Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters. The only thing mine is the story idea.
AN: Thanks a bunch, Jada91, LizzyB22, locofiend13, greenglowchassis, & Gabwr for reviewing! It really is an inspiration to continue with this story. Thank you for the ideas. This chapter is in Vince POV and soon I'll have Leon's POV too. I'm still coming up with the wheareabouts on Mia, that's in development ; ). I hope you guys enjoy and please R&R.
How could I let things go so far? I get angry at myself again for the millionth time. There was a way to avoid all the anger, all the pain bottled up.
There have many times when I wanted to start using Dom as a punching back for all the anger I felt inside. I felt not only angry at him but at myself for letting him run me like a puppet.
I should have pulled out. My focus wasn't entirely on the heist that day. We all knew that things would turn upside down without having Jesse with us.
So much was lost that day. Oh Jesse I'm so sorry brother.
He was our little brother. He was someone who always managed to find a solution to a problem. If we needed the help he would not hesitate to help out, and he wasn't one to give you shit either when he did.
What did we do when he was the one needed our help? We went after that fucking truck instead of trying to find him. I hate myself for that. I hate Dom for that.
Dom always managed to use us to his convenience. Yes I admit, all the high jacking of the trucks started to make life better, but I knew that his ambition for more would one day bring the destruction of one of us.
I just had hoped it was his, instead of Jesse.
I felt useless when I was told of Jesse's death in the hospital. The only thing I wanted to do was kill Johnny and when they told me that was taken care of, I felt like crap.
I felt guilty for not being there for him, protecting him, helping him like he had helped me so many other times.
Then my guilt turned into resentment and anger towards Dom. I looked into his eyes and I knew he felt it, felt my anger and he would leave the house to avoid all our eyes.
Dom little by little started to pull away from all of us. He knew he was guilty for everything that had happened, but what hurt me the most was the way Letty was feeling.
Her best friend, her confidant, her peace of mind was gone and with Dom pushing her away she turned ice cold.
The only person that seemed to take all the anger when the shit hit the fan between her and Dom was Jesse. He would find a way to calm her down or make her laugh. But that was Jesse.
Jesse was Letty's soft spot and Letty was Jesse's backbone. He was the only one to bring a smile to Letty's face when things weren't that great between her and Dom. When Dom would get angry at Jesse for something it was Letty standing up for him, always protecting him from Dom's fury. They were a tag team.
After the accident, I would look into her eyes and that fire that sparkle left and the only that was there was an empty soul. That was that tore me up inside.
That's why part of me was relief that she finally broke down at the garage today. God knows how much pain she's been through and I was losing hope of having my touch girl back.
Dom not only managed have stopped us from going to Jesse's rescue, he managed to kill all of our spirits when he didn't accept he was wrong.
All he had to do was accept he had done wrong and we would have dealt with all these emotions but instead he chose to ignore it. That is what angers me the most.
I don't know how long it will take but I know eventually he will come to some realization to what he lost that day and what he lost entirely today.
It's time for a new beginning. It's time to pay homage to a fallen friend, a brother with a new beginning.
With Leon, Letty and I, we will find a way to keep Jesse with us until we too fall.
I lessen my grip on the steering wheel.
"Jesse, brother, wherever you are your always part of this family, of this team. We won't let you down I promise."
The time for a new beginning starts now. Wherever this road leads us to, I know we're going to be fine.
It's time to let old resentments in the past. It's time to start fresh.
And to start new we need food, well at least I do.
I grab my cell phone and call Letty.
"Yo?"
"Hey Let, I know we're on a mission to get away but you think we can make a pit stop to eat? I'm dying back here."
I hear her laugh. It's nice to hear her laugh.
"Yeah sure. There's a town coming up. We'll grab something to eat and crash somewhere, cool?"
I hear laughter in her voice. I know she's going to be her old self soon.
"Yeah. I just need food."
I'll see to it that Letty doesn't go through what she has gone through. I promise.
I see her take the next exit and I follow with Leon right behind.
I call Leon on his phone.
"Leon brother, are you ready to start over?"
"All for Jesse man, I'm ready."
"Good because we're starting with food."
"'Bout time! I'm hungry."
