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cept for the nice plot that the characters play out.
A/N: Alright! Well, I'm happy with this chapter. I found it awesome to write and I hope ya'll love it as much as I enjoyed writing it. Please don't stop reviewing (I think I might've lost some of you but I hope you come back!) I love all the feedback and usually it makes me write a lot faster and a lot more. So please don't forget the nifty review button at the bottom. Thanks!
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Buffy felt the warmth grow within her body. She felt like she knew this is what she wanted, this is who she wanted. Slowly, as their lips came apart and they regained control of their breath, Buffy looked up towards the now sapphire gaze of.of Spike? Buffy jumped back away from Spike's arms as if she had just seen a ghost. She turned pale. Shaking her head she slowly backed up towards the wall and brought her hand up to her lips. She hadn't. No she couldn't have. She hadn't kissed him back. She couldn't have kissed him back.
"No." She said softly.
"Buffy? Buffy, luv, are you okay?" Spike asked as he slowly walked up closer towards her. Buffy shook her head and tried moving away but being against the wall she really had no place to go.
"No, this didn't just happen." Spike took in a deep breath. Cursing inside he managed to keep back from yelling out. He decided to just help her as best as he could.
"Buffy, it did happen. But listen.listen to me Buffy." He said softly, taking ahold of her chin he forced her to look at him. "Buffy, you just say the word, and never again." She looked at him, confusion in her eyes.
"What?"
"You just say the word and what just happened here, because it did happen, will never happen again. I promise." Buffy took a second before she let everything register. Looking towards Spike she forced herself to look into his eyes. She knew it had just been a kiss.nothing more. But what she felt inside was.was something much more than just a simple kiss. Looking past his 'tough-guy' image she slowly nodded.
"Alright."
"Alright what?" Spike replied.
"Alright, I'll say it." When Spike looked at her, obviously needing for her to continue she looked away and then looked back, "I don't want that to happen again." Spike felt his stomach drop. If that was possible. For some reason that one kiss had, had shaken him up and now to hear Buffy say that she never wanted a repeat of it. He nodded, he had to. In order to keep her friendship he had to agree to what she wanted.
"Alright, I'll do my best to see that it doesn't." Spike moved away from her, no longer keeping her pinned towards the wall. Looking down he dug his hands into his pockets, "But Buffy, just so you know luv." Buffy moved closer towards him, looking back up towards her he slowly smirked, "It wasn't that good anyway."
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"It wasn't that good anyway?" Angel O'Riley said as he chalked up his pool stick. Looking down towards the platinum blonde head that was focusing on the cue ball going for the break he shook his head. "Are you crazy? You never say that do a girl! Ever!" After breaking the rack and getting a solid in Spike went for another shot.
"Gimme a break mate. It was the last thing I could come up with. Besides," He paused as he took the shot, and winced as he missed, "It wasn't that great." Angel raised an eyebrow and looked towards Spike with disbelief.
"You mean to tell me you actually got little Miss-I-Go-To-Church-And-I'm-A- Good-Girl all pinned against the wall and you got her kissing and it wasn't that great?" He asked.
"Yeah, I did." Spike stopped, "Well actually, we kissed and then she backed up against the wall after we kissed. So technically, I didn't get her up against the wall." Angel shook his head.
"Same thing man! Honestly, you have a goodie-good. Don't you feel that a bit of.corruption is the best solution?" Angel smirked at the thought. A girl to teach exactly what you wanted out of everything, shaking his head he knew it wasn't right but a guy could dream. When Spike shot his next ball into the pocket he looked up towards Angel and glared.
"I hear you talk about her like that again and I'll kick your ass from here all the back to bloody England." Angel's eyes widened. Something was wrong. No. Something was weird.
"Uh, alright. Spike, let me ask you something." He leaned down and looked towards Spike who was setting up his next shot, "Did you by chance.cop a feel?"
"What the bloody hell are you talking about?" Spike exclaimed as he missed the cue ball entirely. Angel smiled and laughed softly.
"Just asking you a question man. Did you cop a feel?" Spike gripped the pool stick tightly.
"No I bloody well did not! Now if you don't mind I'd like to finish this damn game." Angel nodded and continued to laugh. He watched as Spike became more and more frustrated and shook his head.
"You've got it bad man." Spike missed the ball again. Standing up he glared towards Angel and dropped the stick on the ground.
"What the hell do you mean I 'got it bad'. You trying to imply something mate?" Spike said, walking closer towards Angel who was still laughed, except louder this time.
"Oh hell no, I'm not implying, I'm telling you Spike. You've got it bad towards, what's her name again? Oh yeah, Buffy."
