Kathryn:
She leaned over to kiss him on the cheek, but somehow he turned his head just an inch too far and she caught him on the mouth. She gasped.
"Chakotay, I didn't mean to, I'm sorry …"
She gasped not because of what had happened, because of how it felt. He hadn't flinched, he hadn't blinked, nor had he taken his eyes off her.
"Don't be".
His intense gaze pierced her and something came out. He leaned over and firmly kissed her.
Kathryn was sure that she heard a crack, not unlike an electric charge de-ionizing air molecules around her. She didn't care, her entire being was being possessed by that kiss.
She pulled away, but not after a long time. In a ragged breadth she looked at him and everything fell into place, what she had been feeling, what she had been experiencing with him. It all made sense.
His eyes opened and he kept them locked on hers. She gave a slight shiver as she was again pierced. In a ragged voice she said softly.
"I want you."
His eyes twinkled as if he knew that this moment was inevitable and in expecting it, he was ready for it. A small smile tugged at his mouth.
"I know."
And with that he pulled her to him.
Kathryn woke up with a feeling of warmth spreading through her body. It came from between her legs. She lay on the bed for a minute still in a half dream and half-awake state enjoying it.
It's been too damn long she thought.
The computer broke the spell
"0600hrs, 0600hrs, 0600 hrs…"
Kathryn jumped up with a start.
"Computer, end wake up call"
Oh my, her hands flew to her face to hide the blush which was forming, forgetting that no one was there to see her. She couldn't believe that she would have a wet dream about Chakotay and not Mark. Maybe it was a sign that she was truly over Mark, or maybe it was just her body letting her know that it had been a long time,……..a very long time. Kathryn dragged herself out of bed. She had a long day of reports and department inspections ahead of her. She was also starting the day with breakfast ….with Chakotay.
Well in that case, she thought I'd better increase the frequency of the sonic shower and get moving
She hurried to get ready.
As she was about to enter the Messhall, Chakotay joined her. As was his custom, he put his hand on her shoulder blade to signal his greeting.
"Good morning Kathryn, sleep well?"
She felt it leave her immediately, and she realized that she was wet. Her body trembled, she moved instantaneously to break contact. She offered up a silent prayer of thanksgiving to the designer of the Starfleet uniform; it was more or less waterproof. Also having two layers of clothing did much to hide the rest of her arousal.
"Are you all right Kathryn?" Concern lined his face.
"Yes, you just startled me that's all. Yes I slept well last night thank you. And you?"
"Yes I had a good night, thanks"
They walked to the Messhall in silence. But surprisingly a thought found its way into Kathryn's head. If it had been him, and he had that kind of reaction to my touch, I would have known it instantaneously and there would be a very awkward breakfast ahead. In spite of her discomfort she grinned.
When they entered the Messhall, they saw Kes, Tom, B'Elanna and Harry having breakfast together. She saw the solution to her problem for breakfast.
"Let's join them, Chakotay, it's been a long time since we've all have had a meal together."
"Sure"
They collected their breakfast and came up to the table.
Kes spoke first, "Captain, Commander, please join us,"
"Thank you, Kes"
"Harry was just telling us of the latest practical joke that he played on Tom." B'Elanna said as Chakotay sat next to her and Kathryn sat across from him.
They had a pleasant breakfast. During the whole conversation, Kathryn couldn't help but look at Chakotay and once or twice when he caught her look and stared back, she began to have a reaction again. Her heart hammered in her chest, her knees felt weak and she knew that she was on borrowed time with her dry uniform. She tried to look away from him. She engaged herself in a conversation with B'Elanna, but her eyes kept drifting back to Chakotay. Finally, she figured that she'd had enough of it.
"Excuse me, I have to return to my quarters before going on the Bridge." No use tempting Fate, she had to change.
The group took their cue from her and began gathering their trays. They all filed out passed Chakotay and Kathryn. He looked at her and said softly,
"I'll see you on the Bridge". He made eye contact and after a little while he took his leave of her.
She felt the reaction occur within her again and gave a long sigh. It was going to be one of those days.
By the time three hours had passed on the Bridge, Kathryn was ready to start screaming. No matter how many logical arguments she attempted, no matter how many times she tried to avoid his looks, it made no difference. She was still reacting. She had caught herself once or twice meaning to touch him briefly and realizing that her hands had stayed on his body too long and she was not concentrating on what she was supposed to be doing.
She excused herself and went to her Ready Room and put all of her energies into the report she was supposed to be reading. Slowly her thoughts left Chakotay's body. But not for long. The door chime sounded.
"Come in"
Chakotay entered, she reacted physically and emotionally.
"Yes Commander what can I do for you?" she snapped.
