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MidniteAngelGoth- no I don't think their will be any romance. I was thinking about putting it in, but it would probably get too complicated. My next fic will have a lot of it though.
Chapter Seven- Secrets Known
Rogue slowly opened her eyes to find herself back in her bed, daylight streaming across her comforter. The first thing she noticed was that she hadn't woken up from a nightmare for the first time in many days. The second thing she noticed was a dull throbbing at the back of her head. That is when she realized she hadn't woken up from a nightmare because she wasn't sleeping; she had been knocked unconscious. Rogue didn't bother to hold back a loud cry of anger.
Shortly after the sound, Mystique and Irene entered. "Good, I see that you are up," the blue woman stated, "I was beginning to think you would never wake."
For a moment Rogue was too outraged to speak but then she found the words, "May I remind you that the reason I was out is because of you hitting me upside the head because you seemed to have forgotten that."
"Of course I haven't, don't be stupid," her mother replied curtly, "I was just trying to help you."
"You put a gun to my head!" she shouted.
"You were hysterical," Raven explained calmly as if describing why she refilled a drink.
"You are fucking insane!" Rogue screamed, "What the hell do you want from me?"
"You are becoming irrational again, settle down."
In a quieter but no less passionate voice Rogue repeated her question.
"I told you before you lost it, that I am here to help you. I am the only one who can."
"Help me with what, may I ask?"
Mystique suddenly looked pained, as if she would rather be doing anything but forming the next words, "Sabertooth, I want to help with what Sabertooth did to you."
Rogue had predicted a great many things to exit her mother's mouth, but this most certainly wasn't an option. She looked to speak, but had neither the words nor the ability currently.
"And the girl finally shuts up," Raven said rolling her eyes.
"Raven…" Irene warned.
Mystique looked annoyed but didn't say anything further. Finally Rogue was able to spit out quietly, "How…how did you know about that. I didn't…I never…how did you find out?" She honestly wanted to cry. Her horrible mother had the worst thing to ever happen to Rogue in the palm of her hand. It wasn't fair, she didn't deserve to know. In a panic she came to a wild conclusion, "You sent him didn't you? You sent him to do that to me. That's how you knew! Get away from me, you bitch; you are horrible!"
For the first time in a long time Raven looked like someone had slapped her. Hard. All she could do was sputter random negatives to the accusations. It was Irene who spoke up for her, "Dear child, no! Raven would never, oh heavens no! Raven knew because I told her. I saw the vision and I told her."
"Vision?" Rogue asked vaguely, and then the concept clicked in her mind. "You saw a vision of what he was going to do to me. You see the future, and you saw what he was going to do to me, and you didn't even try to stop it. Not a phone call or a warning or a fucking telegram. You just let it happen!"
"No child, it wasn't like-"
"How could you! I trusted you!" Rogue was sitting up and screaming now, tears had started to roll down her face. The pain was just too much to bear. Irene had been her last hope. Mystique was the one who would let her fall without a second fall; Irene was supposed to catch her. Instead she had just let her get touched, get violated, get intruded. Mystique's betrayal didn't hold a candle to this revelation.
"Will you just listen to me for a second so I can expl-"
"No! I don't want to hear your excuses. Just let me leave. Let me get the hell out of here before I do something I regret."
"NO ROGUE," mystique suddenly shouted at her with great force, "You will not take one step of this bed without hearing Irene out. She raised you and you owe here at least that much. Just lay down and shut up for once!"
Rogue wanted to fight back and leave, but Mystique had pushed her back down and had placed a firm hand on her ribcage, holding her down. She could only squirm so long before it got pointless so she did as her mother asked.
"I did see what was going to happened before it did, but not soon enough. I only saw it minutes before it was to occur, much like the breakout of your powers. There was nothing I could do that would have prevented Sabertooth from grabbing you in the woods. I'm sorry Rogue, I'm so sorry," Irene finished in a choked voice.
She didn't speak for a while, she just couldn't. She just laid there, tears slowly tracing down her face. In a soft voice she said, "I believe you. I don't blame you. I'm sorry."
Irene came to the other side of the bed and grabbed a gloved hand.
Mystique broke the silence that had fallen by asking, "Now will you accept our help?"
"I will never accept your aid. I don't want you near me. You have never helped me," Rouge replied in an icy tone.
Raven opened her mouth to speak, or perhaps shout, but Irene interjected in a calm, soothing voice, "I know you don't want your mother's help, Rogue, but she can help you. She understands your situation, she knows what it feels like."
"I don't care," was her slow deliberate reply, "I don't need her help. I don't anyone's help. If I did, I would have stayed at the institute and asked for it. They are a bit more experienced in actually making people feel better."
"No you wouldn't have. You never would have asked for their help," Raven replied matter-of-factly, "They never would have understood and you know that. You really think Miss Picture-Perfect red head could help you out, sympathize with the lonely Goth girl? Face Rogue I'm what you got not only because you left, but also because I'm the only one who understands you. You never fit in at Xavier's, don't deny it. You just don't belong there."
"That isn't true, Logan-" she began
"Whoop-di-do. You managed to companionship in an old feral man who hates the world. That isn't fitting in my book."
Rogue desperately wanted to defend herself, prove her mother wrong. She wanted to give proof that she fit in at the Institute, that she was close to everyone, but it just wasn't true. It would be easier to prove that the sky was orange. She could never fit the image of the wonderful institute student. Kitty and Jean were well-adjusted good students with loving parents. Kurt and Scott had strange family situations, but they were happy and kind people. Even the new recruits fit the image of the glorious, happy teenager, even with their mutant powers. Rogue always stood far from that. She just couldn't deny it. So instead she pulled the covers over her head and simply said, "Go away!"
Mystique started saying, "Rog-" but was evidently silenced with a look from Irene. The two women left the room, giving Rogue some well-needed peace.
After the door was shut rogue started considering the situation. Did she want Mystiques help? Not by a long shot. She didn't need any help, especially the kind that came from the woman claiming to be her mother. She was honest when she stated that she wanted the women nowhere near her. However what was it that Irene had said? Oh yeah, that Raven understood her situation, that she knew how Rogue felt. Did that mean that Mystique had been raped as well? Did someone hold her down and force their way into her as well? With Mystiques abilities, Rogue found that hard to believe. Irene could have been saying anything to calm her down. But then again, with Rogues abilities, she was probably the only woman in the world who could never get violated and look was happened to her. It wasn't fair. Did she really deserve what happened to her? Why didn't it happy to anyone else? The image of her stone mother crashing into the water below her suddenly flashed before her eyes. Of course she deserved it. Why else would it happen to her? He last thoughts as she drifted off to sleep again were, "maybe I should just take Sabertooth's advice and just be grateful that I won't die a virgin."
A/N
AAAAAAND...there we go.
The seventh installment is done.
I might have one more before I go on vacation until the 19th of June. Well actually I'm driving with my dad up to college for orintation, and then coming back and the next day I go on Vacation. So most likely you won't hear from me until the 19th.
Sorry to leave you. I will be working on my story over vacation, I just won't be able to update.
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