"Listen up mate. I don't have anything towards the soddin' blonde. You got that?"
"Yep, got it Spike." Spike nodded. He was satisfied with what had just been agreed upon but as he lined up for his next shot he couldn't help but hear Angel sneaking a laugh from behind. Just as he turned around through, he didn't see Angel. All he saw was a huge fist connecting with his face.
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Xander Harris stood above the now fallen Spike, fist still clenched. As Spike slowly got up, Xander backed away a little, fist still clenched. Spike touched his lip where it had been split open and as he removed his hand he saw the blood. Looking towards Xander he saw nothing but hatred in his eyes. Spike went to walk towards him but Xander backed up again. As Spike went to talk Xander held up his fist again.
"No! Shut up!" He paused, "Now I know you're probably going to kick my ass but, after spending time with a crying Buffy I had the strong urge to hit you. So, now you can hit me just remember.I bleed easily." Xander lowered his hand and closed his eyes. Spike sighed and looked around the room.
"C'mon mate, lets take this outside." Xander opened his eyes.
"Huh?" Spike rolled his eyes and then looked towards Xander as he grabbed his arm.
"You. Me. Outside. Do I need to explain it to you again?"
"No, no, I understood the first time." As Spike and Xander started walking out of the pool hall Xander looked towards Spike confused, "Why aren't you hitting me again?"
"Because."
"Because why?"
"Because if I do I'm going have bloody well wasted my time. Besides that factor there's a lady you've been talking to on the phone and I'm wanting to know what was said." Xander's brow furrowed.
"So let me get this straight, you're not beating me up because you want information on Buffy?"
"Yeah."
"And if I don't talk to you about Buffy, then what?"
"Then I'm going to beat you to a bloody pulp now just start talking about Buffy. I don't have all night to just stand here and listen to you while you try and figure things out. Now what did Buffy call you about because it obviously involved me so I have a right to know." Xander stood there. Crossing his arms he looked towards Spike.
"Wow. You've got it bad for her." Spike clenched his hands together. There was that damn word again.
"What is it with you people? I don't have it bad for anyone! Bloody hell! You make it seem like I'm in love with the broad!"
"Are you?"
"Are you crazy?"
"Could be. Now are you in love with Buffy?"
"Of course not! I barely know the girl!" Xander laughed softly.
"Oh god, you're so in love with her."
"You're nuts you know that mate? You're bloomin' crazy. How could you possibly think that I'm in love with Buffy Summers? You're out of your mind!" Xander laughed more, so much that he had to lean against the wall. Just as he did, Angel walked out to make sure everything was fine. Looking at Xander he raised an eyebrow.
"What's going on?"
"That idiot thinks that I'm in love with Buffy!" Angel grinned and nodded, looking towards Xander he leaned in.
"You think so to?" Both began cracking up laughing and depended on the wall and each other for support to keep from falling. Spike on the other hand continued to clench his fists to keep from hitting either one of them. Turning away he walked further away shaking his head.
"Dumbasses, thinking I'm in love with Buffy.ha."
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"You don't really think that do you Willow?" Buffy said, sitting on the bed she pulled her pillow across her lap and took a handful of popcorn.
"Think what?"
"That, well that Spike meant what he said."
"I don't know Buffy. I mean I'm sure he wanted to kiss you. That's like well a given but I mean, him saying that it wasn't that good. He's been known to be with a lot of girls Buffy."
"So you're saying he did mean it." Willow's eyes widened and she quickly tried explaining.
"No! No of course not! I don't mean that at all. I just meant that, well maybe he thought kissing you would've been better, more special. Because you know, you've, well, you've never." Willow trailed off, "I'm not explaining this very well am I?" Buffy shook her head as she pushed tears back. "Oh god, no Buffy, don't cry. Please don't cry."
"I can't help it Willow. I mean, am I not kissable?"
"Of course not Buffy, you're very kissable." Willow stopped, realizing what she said, "Not that I would know in anyway! I mean, I guess you are kissable. I can't really answer that one for you Buffy. Only you can."
"Well I guess I'm kissable. I mean, who wouldn't want to kiss me right?"
"Right! I mean, well I wouldn't but then again I'm a girl so that just makes this conversation completely wrong but, you know what I mean right?" Buffy nodded. "Good, now let's watch this movie and then get to bed. We have important things to do tomorrow."
"Right." Buffy wiped at her tears. "Right, very important things to do." After a few moments Buffy smiled and looked towards Willow, "Hey Will?"
"Yeah?"
