND DON'T YOU DARE MESS UP MY HAIR!
IAN: messes up hair then runs away from bo staff wielding LILRAMONA
LILRAMONA: try and see if you can find the Rocky horror quote in this chapter Haru says it kinda like Haru said the rent quote in chapter 5 I like using quotes that you'd have to know the sound track or movie really well to be able to find.
YVONNE MY WIFE! You'd better be participating in this competion your eagerness to help me out is what inspired it between me and ANZU2 that and our love for competion. Good luck on getting your red belt! I'm a red belt now but this is my halfway through my third year. Your karate school goes through belts really quickly mine has 10 before we get our black belt and we have to wait 3 months for our next one except brown red and pre-black then its six months. I like the fact that you have so much faith in me and want to fight for me however sparring's the only thing I'm really good at (ask ANZU2 she made me and SNoWBUNNY3 spar in her back yard as a going away present) and I like fighting my own battles I don't like getting help from other people I normally bite their heads off for trying to help me. But thanks for the offer. Keep doing karate it's a good outlet for pent up anger (mostly unsuspecting boys that go oh wow she's short and a girl I don't want to hurt her) NEVER underestimate the power of a feminist with a Napoleon complex it doesn't end well. .
CLOTI yup cutter kyo and a little bit a haru lovin for him too. And what would be Haru's secret? I didn't think I hinted at it that much or well at all other then making it know there is one.
ANZU2 YES! I TOOK A BITE OUT OF YOUR PAPER AND IT TASTED GOOD AND CRAZY SQUIRRELS EAT PAPER THAT'S WHY I DID IT DUH. we shall see who wins! Stupid bitch. Mlalm sticks tongue out at anzu I love you too (platonically) I even bought you a present actually I only paid for half of it SNOWBUNNY3 paid the other half. starts spazzing out and gets all happy ANZU SAID I WRITE BETTER. I GOT A COMPLIMENT AN ACTUAL COMPLEMENT THAT WASN'T HALF INSULT! Calms down and sits back in chair Thanks I know I've been working on my writing for the past year I've gotten really good then again anything compared to what I was writing last time I posted is threw the roof. And see anzu see see my story could be considered the best fic out there in this genre like my one reviewer said since my writing got sooooo much better and there are sooo few tear at least I can read yours . yeah I stole your smiley watcha gonna do about it? Your empty without it empty a hallow empty shell. And I WANT MY CDS AND MANGA BACK DON'T MAKE ME RAID YOUR ROOM I CAN DO THAT. I KNOW WHERE YOU LIVE! What do you think of my portrayal of Ian does it seem like him?
MAYAN-DEVIL w00t go you your review number 20! Throw your self a party!
JAWX THORN yes I am the worlds tallest hobbit I could also probably figure out what you were trying to say since my thoughts don't make sense till I put them down on paper and even then they sometimes don't. also your slowing down in getting back to me in reviews by a lot I mean you were the fourth person to review!
I woke to the feeling of arms around my waist, and almost had a panic attack trying to remember what had happened the night before and figure out how HE managed to get to me with Haru—Haru…it was Haru holding me. I looked back over my shoulder to see Haru there smiling contently in his sleep and pulling me closer. Looking at the clock next to the bed I saw it was almost eleven-thirty.
"Haru…Haru wake up your late for school," I said shaking.
"It's win break, sleep good," Haru mumbled into the pillow pulling me closer, and going back to sleep.
"It's winter break already?" I practically shouted, nearly falling out of the bed.
"Huh? Yeah that thing with the snow, and time off, and Christmas, and all that," Haru said sitting up.
"I know WHAT winter break is. I just didn't know that it stared. It's almost Christmas and I haven't gotten you or Tohru presents."
"You don't have any money to buy them with."
"I have some in my wallet that was in my pocket unless it got stolen."
"It didn't get stolen its with your clothes in the bottom draw. Don't worry about getting me a present. Just cook me something that doesn't have the instructions on the back of the package."
"But-"
"Go back to sleep I'm tired," Haru said pulling me back against him. We didn't wake up again until close to three. Haru slid out of bed took a shower. When he came back he dressed in his usual clothes but went to the dresser and pulled out some other clothes and stuffed them into a plastic bag. Leaving for work he said that he would be home thirty minutes early before walking out the door. I then rolled out of bed, and looked in the bottom draw for my clothes. I found them there as Haru had said as well as what looked to be some of Haru's old clothes as well. I pulled out a pair of camouflage pants, and the black shirt I had worn the day he had found me unconscious. I then searched the draw for my wallet, once found I counted the money. I walked over to the closet and began to search through it for a coat that fit me. I finally pulled out a black leather jacket that was only a little to big on me, it wasn't exactly my taste but Haru would've freaked if he found out I went outside and didn't wear a jacket.
I set off down the street in search of a store that I could possibly find something for both Tohru and Haru. 'Me and Haru were dating now right? I mean what was last night if we weren't?' I almost had passed out from nerves right there at the thought of last night meaning nothing even if all we did was make out.
