A/N: This is a short story I wrote a while ago, and I actually finished. I hope all those who read it enjoy it greatly.
Disclaimer: I don't own Naaruto:
Warning- Shoujo-ai; yuriSummary- "She made me believe in something that was never real and never could be." Tenten reflects on her past lover, before she ends her life. But who is this stopping her? What had happened and why did it?
Chapter 1: Close Enought But Not There, You're Here
Days keep going by, rather slowly I might add. Not that people would mind it going slow so they could enjoy much more while young, but I on the other hand am annoyed of it. I want my life to go quickly so I can die and finally be free of pain. I still have yet to find a reason why I shouldn't end my life right now. Maybe I was just a mistake that was put on this planet; maybe I'm not really meant to be here; maybe I was never to be cared and loved for. Its how I feel and its eating me, consuming me on the inside.
Clutching the sharpened blade in my hand I walked out into the middle of an open field near the park, the moon full and bright, stars twinkling above the endless dark sky. How peaceful and calming, but it won't last for long once my crimson blood has stained the grass and I lie motionless on the ground allowing my vision to darken. Everything, well not everything, more along the lines of some things were fine until she came invading my life. One I had seemingly thought of as an angel now the devil herself.
The first friend I had ever made, the only friend I ever had.
She was my savior, my knight in shining armor. The one who said she'd protect me no matter what in any situation. We were always together wherever we went, we felt so comfortable with eachother. Not anything could split us apart, but that was all a lie. A big, fat lie. I should've never believed her.
She made me beilive in something that was never real and never could be.
"Hey, Tenten, may I...erm...can I speak with you, in private? I want to tell you something..." She blushed slightly and I raised an eyebrow.
"I suppose so, even though I was in a heated discussion." I huffed, pouting slightly that I was being dragged away from Sakura, someone I had just met but I didn't think really considered me a friend. We were talking about Inuaysha, my favorite anime, in which I was winning the argue over Inuaysha liking Kagome better than Kikyou.
"Sorry, but its quite important," she giggled lightly before grabbing my hand and taking me to a secluded area.
Sakura was smiling thinking she had one that little round because I went with my friend somewhere. I was so confused on what the girl standing in front of me had to say. Could it be...? Nah, I doubt it was anything like that, though I hoped and wished for it ever since I met her.
Sure she was pretty, well beautiful, and I like her, well saying I liked her would not even be close to how I actually feel about her. I love her, but I hid it for the sake of our friendship. Its bad to think she'd like me back. Her family were christianity people, so she had to be straight. I mentally hit myself.
"So what did you wanna tell me that was so important?" I crossed my arms over my chest and leaned against the wall. Bad move.
She walked closer to me, putting her hands on the wall, either side of me, looming over me. I just noticed how tall she really was compared to me. Her teal eyes that I adored seemed to show the emotion of...love. They held so much of it. I was practically lost in her gaze, then she leaned down. My heart was racing. Was this really happening? Or am I just dreaming? All my thoughts dissapeared as her soft, sweet lips touched my own. Her touch was so tender and caring, I just melted.
She pulled away and I could feel her breath next to my ear, I shivered slightly at the feeling. "I love you, Tenten." It was such a low whisper I could could barely hear, but I could make out what she said very clearly.
I stared in shock as she backed away from me, with fear in her eyes. Fear of rejection, fear that I would hate her for doing that.
"I'm sorry, it was out of my place to say and do that...I should go. I'm very sorry..."
Just before she was going to run, run away from me, run out of my life, I grabbed her wrist, tightening my grip as she struggled. "Wait," I said quietly then a bit louder so she could hear me. "Wait! Please...don't go."
Tears were stinging at the corner of her eyes, but she wouldn't let them fall. "Why? Its useless, I know you don't love-"
"Your wrong." I pulled her close to me, holding her like I've always wanted...needed to.
"W-What?" Her eyes widened slightly, looking at me with a questioning gaze.
"I love you, I always have, ever since I first saw you," I said softly.
A smile appeared on her face.
That was a long time ago. That was the past, and time changes, which is why I'm here. Alone...again. Nobody wants me. My heart was broken, ripped into too many pieces that can never be healed within time. I was lost again. I had no one to hold me, I had no one to tell me everything was going to be alright. There was no one to make me feel better. No one to talk to anymore.
And the worst of them all is...she never realy cared about me.
She was a part of me, a part of my heart, a part of my soul.
I sat down on the grass, contemplating more on the past. I raised the blade to my right wrist, ready to slice through the skin. There's nothing left for me here.
A voice whispered from behind me. "Tenten.." It was so familiar.
A/N: I know...it's short. Forgive me. But that's okay cause I'm gonna update tomorrow anways! Yay! Review please and tell me what you think so far!
Next Chapter- So what happened between Tenten and her lover? We shall see.
lonely bloodied rose
