Okay this is Losing Hope by Twista and Faith Evans. I really apreciate all your reviews, please keep it up, i want to make it to 100! lol here it goes.
Losing Hope
2 months after article 3 after accident
Summer POV
You honestly couldn't get out of bed, every morning since that article has come out, you've put on a happy face, pretending that you would find him that day. You had gone to your psychology appointment last night, Mike wanted it to be at some cafe, when you got home you felt almost angry, angry at Seth for what happened. In your heart you weren't mad you were depressed and missed him and loved him all at the same time. You didn't know why your head didn't always agree with you.
"Summer?"
"MMMMMPPPPHH" Is all you could say in response, Marissa had been a good friend through all of this, checking up on you every morning, calling you at her lunch, it was all very sweet, but sometimes you wished that everyone could forget about you. Yo could just lie in bed all day, and no one would care.
"Sweetie Ryan and I came over to say hi" she says in a fake happy voice, her eyes looked tired, Ryan stood behind her, looking aprehensive. You felt bad for him, he shouldn't have to be here, you didn't want to be here.
"Hey Sum" he says quietly raising one hand in a sort of wave.
"Aren't you gonna go over to Sandy and Kirsten's maybe they've found something out!" she says, you gloss over her words, just hearing 'sandy and kirsten's' she hasn't said the name Seth, or even Cohen in the past 3 months.
"What's the use" you exclaim flopping back onto your bed. "Hey won't come home today, just like he didn't come home yesterday." You close your eyes, holding in the tears, "I think I'm gonna go to sleep now, you know the way out" you don't move until you hear their slow sad footbeats, walk out of your room, out of your life.
You felt like you were holding them back. You kept them from doing anything fun, they were always babysitting you making sure you were okay.
"Maybe I should just leave" you say to yourself, slowly getting out of bed, walking over to your closet, and reaching for you suitcase.
Ryan POV
The car ride home was silent. You had felt Summer's sadness, her eyes had lost their shine, a smile was rare.
You missed him too. You don't think you've ever told her that but it was true. How he would get all excited when he suprised her, or sad when an article didn't turn out just perfect. He loved the beach best in the morning, when it was fresh, pure, untouched. Carnivals were one of his greatest loves, he would tease you about your fear of heights.
Summer saw that you were uncomfortable, and you saw the shame in her eyes, she was ashamed of how she was living, how she felt, she as ashamed of herself.
The first day you were in Newport, Seth had shown you the Summer's Breeze, you smirk thinking back. You thought he was crazy, naming the boat after a silly crush. But then you got to know Summer, and you understood. You saw how they acted together, even before they hooked up.
You remember the looks on their faces, the day Seth first came back to school, it was one of pure love, and confusion. They weren't supposed to feel that way, after so long should the feelings still be there?
Summer was never one to hide her emotions, even when she didn't speak they flashed across her face like a billboard. She was sad.
She was scared.
She was in love. .
"God Seth, come home soon" you whisper under your breath.
That was pretty short, but i have to stay on schedule, and I'm really excited for what is coming up in the next couple chapters, so stay with me! Review and tell me how you like/dislike, both the chapter and the songs, cuz i love all of them!
>Twista - Hope Lyrics (feat. Cee-lo) Lyrics (Twista talking) Man, I know we had a lot of tragedies lately. I just wanna say rest in peace to Aaliyah, Rest in peace to Left Eye, Rest in peace to Jam Master Jay, And everybody lost in the Twin Towers, And everybody lost period. All we got is HOPE! VERSE 1 (Twista) I wish the way I was living could stop, serving rocks, Knowing the cops is hot when m on the block, And I Wish my brother woulda made bail, So I wot have to travel 6 hours to see him in jail, And I Wish that my grandmother wast sick, Or that we would just come up on some stacks and hit a lick, And I (I wish) Wish my homies wouldt have to suffer, When the streets get the upper had on us and we lose a brother, And I Wish I could go deep in a zone, And lift the spirits of the world with the words with in this song, And I (I wish) Wish I could teach a could teach a soul to fly, Take away the pain out cha hands and help you hold them hi, And I Wish God never gave the men power To be able to hurt the people inside the Twin Towers, And I (I wish) Wish God woulda turned they hearts righteous, When they started to take innocent lives and become snipers, But uh We will never break, though they devistate, we shall motivate, And we gotta pray, all we got is faith. Instead of thinking about who gonna die to day, The Lord is gonna help you feel better, so you ait gotta cry today. Sit at the light so long, And then we gotta move straight forward, cuz we fight so strong, So when right go wrong, Just say a little prayer, get ya money man, life go on! Les HOPE! CHORUS (Cee-Lo) Cuz m hopeful, yes I am, hopeful for today, Take this music and use it Let it take you away, And be hopeful (hopeful) and hll make a way I know it ait easy but thas okay. Les be hopeful! VERSE 2 (Twista) I wish that you could show some love, Instead of hatin so much when you see some other people commin up (I wish) I wish I could teach the world to sing, Watch the music and haveem trippin of the joy I bring, (shiit) I wish that we could hold hands, Listen instead of dissin lessons from a grown man, And I (I wish) Wish the families that lack, but got love, get some stacks Brand new shack and a lack thas on dubs, And I Wish we could keep achieving wonders, See the vision of the world through the eyes of Stevie Wonder, (you feel me) (I wish) And I hope all the kids eat, And dot nobody in my family see six feet, (ya dig) I hope them mothers stai strong, You can make it whether you wit him or your mans gone, And I (I wish) Wish I could give every celly some commissary, And the po po bring the heat on them priest like they did R. Kelly, And I Wish that DOC could scream again And bullets could reverse so Pac and Biggie breath again, (shit) (I wish) Then one day they could speak again, I wish that we only saw good news every time we look at CNN, I wish that enemies could talk, And that super homie Christopher Reeves could still walk, (I wish) I wish that we could walk a path, stay doin the right thing Hustle hard so the kids maintain up in the game, Les HOPE CHORUS (Cee-Lo) Cuz m hopeful, yes I am, hopeful for today, Take this music and use it Let it take you away, And be hopeful (hopeful) and hll make a way I know it ait easy but thas okay. Les be hopeful! VERSE 3 (Twista) Wish the earth wast so apocalyptic, I try to spread my message to the world the best way I can give it, We can make it always so optimistic, If you dot listen gotta live my life the best way I can live it, I pray for justice when we go to court, Wish it was all good so the country wouldt have to go to war, Why cat we kick it and just get em on, And in the famous words of Mr. KingWhy cat we all just get alon, Or we can find a better way to shop and please, And I Hope we find a better way to cop a keys, And I Wish everybody would just stop and freeze, And ask way are we fulfillin these downfalls and prophecies, You can be wrong if is you doubting, With the faith of a mustard seed you can move mountains, And only the heavenly father and ease the hurt, Just let it go and keep prayin on your knees in church! And les HOPE CHORUS (Cee-Lo) X 2 Cuz m hopeful, yes I am, hopeful for today, Take this music and use it Let it take you away, And be hopeful (hopeful) and hll make a way I know it ait easy but thas okay. Les be hopeful! (BACKGROUND) na-na-na-na-na-na-naaaa-naaa na-na-na-na-na-na-naaaa-naaa na-na-na-na-na-na na-na-na-na-na-na na-na-na-na-na-na-naaaa-naaa na-na-na-na-na-na-naaaa-naaa na-na-na-na-na-na-naaaa-naaa na-na-na-na-na-na na-na-na-na-na-na
