This story was inspired by the song 'Breathe Me' by Sia.


Story takes place straight after last chapter, when Grissom finds out Sara's pregnant with his child


For a long time the silence engulfed them. With Sara's hand in his, Grissom sat there unsure of what to say. Finally after what felt like hours he made a decision. Grissom gently laid his hands on Sara's shoulder guiding her around to face him.

"Sara, what we did may not have been the best decision; but all actions have consequences." he said gently

"It's all my fault, isn't it?" she muttered bitterly to herself

Grissom looked at her, shocked at her misunderstanding

"Sara you know it's not, it could never be your fault. It's nobody's fault, what happened has happened and we can't change that." Grissom paused for awhile trying to think how to put what he wanted to say

"Sara…what we need to know is if you're planning to keep the baby, you don't have to decide now but both you and I need to know soon."

She glanced at her hands, twisting them slowly in her lap.

"Let's look at the options" Grissom said quietly "abortion"

Sara gave him a horrified look "NEVER" she said vehemently

"I wasn't suggesting it," said Grissom "just laying out the options. Adoption or keeping the baby."

Sara sat thinking for awhile

"I'm not sure" she said looking at him for the first time "I just don't know what would be better."

Once again Grissom reached for her hand, gently placing it in his

"We can explore both options" he said "but you have the final word".

She smiled sadly at him not knowing what to say. Finally he broke the silence.

"There's one thing we have to get straight though; you need help, even if you don't think you do. I'll organize a session with a psychologist. I'll pay. This isn't about you only any more, there is also someone new we have to think about."

To his surprise Sara nodded.


Grissom handed Sara a big stack of papers from his briefcase. It had been two long months since the news of the baby was broken.

"There that's all I could get, now you just have to go through them" he smiled at her "That's a lot of reading."

"Yeah it is" she agreed "but it's going to be really tiring for you, you've just come back from work; at least I've had the last two day's off."

Grissom looked startled."Sara, I'm not planning to be reading them with you. It's your decision. If you choose the right adoptive family I'll agree." he said pointedly.

She was ready for his excuse "Of course you're going to help me, it's your child as well! Come in and I'll get you something to drink."

Grissom almost smiled but the stress and shock of finding Sara to be of child had not exactly worn out yet. He walked inside after her and shut the door.

Four hours later and they were still reading information about possible adoptive parents.

"What about this couple; likes are: classical music, romance novels, history." Grissom said to Sara "They sound okay don't they? Hold on….No I take that back, they list science as one of they're dislikes. Okay found a new one… female 24 and male 25. School teacher and lawyer, Phillip and….NO WAY! Sorry but her name is Ethel."

"Are you discriminating against names now?" Sara asked.

"No… it's only the name Ethel I discriminate against. I mean what if they end up naming the baby after her. That is if it's a she."

Sara started to laugh, but almost as suddenly her laughter turned to tears.

"Hey Sara…what's wrong?" he asked her still wrong-footed about her sudden mood change.

"I'm s-sorry Grissom. It's just the b-baby seems so real." she held her stomach "it's growing inside of m-me. I can't just let it go. I don't really want to give it u-u-up but if I don't I'm afraid that I'll be a bad mother."

Grissom put his hand over hers on her stomach "Sara Sidle, I think …no I know that you would be a great mother." with that he added "You decide what you want, I will support you either way. It's your baby."

"Oh Gil, it's yours too."

It was the fact that she had called him by his first name more than anything that made him realize the enormity about it all. As he drove back to his house in his car that night he realized what was going to happen. This baby, if it wasn't given up for adoption was going to push Sara and him closer together and he wasn't sure that he was ready for that. This baby was going to change his life more than he could ever realize.


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