"What color shoes should I get?"
A/N: Alright! Well, I'm happy with this chapter. I found it awesome to write and I hope ya'll love it as much as I enjoyed writing it. Please don't stop reviewing (I think I might've lost some of you but I hope you come back!) I love all the feedback and usually it makes me write a lot faster and a lot more. So please don't forget the nifty review button at the bottom. Thanks!
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Buffy felt the warmth grow within her body. She felt like she knew this is what she wanted, this is who she wanted. Slowly, as their lips came apart and they regained control of their breath, Buffy looked up towards the now sapphire gaze of.of Spike? Buffy jumped back away from Spike's arms as if she had just seen a ghost. She turned pale. Shaking her head she slowly backed up towards the wall and brought her hand up to her lips. She hadn't. No she couldn't have. She hadn't kissed him back. She couldn't have kissed him back.
"No." She said softly.
"Buffy? Buffy, luv, are you okay?" Spike asked as he slowly walked up closer towards her. Buffy shook her head and tried moving away but being against the wall she really had no place to go.
"No, this didn't just happen." Spike took in a deep breath. Cursing inside he managed to keep back from yelling out. He decided to just help her as best as he could.
"Buffy, it did happen. But listen.listen to me Buffy." He said softly, taking ahold of her chin he forced her to look at him. "Buffy, you just say the word, and never again." She looked at him, confusion in her eyes.
"What?"
"You just say the word and what just happened here, because it did happen, will never happen again. I promise." Buffy took a second before she let everything register. Looking towards Spike she forced herself to look into his eyes. She knew it had just been a kiss.nothing more. But what she felt inside was.was something much more than just a simple kiss. Looking past his 'tough-guy' image she slowly nodded.
"Alright."
"Alright what?" Spike replied.
"Alright, I'll say it." When Spike looked at her, obviously needing for her to continue she looked away and then looked back, "I don't want that to happen again." Spike felt his stomach drop. If that was possible. For some reason that one kiss had, had shaken him up and now to hear Buffy say that she never wanted a repeat of it. He nodded, he had to. In order to keep her friendship he had to agree to what she wanted.
"Alright, I'll do my best to see that it doesn't." Spike moved away from her, no longer keeping her pinned towards the wall. Looking down he dug his hands into his pockets, "But Buffy, just so you know luv." Buffy moved closer towards him, looking back up towards her he slowly smirked, "It wasn't that good anyway."
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"It wasn't that good anyway?" Angel O'Riley said as he chalked up his pool stick. Looking down towards the platinum blonde head that was focusing on the cue ball going for the break he shook his head. "Are you crazy? You never say that do a girl! Ever!" After breaking the rack and getting a solid in Spike went for another shot.
"Gimme a break mate. It was the last thing I could come up with. Besides," He paused as he took the shot, and winced as he missed, "It wasn't that great." Angel raised an eyebrow and looked towards Spike with disbelief.
"You mean to tell me you actually got little Miss-I-Go-To-Church-And-I'm-A- Good-Girl all pinned against the wall and you got her kissing and it wasn't that great?" He asked.
"Yeah, I did." Spike stopped, "Well actually, we kissed and then she backed up against the wall after we kissed. So technically, I didn't get her up against the wall." Angel shook his head.
"Same thing man! Honestly, you have a goodie-good. Don't you feel that a bit of.corruption is the best solution?" Angel smirked at the thought. A girl to teach exactly what you wanted out of everything, shaking his head he knew it wasn't right but a guy could dream. When Spike shot his next ball into the pocket he looked up towards Angel and glared.
"I hear you talk about her like that again and I'll kick your ass from here all the back to bloody England." Angel's eyes widened. Something was wrong. No. Something was weird.
"Uh, alright. Spike, let me ask you something." He leaned down and looked towards Spike who was setting up his next shot, "Did you by chance.cop a feel?"
"What the bloody hell are you talking about?" Spike exclaimed as he missed the cue ball entirely. Angel smiled and laughed softly.
"Just asking you a question man. Did you cop a feel?" Spike gripped the pool stick tightly.
"No I bloody well did not! Now if you don't mind I'd like to finish this damn game." Angel nodded and continued to laugh. He watched as Spike became more and more frustrated and shook his head.
"You've got it bad man." Spike missed the ball again. Standing up he glared towards Angel and dropped the stick on the ground.
"What the hell do you mean I 'got it bad'. You trying to imply something mate?" Spike said, walking closer towards Angel who was still laughed, except louder this time.
"Oh hell no, I'm not implying, I'm telling you Spike. You've got it bad towards, what's her name again? Oh yeah, Buffy."