Chakotay took her terse reply to signal that she had been interrupted her train of thought. He was used to that tone of voice in that situation, so he ignored it and got down to the reason for his visit.
"Captain, I think that I should take a shuttle with a crewmember and do a little scouting. There must be a shorter way through the Nechrid expanse and we may be able to see things with a shuttle's sensors that we can't see with Voyager's sensors because of all the interference."
She looked up at him. "That sounds like an excellent idea, Commander. I do think thought that we may want to upgrade the shuttle's Navigation to compensate…." They got to work and soon Kathryn was too involved with planning the mission than with his presence. They planned the rendezvous point for the shuttle for two days. They figured that it would give Chakotay and Ensign Kaplan enough time to do all the scouting they would need.
And it also gives me time away from his presence, and in the state that I am in, that is a huge bonus, she thought as she watched him leave the ready room.
As soon as Chakotay left at 1200hrs, she noticed that her thoughts were less on him and she was returning to normal. Normal being obsessing over the ship and crew instead of her first officer's body. By the time she returned to her quarters after dinner, she was exhausted, doing what she normally did in a day and part of what Chakotay did in a day. She hardly gave a thought to the night before or the morning's occurrences. She'd been on duty for 12 hrs and when she finally retired, she was almost asleep before her head hit the pillow.
"I want you."
His eyes twinkled as if he knew that this moment was inevitable and in expecting it, he was ready for it. A small smile tugged at his mouth.
"I know."
And with that he pulled her to him.
He kissed her again and this time his hands began to wander all over her body. Kathryn's breadth was coming out in pants. He broke the kiss and still making contact with his manhood pressed against her, looked at her. She was shaking, but she wasn't cold. Her need exploded in her brain and her body was reacting to his touch. He pulled away from her and stood there looking into her eyes, watching, waiting, wanting…
She knew what she had to do.
Slowly she began. He did not move, the lust evident in his eyes as he watched her undress. Eventually she was naked. Still, he did not move because he knew that she wasn't finished.
She wasn't. She undressed him and a small sigh of longing and pleasure escape her lips as his manhood became free. She had been waiting for this for a long time.
He came to her then and led her to the bed. As they began to move together, somewhere in the back of her mind, she realized that their bodies had been doing what their minds, had begun to do a year ago. With this act, the connection that had begun on New Earth was changed strengthened and deepened all at the same time. The final separation of their beings had been Bridged. They were now one. They could never go back to the way things were. Not even if she wanted to. The thoughts racing through her mind matched their frenzied motion and suddenly Kathryn's whole world exploded.
Kathryn awoke with a low moan. This time however, she jumped suddenly off the bed as if it were on fire. She stood at the foot of it trying to get her breadth and her bearings. There was no one else on the bed. Kathryn sighed with relief trying to get herself back to normal. Then she saw something on the bed that made her pause. As she examined it closer, she realized what it was with a start. The realization mobilized a thought in her mind. I have to do something concrete about this. Aloud she said.
"Computer what is the time?"
"08:30hrs."
Great, now she was late for duty. She was surprised that Tuvok hadn't called her to the Bridge. She dressed quickly and hailed the Bridge.
"Tuvok here Captain, are you feeling rested now?"
His statement explained why he didn't call for her on the Bridge at the normal start of shift, he thought that she need rest after the long shift that she pulled yesterday. He must have had the computer confirm her position and condition.
"Yes Tuvok, however there is something I need to take of before I get to the Bridge. I will be there as soon as I can. Janeway out."
As she was about to leave the bedroom, she stopped short. 'I'm forgetting something' she thought. She looked at her bed and then remembered what it was. Stripping the sheets, she placed them into the recycler and replaced them with fresh ones. Satisfied she headed out of her quarters.
"Good morning Captain, what can I do for you?" Kes hurried to her side as soon as she entered sickbay.
"Is the doctor active?"
"I'm right here captain." The doctor called out from his office.
"Excuse me Kes"
Kes returned to what she had been doing before the captain entered sickbay. "May I have a word with you privately." The captain told the doctor as she reached his office.
"I'm all yours. Captain, what seems to be the trouble?"
"Doctor I need you to run some medical scans on me to see if anything is wrong". The Doctor frowned and but did what she said. "Are you feeling ill Captain?"
"Yes and no. I don't feel injured or sick, but yet I don't fell normal, as if something is out of balance"
"Well this may explain something or two. There is an imbalance in the hypothalamus, specifically the part that controls the production of era-estrogen, the hormone that controls the production of vaginal discharges. Hmmm this is also strange."
"What is?"
"Captain did you have an interesting dream last night?"
"Yes, why?"