'I'll just ask him when he gets home. That's all I have to do. I mean Haru wouldn't just use me like that. He wasn't like HIM. They were like hot and cold nowhere near the same thing. Until the temperature rose to high then it felt cold…oh god Haru could just be using me…oh god.' I had to stop then and lean back against a brick wall to try and get my emotions back under control. Once I felt I could walk with out collapsing I continued down the street. However the further I got from the apartment I got the worse the area got.
I quickly found a jewelry shop and began looking around. I found a small silver bracelet with pink gems hanging from it that I thought Tohru would like, I planned on giving it to her when I saw her I school after break. Checking the price I discovered I could buy it and still afford to buy something for Haru. On the way to the register I saw a necklace with a sword that was about three inches long hanging from it. Close to the hilt of the sword there was an outline of a cat carved into it. Looking at I smiled and knew I had to get it for Haru, he'd love it, it matched his taste in clothing and jewelry and I could always be close to him with the cat carved into it.
As I was walking out of the store after purchasing the presents I saw a flash of white. I turned to look at where I had seen the flash and there was someone in black leather pants, as the torso was already out of view, getting into the passenger seat of a car that then sped off down the road. I tilted my head slightly at the idea of someone else having the same hair color as Haru but shrugged it off as just my mind playing tricks on me, I had been spending a lot of time with Haru or thinking about him when he wasn't around.
Getting home I hid the presents in a cabinet knowing that Haru wouldn't do anything remotely resembling cooking if I was there to do it instead. My stomach growled loudly and I began making raman for lunch. After I had finished eating I walked in to the bathroom planning on taking a shower, however when I had pulled off my boxers I saw the scars from before I had met Haru vivid pinks and purples against my pale skin. I reached shakily toward the razor on the sink. The blade was pressed against my flesh before I could think about what I was planning on doing. I looked down at my thigh trying to pull my arm away but a voice in the back of my head whispered to me about how good I would feel once I had let the blood flow out of me. My hand began to press down but an image of Haru flashed through my mind unbidden. I had been happy with Haru. I hadn't cut myself for two weeks and I still felt fine. Maybe I didn't need to continue cutting I'd though slowly pulling the blade away from my skin and putting it back on to the sink. I shakily clambered into the tab and ran the water as hot as I could trying to put the razor that was only a few feet away from me. After I had finished washing up and getting dressed I left the bathroom as fast as I could hoping that if I couldn't see the razor I wouldn't think about it. I wandered around the apartment trying to think of something to do but every few minutes I'd find myself back in the bathroom looking at the razor, thinking about whether or not Haru was just using me like HIM.
I found myself holding the razor to the flesh on my thigh just barely pressing down when Haru's voice rang out through the apartment. Startled I jerked my hand the razor digging deep into my flesh. I bit back a cry of pain and hopped over to the sink and quickly washed off the razor and placed it down where it had been originally.
"Kyo. Kyo are you here?" Haru's worried voice called out.
"Yeah. Just give me a minute," I called back searching the cabinet for a band-aid that I knew was some where in there. Quickly bandaging the cut I then walked out of the bathroom trying to act like nothing had happened. Almost walking directly into Haru, I stumbled back into the bathroom. Tripping over my own feet I fell backwards landing on the hard tile floor.
"You ok?" Haru asked kneeling down in between my legs and grinning impishly down at me.
"Yeah you just scared me a bit," I replied shakily starting to sit up. Haru leaned forward and crawled up my body forcing me to lie back down.
"Good I wouldn't want to have accidentally broken my boyfriend before we went out on our first date," Haru whispered, lips brushing against mine before stealing a small kiss, as I laid there stunned at his ability to know what was bothering me and fix it with out me having to say a word.
"So what do you say about us making dinner together. Even though I tend to burn everything including water and thought that there was milk in cookies the first time I made them, I think if you help me I could actually manage to make something edible," Haru asked pulling back and sitting down on my thighs.
I bit back a wince as Haru's weight rested against the cut on my thigh, "that'd be great just do exactly what I say. One question though why would you put milk in cookies your supposed to put the cookies into the milk."
"I know the cookies kind of burned and were like really liquidy," Haru said smiling sheepishly while pulling me to my feet. We made hamburgers for dinner since they were fairly easy to make and it would take a decent amount of effort to mess them up. However Haru did manage to burn the first one he made to crisp. After dinner Haru took a shower. Thirty minutes later Haru still hadn't emerged from the bathroom.
"Haru you ok in there?" I asked knocking on the door. I waited ten minutes filled with absolute silence before knocking on the door again, "Haru? HARU! Look Haru if you don't respond in the next ten seconds I'm coming in."
I waited less then seven seconds before my nerves gave out and I burst through the door. I slid across the wet tile floor just barely catching my self on the edge of the tub. Stretched across the tub I quickly caught my breath and looked down to see the tub filled with bubbles just before two arms reached up and yanked me downwards and into the tub fully clothed as Haru's head emerged form the bubbles, a wicked grin spread across his face. Spluttering I shook my wet hair out of my eyes and attempted to get out of the tub, prevented however buy Haru's arms tightening around me.
"Hey relax. Come swim the waters of sins of the flesh," Haru said pulling me closer to him.
