Chapter 17: Back To Normal

A/N: Thanks guys! I would answer all the questions but I'll answer the one I remember (sorry) Was James over-hearing the last conversation between Lily and Fabian a good thing, or wasn't it? You'd think it was... but you'll see! Lol, I know that wasn't an answer, but I don't want to give it away. Enjoy please!!

Disclaimer: I own this... not really, but it'd be cool if I did! Also: This chapter starts where last left off.

Back To Normal

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We filed out of the hall, breakfast being over now. James stayed behind with Sirius while Amelia, Edgar and I walked towards the Charm classrooms; our first class of the day. Fabian winked at me from across the hall and I glared.

"Where's Dorcas?" I asked quietly, looking around and noticing she wasn't there.

"With her boyfriend," grinned Edgar.

"Who!?" I asked and the twins laughed in return, pointing towards Sirius.

Sure enough, he was standing next to Dorcas and James... and another girl. It was the same girl who I had seen James tutor before, they were... flirting. From the distance I couldn't make out what they were saying... maybe they weren't flirting at all.

Stop kidding yourself, said the little voice in the back of my head.

I sighed, tears welling up, and I begged them not to fall. How can he get over me so quickly? How can he not feel or show anything remotely related to pain? How could he? I saw them smile and grin, she gave him a small kiss on the cheek and a hug. I could hear her call, "See you then!" and walk away happy as ever.

I walked down the hall, silently and bit my lip trying to keep the tears in my eyes. The tears blurred my vision but I didn't care. I felt so much plain now, but I knew people were staring. James and I weren't deep in conversation or kisses. We weren't even in the same area anymore. Something was going on, and the school knows.

I clutched my books tightly to my chest, having the familiar feeling of being a little first year without any friends; going around the school lost, and hoping not to run into the wrong people. I pulled my hair up into an uncomfortable pony tail and I looked as bad as I possibly could. I made what I felt on the inside, show on the outside. I was crushed... and everyone now knows it.

Walking down the hall I hummed a tune my mum used to hum to make me put to sleep when I was awake, or stop crying when I was frightened. I felt footsteps behind me and saw Sirius, Dorcas, Amelia, Edgar, Remus, Peter and James walking down the hall.

"Lily!" called Dorcas. I turned around and gave her a helpless look. "Walk to class with us, Lil."

"I... I think I'll catch up with you guys later," I whispered quietly, continuing on my way.

"Nonsense. Come on Lily, we're going to the same class you are."

I turned around and quickly wiped one tear away that fell, and I shook my head no. Dorcas and Sirius exchanged glances and ran over towards me. I continued walking like I was okay, and as though I didn't want to talk.

"Hang out with us tonight, Lil," said Sirius.

"I thought I was," said James, coming towards us.

"Never said you weren't," said Sirius casually. "You and James can hang out with us—"

"I'm fine, really. No need—"

"I wasn't—"

"Potter can go—"

"What?!" chorused everyone. I looked away frowning and started walking towards the classroom.

"Bye," I whispered breathlessly, ducking inside; Sirius followed me.

"What's wrong?"

"What do you mean what's wrong!?" I asked angrily, he stared. "James is over me!"

"What gives you that idea?" inquired Sirius.

"He was with what's-her-name."

"So—?"

"'See you then!'" I said, mimicking the girl's voice.

"He's tutoring her," said Sirius calmly, I looked away. Of course Sirius would say that. He's covered for James plenty of times: I know all of his tricks.

"Don't try to make me feel better, Sirius."

"I know what's going on," he said quietly. "I heard about that Hogsmeade thing. Dorcas saw it too—"

"Excuse me?!" I exclaimed turning to face him, as our friends walked into the room and to their seats. "Dorcas thinks I—"

"I never said that," Sirius said quietly, looking over at his girlfriend. "She was with her friends from Ravenclaw and she said she saw you walking with Prewett."

I looked down at my hands nervously. Sirius frowned at turned towards James and Remus. The seat to my right that was empty was soon filled with a familiar face: John Abbott.

"Lily Evans is that you?!" he said, a smile on his handsome face. He had to be around six foot four inches, in all honestly.

"John! What are you doing here? I thought you were at Durmstrang?"

"Dad died... so Mum and I moved back here."

"I'm sorry," I said quietly. "It's great to see you."

"You look very pretty, Lily," he said pulling me into a hug.

John was my friend from first year to third year. When his parents moved away they took him to Durmstrang. His mother had originally insisted on him going to Hogwarts still, but his father had never really seen eye-to-eye with Professor Dumbledore.

"Thanks!" I bushed, "When do you get back!?"

"Not too long ago... How are you doing?"

"Fine really..."

We talked until class was over. Professor Flitwick found it most annoying that we talked so long. He realized who John was though, and welcomed him back. Continuing on through the lesson, Professor Flitwick partnered John and I up, naturally, because I was one of the tops in the year. We then we walked to our next class together. I knew of course that McGonagall would not put up with us talking, no matter how glad she was that John had returned.

