Title: Must be dreaming

Author: YamixYugiforever ((it seems I'm forced to put this on now because I live with two authors who seem to love taking my stories! glares at pharaoh Yami Atemu and Galgora

Rated: M

Summary: Yami finds Yugi cutting himself often at times and finally he's had enough so he investigates and finds out that he was being ignored be his friends and family. A trilogy of songfics

Summary of chapter: to Simple Plan's "Untitled" Yugi finds out that he made a horrible mistake

Warnings: self-harm, shonen ai

Pairing: Yami/Yugi

A/N: Okay well here's the second chapter, I'm sorry it's going to be kind of short though, but I'm going to make it at least 2000 words okay?

I open my eyes
I try to see but, I'm blinded by the white light

Yami said he loved me. I feel so much emotion inside of me. I'm angry because I know Yami. He would go to so many lengths to protect me. Only because of this stupid puzzle! He knows if he gets me angry I'll take the puzzle and smash it! I would never do that, though. I couldn't. Eight years of hard work for nothing. I sigh and plop down on the bed. I was also sad realizing in my previous thought that the spirit and I could never be. I am also surprised that Yami would go to that risk of throwing his life away for me. Why would he do such a thing if he wanted to leave me out in the cold?

/ Flash back /

"You've hurt me Yugi!" how did I hurt him? " I…I love you!"

/ End flash back/

He was crying really hard. How could that be fake? Unlike popular belief I have common sense. Then again yami didn't ignore me like all my other friends. He would smile at me, and wrap his arm around my shoulder. He would look sad when I was sad. I could tell at times he was confused when I looked as if I were to cry. Maybe he didn't know my friends were ignoring me.

He looked so hurt when I told him he was a lair. I was so angry! I said things that I've might have regretted. And I did. Maybe he really did love me? I felt alone. I wanted to run downstairs and try to apologize, but I can't. What if he's angry with me? I couldn't face how my friends ignored me, so how can I face if my own dark side was angry with me? The dark side that I loved so much. ((I watched Star Wars like ten times, you have to forgive me))

I felt bad for Yami, and I know I should be crying I want too. I've spent so much time cutting myself trying to make the tears of this innocent little kid inside me stop that I have forgotten how to cry. I could feel all my emotions being pulled into my stomach. I felt like I needed to throw up. I could just imagine Yami finding me throwing up saying, " What you're going to be anorexic now?"

I do also feel something stir inside of me though, a feeling of being able to see again. Was I ever blind? Maybe to the truth I was. Now, more then ever, I feel alone. I don't feel like myself. I don't feel like an innocent little kid that was goofy and was always making other people laugh. I felt like and angst filled teenager.

I took a large intake of breath to quickly and I started coughing. I reached for a tissue on instinct but then found something else on my wooden drawer. I knife was held in my hand. I could feel the temptation to cut myself right there. I could feel it as if the knife called out to me.

Wait! Isn't this the reason for all my pain? Isn't it the reason why Yami is so angry with me? So angry that Yami would never love me again?

This also could take me out of all this pain. I could feel relief. Yami would have his own life and wouldn't be so worried about mine. He would never have to force himself to hold and love me. (I know he would considering the fact He. Is. My. Yami.)

Like the knife is my pain, I am his. So if I'm gone so will his pain. I would take Yami's pain to the grave with me.

I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight

I take the knife and I hold it to my wrist right where I can see my vein. I take it and I push it down. I can feel so much pain in my wrist, but it has nothing to do with how much pain I have in my heart. I can't even remember how I got this pain. I could see my vision fading. Then I could feel those long forgotten tears resurfacing. I sniffle and I sob until I could only see black.

And I can't stand the pain
and I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

I can still feel the pain, which means I have not died yet, but I could see life events flash before my eyes. I could see myself being sexually abused by my drunken father. I could see myself and my mother moving in with grandpa. I could see when grandpa gave me the puzzle with the loving spirit inside. Then I could see bullies beating me up so badly I could hardly walk. Then I saw myself completing the puzzle eight years later. I could see Yami. I could see every duel we had won and lost, together. Then I could see all the events that let up to what I am doing here now.

I could feel myself cry even harder.

Chorus:
How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

The darkness won't go away. Is this hell? I know it is a sin to kill yourself, but this isn't the hell I imagined. The hell I imagined was fire and brimstone, with Anubis and the devil. Then again this hell is so much worse then that. An eternity of darkness alone, without ever seeing the ones you love ever again.

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me

Then I hear something, so familiar. I could hear the sound of someone screaming. Not someone, Yami! He's screaming and crying I could almost make out the words, " Let me go! You don't understand I need to help him! He needs me! I need him! Please! Let go! I need him! I need him! Please! Let go!"

Yami needs me? I try to scream for him to help me, but he can't hear me! Then I hear another familiar voice. " It's okay Yami the doctors are going to help him he's going to get better and he'll be up and running in no time!" then I hear the owner of the voice crying and trying her best to calm Yami down.

It's my mom. Is she crying for me?

" Yeah man, Yug' is a strong kid, he'll pull though," It's Joey! I hear something I thought I would never hear from Joey. " Yeah see he'll make it through…I hope," then I hear him crying. I could almost see the picture. Joey, Yami, my mom, and grandpa hugging each other hoping I would stay alive for them. I felt so bad.

I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

I could feel myself being pulled. The pulling wouldn't stop. The more it pulled the less I could hear my loved ones. I try to push against the pull. No! I'm not going yet! "Yami please! Please bring me back!" I could feel the pull fade. " Yami! I love you too!" the pull faded and I opened my eyes. I don't remember shutting them though. I could see many colors blurred together. There was yellow, black, red, tan, and crimson. I blinked my eyes a few times and I could see a clear view of Yami.

"Yugi!"

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

" Yami?" I called out to him. I could feel his arms wrap around my neck and he pushed himself onto me.

" Oh Yugi, why did you want to go?" I hear Yami sob. I didn't mean to cause him more pain. I only wanted to make things better. I can't explain it, but my heart told me to do it. I wish we could start over. I wish everything would go away. I want only Yami. I want things to go as they were.

But I can't and I start to cry as well.

How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I've made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

A/N: Okay I'm sorry this was such a short chapter I didn't mean for it to be! Now here are some explanations. Now the reason Yugi changed his mind so quickly is because, well he's Yugi he can't stay mad. First off, spending all is time dueling and gaming he would almost have a sixth sense. He would sense that Yami was really sad and really did hurt him. Yugi would then realize that Yami would only see what he wanted to see and came to the conclusion that Yami really didn't want any of this to happen.

Okay there it is, my drabble about the story. I really thought that I made Yugi very in character. I also thought even though it's short it really moved the story along. I hope that I get more reviews and I am also accepting flames, because I caught an Anzu today and I was hoping to burn it.

Oh I almost forgot I need to thank you guys for reviewing!

Yugilover101- well here is a second chapter for you good thing I'm an author who hates not updating in less then a week. Oh by the way I know what it's like to use the library for the web. Thankies!

Babymasaki: Wow I also get emotional and thank you hands you tissue

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Okay that's it and I'm sorry I didn't get it to 2000 words! I promise to make the next one at least 3000 words to make up for it! Thank you!