"Are you even wearing any clothes!" I practically yelled jerking away from him and nearly falling over the edge of the tub, before managing to pull my self out. Sliding on the now soaking floor I fell backwards grabbing on to the edge of the sink to keep myself from falling. I felt the razor bite deep into my flesh, hissing I jerked my hand back, and fell to the ground. I stumbled to my feet and out of the bathroom and into the kitchen with my hand cradled protectively to my chest, my mind racing.
'Haru's like everyone else exactly like everyone else. He doesn't really like me. He-he- he just-just-he just wants-wants w-what- everyone else wants what HE wants,' these thoughts spun around my head faster and faster my fear increasing as I leaned over the sink washing the blood off my hand. My stomach lurched, and I yanked my hand bock out of the stream of water and emptied my stomach into the sink. I was shaking so hard that I couldn't stay standing. As my legs gave out and I began to fall to the ground Haru's arms wrapped around as he eased me to the ground and held me in his arms despite my desperate attempts to get away from him.
"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to scare you I thought it would be funny I didn't mean for you to panic. I really didn't. I was wearing my pants…still am. You know we're getting my kitchen floor soaked right? Kyo, Kyo calm down and listen to me," Haru said turning me around to face him. he was wearing soaking wet pants with bubbles covering them like he had said and the puddle under us was growing rapidly.
"Kyo I didn't mean to scare you it's just sometimes I don't think before I act. I'm sorry," Haru said looking directly into my eyes his emotions showing clearly. Nodded unable to speak under the intense gaze, "Let me see your hand," Haru said gently pulling my hand toward him, his brow creased as he wiped some of the blood away from the cut only to have more quickly replace it.
"You should go to the hospital this is really deep you could've cut the artery," Haru said helping me stand up. I shook my head quickly thinking of the last time I had gone to the hospital, "Kyo you have to go it could be really serious." I pulled my hand away and began backing up bumping into the table shaking my head even harder.
"Kyo why won't you go? If your afraid of hospitals its ok I'll be there with you, but you have to go. Kyo," Haru said leaning down so that he was eye level with me, "if you tell me why you don't want to go to the hospital I won't make you go I'll see what I can do myself but if it doesn't stop bleeding in the next twenty-four hours I'm gonna have to take ok?"
I stared at Haru torn between telling him why I didn't want to go to the hospital and actually having to go to the hospital, either way I had to face the memories of what happened the last time I went to the hospital.
"I'll tell you what happened," I said shakily not looking up at Haru's face. He gently led me back into the bathroom and sat me down on the toilet lid while he pulled bandages and rubbing alcohol out of the cabinet under the sink from where I had shoved them earlier in the day. Haru quickly cleaned and bandaged my hand before leaving the room to return with sweat pants and a t-shirt for e to change into. While he was handing me the clothes a white scar across his palm stood out brightly against the flesh of his palm exactly where the cut on my hand was. He then left closing the bathroom door. I quickly changed out of my soaking wet clothes and into the dry ones, stepping out of the bathroom I headed into the kitchen to see Haru in a dry pair of pants moping up the kitchen floor. Looking up he quickly put the mop away and pulled me out of the room and into the living room sitting me down on the couch he looked at me waiting for me to start explaining. Taking a deep breath I slowly began.
"The last time I was in a hospital was after my mom died," I paused and looked into Haru's face his eyes encouraging me to continue, the words spilling quickly from my mouth now in an attempt to get out before I lost my nerve, "my mom she hated me. She was afraid of me. She would never let me leave the house because of that fear. She lied and pretended to love me she always said that was the reason she wouldn't let me leave the house. But she hated me and couldn't deal with having me for a son she loved Tohru but apparently the bad out weighed the good and she killed herself the day before my eighth birthday. I saw her body in the hospital. My relatives were there but I couldn't cry in front of them. They cursed at me and pitied my mother for having been stuck with me as a child they talked about how- how I didn't even cry when she died, and how I was a monster," I finished tears pricking at the edges of my eyes as I fought to keep myself from breaking down. Haru's arms slid around me and pulled me to his chest, whispering to me how it wasn't my fault. His words as comforting as they were they sent me over the edge. I buried my head into his chest my shoulders shaking as sobs wracked my frame. I clung to Haru's frame desperately, as he rubbed my back soothingly. After ten minutes of sobbing nonstop my tears died down to small sniffles. Haru gently picked me up and carried into the bedroom. Yanking back the covers he placed me down on the bed telling me that he'd be back after he finished cleaning up the bathroom and kitchen. I nodded sleepily and closed my eyes asleep before Haru had even left the room.
EVERYONE I'M ON MYSPACE GO LOOK UP LILRAMONA it might be chibi risu-chan though but that's only if I cant figure out how to change my name on there (yes I really am that hopeless) ANZU2 the wonderful person that she is made the account for me since I was to lazy to do it myself I actually never make my own account for anything SNOWMBUNNY3 I(I wrote the second chapter of her story go read) made my fanfiction account you'll know its my myspace cuz there'll be billy idol as my back ground yes I am very obsessed with this guy
