Chapter 5
She walked towards his bed, finding it very hard to breathe. Spike's blond locks were tousled and stood in beautiful contrast to the sharp angels of his face. He had a white sheet around his hips and she could barely make out his abs in the soft candlelight. He truly looked like a fallen angel. There wasn't a trace of the cold-blooded killer that Buffy used to think he was. Instead he looked like… Buffy couldn't find another word for him. Angel. 'He wouldn't like if I told him that to his face…' She searched for another word but couldn't find anything, despite everything that she felt. What she wouldn't do to be in his arms, his love for her shining in his eyes. She mentally slapped herself. 'You're doing it again… Don't think about the evil vampire like that. What evil vampire? Yesterday he saved your life, and he loves you with everything that he is. He's a vampire, he knows nothing of love.' Buffy's head bobbed from one side to another, and Spike, who had felt her presence awhile after she'd gotten down to the lower level, knew that she was having some sort of internal discussion with herself.
"…Buffy." He breathed quietly
She snapped out of her discussion and looked at Spike, his deep blue eyes meeting her green ones.
"'S there something you want to tell me?" He asked with a mischievous gleam in his eyes. She smiled nervously and hugged herself. "Pet?" He looked at her with raised eyebrows.
Buffy swallowed and answered "You're… Um, you're…" She took a deep breath and blurted out. "Youarebeautiful."
He stared at her. "What did you say?" He had heard her, but he didn't want to get his hopes up.
She looked down. "I think you're beautiful."
He sat up in his bed. "Come sit here with me, luv," he said.
Buffy obliged and came to sit down next to Spike, a sheet the only thing covering his body. Once again, she found it very hard to breathe.
"Buffy…" Spike began, "…Do you feel anything for me?"
She looked around the room, not facing Spike. "…Buffy?" He took both of her warm hands in his cold ones.
"I love you," he whispered, caressing her cheek. "You're a goddess, shining like the sun… My heart belongs to you Buffy, if you want it that is?"
Buffy turned towards him, as he leaned in to kiss her, and when she saw the love in his eyes she jumped backwards, causing the love in Spike's eyes to turn into pain. The way that Spike had looked at her was just the way that Riley had looked at her in the beginning of their relationship.
"I can't do this…" She turned away from him and climbed up the ladder to his crypt. When she heard he didn't follow, she ran out of his crypt, tears running down her cheeks.
Spike had been so sure that she had finally begin to answer his feelings, but when she chose not to kiss him, his heart broke. He sat and stared at the place she had been only seconds before, and he caressed the sheet. As he sniffed the air he could feel her vanilla scent still lingering. This brought tears to his eyes and he fell back on his pillows and started to weep.
Buffy returned home, and went up to her room. She fell asleep almost immediately.
The room was filled with candles, and the air was heavy with the smell of roses. Buffy looked at Spike, his beautiful features soft in the candle-light.
'I love you, Buffy. I want to spend the rest of my un-life with you. You are the most beautiful woman I've ever met. You're the light that make this endless night bearable. You're strong, kind and you make me feel alive again.' Spike took out an emerald ring from the pocket of his duster. 'It belonged to my mother. She told me to give it to the girl that I knew was my perfect match. You're the one, Buffy. I love you with everything that I am… Goldilocks, will you marry me?'
'Oh, William… Of course I will marry you… You're…'
The dream was ended when Dawn came rushing into Buffy's room.
"Buffy! It's almost time to meet Riley!" Buffy groaned slightly but got out of bed, not having time to give the dream any consideration.
Buffy rang the doorbell to Riley's, no, it was their apartment. Riley opened with a smile. "Hi, Buffy!" He leaned in to kiss her and Buffy reluctantly kissed him back. Buffy followed Riley into the living room, and she gasped at the sight. It was beautiful decorated, with white roses and dimmed light. Riley held out a glass of white wine to Buffy and she gladly took it. They sat down at the table to eat a quiet dinner, and Buffy noticed the constant drinking of alcohol from Riley's part. When they came to the dessert, his eyes were slightly dimmed and he stumbled on his words.
Buffy took a bite from her chocolate cake and bit down on something hard. Riley smirked a little as she pulled out a ring from her mouth.
Buffy managed to stutter out; "…What..What's this?"
Riley went down on one knee. "Buffy Anne Summers. Will you marry me?"
Buffy stood up so fast that her chair fell down. She looked at him with confusion written on her face. "What? Marry you? I… I… I can't!"
Riley stood up, and glared at her. "You think you're too good for me? We'll see about that. Bitch."
The last thing she remembered was Riley's boot in her side.
A/N I know… Bad chapter. Bad Anna, write better. Be gentle with the reviews. Next chapter will be Spuffy!
