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Ryan watched in a daze as he rode to the hospital in the back of the ambulance with Marissa, trying to think and answer all of the paramedic's questions about his "sister".

"Marissa Cooper" he said. "Yeah she's 19, no she's never done this before, yes she can drink heavily" he replied dully, too worried about Marissa to care about these questions.

"Is she going to be ok? What's wrong with her?"

It was Ryan's turn to ask the questions now, however the paramedic just ignored him as they continued to do work on Marissa.

It seemed like an eternity before they finally pulled into the hospital. Marissa was immediately rushed inside.

Ryan didn't know it yet, Summer and Seth hadn't even thought of it yet, but with the severe head trauma Marissa had she very well could die, and even if she didn't she wouldn't remember any of them.

It was now two hours since Ryan and Marissa had arrived at the hospital, and Ryan, Seth, and Summer were sitting in the waiting room very impatiently.

Ryan, of course, was brooding, thinking about the fight they had gotten into earlier. Maybe this was all his fault. Maybe he had caused her to do this to herself. If he had just given it to her more often, if he had given her what she needed…then she wouldn't have run off to another guy. In 4 years Ryan hadn't been able to give her what she needed.

His mind was still racing when the doctor came in.

"Mr. Cooper?" He asked; still think Ryan was Marissa's brother.

Seth kicked Ryan hard, bringing him back to reality.

"Huh?" "Yeah I'm Mr. Cooper."

"Your sister is doing remarkably well, and only suffered temporary memory loss. However, we do think that this was a suicide attempt, and you won't be able to see her or talk to her for the next 3 days. Her memory is extremely spotty, there are some things, more specifically people, that she remembers and some that she doesn't. We'll have to wait and see how much she remembers in the next few days before I can really tell you how much damage had been done to her brain. For now I suggest you all go home."

Ryan thanked him, knowing that he would never go home. He knew that he had to stay, had to be close to Marissa, regardless of the fact if she remembered him or not. He was still angry with her, still upset for what she had done to him, but he straight up hated himself. He knew that he had caused this. Everything between them had been going so well until he decided that he wanted to stop having sex and wait until marriage. Then everything went downhill. For a while he thought that their relationship was centered on the sex, but he knew in his heart that Marissa wasn't like that. Hell, they had been together for over 2 years before they did it for the first time.

Ryan watched as Summer and Seth got up to leave, asking Ryan to come with, but he shook his head no. He wanted to stay here with Marissa. He knew that as soon as he was able to see her that she would need him there.

He couldn't leave her again. Leaving her that summer had hurt her badly enough, and even though they weren't together anymore, he just couldn't hurt her like that again.

So Seth and Summer went home to do god knows what, Ryan knew that Summer was almost as upset as he was, but just couldn't handle the hospital any longer. Ryan didn't know how he was still there, he hated hospitals. He just kept thinking "I have to do this for Riss" "Marissa needs me, I can't leave her again."

Hours and hours passed by, and the next thing Ryan knew he was sound asleep on the waiting room floor, dreaming of better times of him and Marissa.

He knew in his heart that those times would come again soon. He could feel it.