"Because there is a higher than normal residual amount of delta waves in your frontal cortex, the dream is still weighing heavily on your mind. Would you please describe you dream?"
I don't think so!
"I'm sorry Doctor, but I fail to see what this has to do with anything."
The Doctor took it in stride, "May I assume then that it was erotic dream."
She sighed deeply. "Yes it was. Did the dream cause the hormonal imbalance?"
"No it was the other way around. If I were to guess, something has been in your subconscious and it just came into your unconscious when you were dreaming. That's what caused the imbalance".
"Are you saying that I want to be aroused?"
"Yes"
The doctor said it very calmly. She was anything but. He was preparing a hypospray.
"This will regulate your hypothalamus for the next two hours. However, if you are around the "object" of your desire then these symptoms will continue to occur for the next 24hrs."
Kathryn gave him a new edition of the "Death Stare". He wavered.
"I'm sorry Captain, I forgot that your fiancé is light years away from here. I didn't mean to be insensitive."
Kathryn's face soften, 'He thinks its Mark that I have been dreaming about'
"I'm sorry Doctor, I'm just a little bit on edge."
"I understand Captain."
"Has anyone else come to you with the same symptoms? The dream I had wasn't only during last night. It also happened the night before last. What was really strange to me was that last night's dream occurred almost at the end of the one previously. It was if I was in the middle of a Holonovel and I suspended the program. Last night it was as if someone re-activated the program right at the point where I left off."
"That is very interesting Captain, and normally that doesn't occur with dreams. The only other time we have heard of something like that was with B'Elanna."
"But at that point we had a telepathic species on our ship, we don't have any now. Anyone else with a more recent experience."
"Actually yes captain, however, that person seemed to have a one time dream experience."
"Who?"
"I'm sorry, I can't say. But I can say that it didn't produce any side effects and that person has been back on duty and fully functional for months now."
"Doctor, if this ends up affecting the rest of the crew, the ship, I have a right to know."
"Yes Captain, you do. But until you bring me indisputable proof or until this crewman tells you for themselves, I cannot reveal anything more"
Sometimes Kathryn hated it when the Doctor was right, especially when it meant that her curiosity would go unsatisfied.
"Very well doctor. I'll go to the Bridge and run extended scans. If I find anything, I'll call you and we'll see if there are any common denominators for my experience."
As she walked to the Bridge, Kathryn felt foolish. She was going to comb the ship and the space around her because she had a wet dream. But still, Weird was part of the job as she had told Ensign Kim a year ago. She couldn't over look the possibility that something else was going on. She would not have gone to sickbay this morning if it hadn't been for the way the dream began. It was the fact that it started at the same place that it had ended the previous night that unnerved her. It made it seem artificial somehow.
On the Bridge, she ordered every conceivable scan run. Nothing had shown up. Kathryn did not discount the possibility that it was probably something in space causing her to react specifically. She felt that this could be the case because their sensors still functioned in a limited way in the Nechrid Expanse. So she ordered the scans run every two hours. It was still a quiet day on the Bridge, so she busied herself with her duties. Nothing of interest was revealed by the scans. At the end of her shift, she ordered the sophisticated scans discontinued and they continued with the routine ones. She signaled the doctor and told him that everything was all right, with the ship and with herself. That part was true enough, but what he didn't know was that she couldn't be certain as her stimulus was not on the ship.
During her off duty time, she decided to prevent herself from having the dreams again by being exhausted by the time she was ready to go to bed. She did this by playing two games of velocity before dinner, having dinner in the Messhall with Dalby, Henley, Golwatt and Ayala and getting into an interesting discussion about which period of music was Betazed's most beautiful. In her quarters she called up the reports which she had neglected to read because she had been busy analyzing the scans. Her eyes closed before she hit the pillow.
She looked at the orchid hybrid that Tuvok had grafted especially for her. It always gave her a good feeling tending to it. When she was doing so, it was as if it were symbolic as to the way she tended to their friendship. She heard the door open and close behind him. She caught his scent and smiled. She didn't turn around, she knew who it was. He came up behind her and put his arm around her waist.
"Hmm" he nuzzled her hair. She felt him hard against her and smiled 'He is insatiable' she thought, 'I like that in my husband'. She giggled.
"Then you know what I desire?"
"Yes I do"
Then she turned around. He put his mouth on hers and every rational thought flew out of her head.
He took her, standing up against a wall. Swiftly and violently. She was glad that he had sensed that in her. It was exactly what she wanted. She matched his movements and increased speed, he kept up as she knew he would. Kathryn felt as if a fire had started in her womb and spread up and out. She heard him taking shorter breaths and knew that it was time. When the fire had consumed her body, she cried out loud and long.
Chakotay.
