"We belong together" Jesse whispered in my ear. And that's why it was hard.
"Jesse, I can't. We-"
"Can't what? We can do anything together Querida. I love you." He nuzzled at my ear, but no one could see it. Not that anyone else was in my room.
" Jesse, when you left it broke my heart. And it hurt so much. I can't pretend you aren't dead." He pulled back, and a tear dropped from my cheek onto his jeans. Then we were silent for a while. Silent while I looked down and he looked at the tear.
" I know." He said silently. Any bit of life in his eyes disappeared. Then, I cupped his face in my palm.
"I want you here. I wanted to be with you more than-"
"More that what?" He took my hand off of his face. "More than I want to be with you?" I was a little taken back. " More than I want to be alive? More than I want to feel you, more than I want to kiss you?" He grabbed me and pulled me into an intoxicating kiss. Then he pulled away quickly. " You can't feel my blood, or the warmth? No, neither can I. So I guess your right. I guess we were never meant to be." He was mad, but I didn't get a chance to say anything back, because the second I stood up he disappeared.
"Jesse! Don't you dare leave me like that again!" I screamed at the walls, a river of hot salty tears streaming dowm my face an nose. "Don't you dare leave me!" I grabbed my pillow from my bed, and ripped its cover, screaming. " Get back here!" I was throwing everything around. Then as I was taking all the sheets off of my bed, I heard a few people coming up the stairs. As soon as I fell onto the floor, my oldest brother sleepy and two of his friends burst into the room. Finding me a bloody mess and my room torn apart.
"Shit." He said. Then he started to come in.
"Get out." I growled, standing.
"No, Suze. Your messed up. I'm going to call your dad." One of his friends picked up a picture of me and Jesse.
"Get away from it!" I screamed at him. And as I screamed, a fireball appeared in my hand. His friends screamed, and so did Sleepy. Wait, did I not forget that I had discovered my new gifts with the help of Paul? We don't just make-out at mediator/shifting lessons you know.
" My dead boyfriend just fucking died. And if you don't leave me alone you'll be next." I hurled the fire at my wall, setting it ablaze. Screaming they ran from my room leaving me to wonder what happened. How it happened. Then as I heard a fire truck, Jesse appeared.
"Susannah. Come on." He reached out to pull me up, but I threw him to the ground.
"Get away from me." I growled, running my hands threw my hair.
"Susannah. I don't know how you started the fire, but I'm not letting you die."
"That's right. You're not going to let me die. I'm making you." Then I whispered a few words remembered father Dom saying, and I was gone. When I looked again, Jesse was standing befor me. Alive. We were back in front of his campus dorm.
" Quierda, you ok?" He asked, pulling my chin up.
"You're- you're not dead?" I asked, then he laughed.
" Uh no suze, not anymore." Then we kissed. It was sweet and gentle, not like Paul's.
" Well, I have to go darling." He sighed and started to leave, but I grabbed his arm.
" What will I do when you're gone Jesse?" I whispered into his lips.
" Suze. I'll never leave you."
" I know, but if you were to die today…what should I do?"
" Suze?" He raised his left eyebrow at me.
" Never mind." I smiled a bit. "Just go the long way, okay?"
"Sure."