"Listen up mate. I don't have anything towards the soddin' blonde. You got that?"
"Yep, got it Spike." Spike nodded. He was satisfied with what had just been agreed upon but as he lined up for his next shot he couldn't help but hear Angel sneaking a laugh from behind. Just as he turned around through, he didn't see Angel. All he saw was a huge fist connecting with his face.
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Xander Harris stood above the now fallen Spike, fist still clenched. As Spike slowly got up, Xander backed away a little, fist still clenched. Spike touched his lip where it had been split open and as he removed his hand he saw the blood. Looking towards Xander he saw nothing but hatred in his eyes. Spike went to walk towards him but Xander backed up again. As Spike went to talk Xander held up his fist again.
"No! Shut up!" He paused, "Now I know you're probably going to kick my ass but, after spending time with a crying Buffy I had the strong urge to hit you. So, now you can hit me just remember.I bleed easily." Xander lowered his hand and closed his eyes. Spike sighed and looked around the room.
"C'mon mate, lets take this outside." Xander opened his eyes.
"Huh?" Spike rolled his eyes and then looked towards Xander as he grabbed his arm.
"You. Me. Outside. Do I need to explain it to you again?"
"No, no, I understood the first time." As Spike and Xander started walking out of the pool hall Xander looked towards Spike confused, "Why aren't you hitting me again?"
"Because."
"Because why?"
"Because if I do I'm going have bloody well wasted my time. Besides that factor there's a lady you've been talking to on the phone and I'm wanting to know what was said." Xander's brow furrowed.
"So let me get this straight, you're not beating me up because you want information on Buffy?"
"Yeah."
"And if I don't talk to you about Buffy, then what?"
"Then I'm going to beat you to a bloody pulp now just start talking about Buffy. I don't have all night to just stand here and listen to you while you try and figure things out. Now what did Buffy call you about because it obviously involved me so I have a right to know." Xander stood there. Crossing his arms he looked towards Spike.
"Wow. You've got it bad for her." Spike clenched his hands together. There was that damn word again.
"What is it with you people? I don't have it bad for anyone! Bloody hell! You make it seem like I'm in love with the broad!"
"Are you?"
"Are you crazy?"
"Could be. Now are you in love with Buffy?"
"Of course not! I barely know the girl!" Xander laughed softly.
"Oh god, you're so in love with her."
"You're nuts you know that mate? You're bloomin' crazy. How could you possibly think that I'm in love with Buffy Summers? You're out of your mind!" Xander laughed more, so much that he had to lean against the wall. Just as he did, Angel walked out to make sure everything was fine. Looking at Xander he raised an eyebrow.
"What's going on?"
"That idiot thinks that I'm in love with Buffy!" Angel grinned and nodded, looking towards Xander he leaned in.
"You think so to?" Both began cracking up laughing and depended on the wall and each other for support to keep from falling. Spike on the other hand continued to clench his fists to keep from hitting either one of them. Turning away he walked further away shaking his head.
"Dumbasses, thinking I'm in love with Buffy.ha."
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"You don't really think that do you Willow?" Buffy said, sitting on the bed she pulled her pillow across her lap and took a handful of popcorn.
"Think what?"
"That, well that Spike meant what he said."
"I don't know Buffy. I mean I'm sure he wanted to kiss you. That's like well a given but I mean, him saying that it wasn't that good. He's been known to be with a lot of girls Buffy."
"So you're saying he did mean it." Willow's eyes widened and she quickly tried explaining.
"No! No of course not! I don't mean that at all. I just meant that, well maybe he thought kissing you would've been better, more special. Because you know, you've, well, you've never." Willow trailed off, "I'm not explaining this very well am I?" Buffy shook her head as she pushed tears back. "Oh god, no Buffy, don't cry. Please don't cry."
"I can't help it Willow. I mean, am I not kissable?"
"Of course not Buffy, you're very kissable." Willow stopped, realizing what she said, "Not that I would know in anyway! I mean, I guess you are kissable. I can't really answer that one for you Buffy. Only you can."
"Well I guess I'm kissable. I mean, who wouldn't want to kiss me right?"
"Right! I mean, well I wouldn't but then again I'm a girl so that just makes this conversation completely wrong but, you know what I mean right?" Buffy nodded. "Good, now let's watch this movie and then get to bed. We have important things to do tomorrow."
"Right." Buffy wiped at her tears. "Right, very important things to do." After a few moments Buffy smiled and looked towards Willow, "Hey Will?"
"Yeah?"
"What color shoes should I get?"