"James Potter?!" he asked disbelievingly.

"Oh yeah," I said smiling slightly.

"That's insane. You used to hate him. Still remember what you used to call him."

"I spent more time with him. He changed," I said quietly.

"Where is he?"

"I dunno... we broke up," I said quietly.

That ended our conversation as we reached the Transfigurations classroom. Dorcas sat next to me, and Edgar took over being John's partner. Amelia joined Remus, and James and Sirius paired up. When Dorcas sat down she got right to the point she was going to make.

"You and James broke up!?" she asked quietly.

"Yeah," I answered quietly.

"Why did you break up, and when did you break up?" I sighed and told the Hogsmeade story again. "No bloody way!" she swore loudly. "I saw what happened! What a load of rubbish!"

I shrugged. "Need me to kick his arse for you?"

"No," I said rolling my eyes. "It won't make a difference."

"I saw Prewett kiss you."

"He won't believe you... he didn't believe me."

"What a prat," she said shaking her head in disbelief. "You're better off without him I think."

"I suppose."

"John's back," said Dorcas yawning.

"Yeah, I noticed," I said laughing.

"Trying to make James jealous, aye?"

"Bloody hell no!"

"Didn't mean to offend you there, Lil."

I rolled my eyes. "There's nothing wrong with John. I'm just not interested. I mean... I used to fancy him remember?"

"Yeah then came Remus."

"Oh god, don't remind me," I laughed.

"I remember you and Amelia stopped being friends—"

"The worst nine months of my life..."

"'Cause you dated him... then you decided to just be friends. And when Amelia fell for him you decided to go back with him."

I grinned sheepishly. "What was I thinking? Anyway then came that prat, Prewett."

"And now James... Unless you find him repulsive, now?"

I shrugged. "What's up with you and Black?"

"Sirius?"

"No," I said rolling my eyes. "Details Dor, details."

"Nothing much to say... We started going out and then here we are."

"Jealous of what James and I had?" I grinned.

"Oh yeah," she said mockingly.

"Oh, don't make fun," I lightly hit her.

My insides squirmed as I joked. What James and I had... That statement made everything so final. Like that fact that we were no longer together. That we could no longer be together because he didn't trust me. I learned to trust him... but he couldn't meet me half way!? Maybe Dorcas is right... maybe I'm better off without him.

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I'm not. Not no way, not no how. I want my boyfriend back. I've been continuously picked on by Slytherins and it looks as though James doesn't care. It was awful what happened only moments ago. I'm still fuming from it actually. What a prick!

(Flash Back)

"Mudblood," said a cold voice from behind me.

I rolled my eyes, "Get a life, Snape."

"What happened to poor Potty? Did he break up with the Mudblood?"

I rolled my eyes and turned around to look at the group of Slytherins. There were only four but they were all skilled at hexes and curses. I didn't recognize two, but the two I did were obviously Severus Snape and Regulus Black, who was Sirius' brother. I had been walking down the hall with the same group I normally walked with, except this time Remus, Peter and James were walking a little behind the group and Sirius was walking with Dorcas next to Amelia, Edgar and John.

"Get stuffed."

"Don't tell me what to do, Mudblood," Snape said advancing towards me. He took out his wand and pointed it at me. I pushed his hand away and turned to look at Amelia who was walking towards James.

"Help her!" ordered Amelia. "Please James!"

"Get her boyfriend to help her," he said loudly.

"I haven't got a boyfriend."

"Hey Abbott, watch out for Evans, okay? She'll cheat on you the first chance she gets," said James coldly.

"First off," I said moving away from Snape who still had his wand pointing at me. "I'm not dating anyone. John's just my friend. And secondly, I would never cheat on you. Maybe you're too thick to know this, but I LOVE YOU!"

He stared down at me, his figure towering over me. "Coincidence, huh?"

"I don't even know you anymore," I said in a low voice.

"That's because you KNOW a lot of other guys really well, huh Evans?"

My eyes widened and I leaned up smacking James across the face. "How—how DARE you say that about me?! Just because I wouldn't shag with you—"

"You were shagging with every other guy in Hogwarts."

"Do you honestly believe that?" I asked quietly. "Do you honestly think so little of me?"

"Prove otherwise," he said cockily.

"How do I prove that I've only ever wanted to be with you this year? That I've only ever wanted to kiss you?"

"Prove it," he said raising his eyebrows.

I bit my bottom lip and pushed past him, "Pervert."

(End)

Honestly, how easy does he think I am? I'm not running back into his arms. Curse me if I ever do. How he's getting into heaven is a shock to me. I hope he falls off his broom stick after being struck by lightning! Ha! I'm planning James Potter's death... everything's back to normal.

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A/N: Here's another chapter. Please read Attention... I hope you like it because I tried it with two different characters from a totally different ship that I like, but never write about.

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