Thanks to the reviewers, especially kursk and I-Believe-in-the-Butterflies
It had been three days since Marissa had attempted suicide, and the doctors were finally letting Ryan in to visit her. He had had a rough ciuple of nights, the chairs in the waiting room were hard to sleep on, the few times he had slept at all.
He just couldn't get over the fact that Marissa, his Marissa, had done this to himself and he wasn't there for her. He had caused this, and he was too late to stop it. Marissa, his beautiful girlfriend, or ex-girlfriend whatever, the gorgeous woman that he had a ring for just 4 days ago, had hurt herself, tried to kill herself, leave him forever, and it had all been his fault. He was sick with himself.
Slowly and shakily he made his way to her room, trying to calm himself down on the way, he knew he had to be strong for her.
"Riss" he said barely above a whisper when I saw her, and then noticing how weak she was he immediately ran to her bedside and took her in his arms, fighting back the tears.
"Marissa, my baby, Marissa" he whispered into her hair as he held her "Baby I'm so sorry"
He hadn't noticed that she was asleep, so when she woke up and screamed, it scared him. His first reaction was to hold her closer. "Shh, babe it's ok."
"Who, who are you?" She asked while fighting out of Ryan's strong grip.
"Who am I?" Ryan asked, taken aback. He knew that she might have some memory loss, but he thought that he would remember her. "Marissa, I'm Ryan…we're dating, we have been for pretty much the past 4 years…don't you remember? He spoke gently and softly, backing up and giving her space.
She shook her head slowly "Sorry" she mumbled with her head down.
"No, no don't be, it's ok. We'll make more memories. You and me, and Summer and Seth."
"Summer and Seth? Who are Summer and Seth?" she questioned
"They're our best friends. Well Summer is your best friend and Seth is mine. They've been going out almost as long as we have. We're all really close, and you and Summer live across the hall from me and Seth. Actually, I usually stay with you and Summer stays with Seth, but it's really your and Summer's room." He answered her, trying to explain as much as possible hoping that she would remember.
"Sum!" Marissa exclaimed suddenly
Ryan looked back at her confused
"You remember Summer but not me?" He asked, upset.
"Yeah, I remember Sum and Cohen! In second grade we did this project together on a Dr. Suess book, and Seth's mom, Kirsten made us this really yummy strawberry cake!" Marissa smiled up at him.
"Yeah, that's right." He had remember Seth telling him that Kirsten had actually cooked the cake, without burning the house down.
"why don't I remember you?" She wondered
"I dunno…you hurt yourself pretty badly…we had a fight because you were cheating on me…that's why you did this to yourself.." Ryan mumbled down to the floor, feeling mre guilty by the second.
"Oh" she replied "Ok"
"Well why don't you get some sleep, you look really tired…" Ryan said as he looked at her sympathetically. "I'm just gonna go now…I'll come back later on, ok?"
"NO!" She cried out "Don't leave me, Ryan. Please don't go."
"I thought you didn't remember me, I don't understand why you want me to stay." Ryan asked confused.
"I don't remember you, but I remember feeling safe. I know that you made me feel safe…will you hold me like you did before, it made me feel a lot better." She spoke sweetly to him, and he knew that in time she would remember, they had to deep a bond, one that nothing, probably not even death could come between.
"I love you Marissa Cooper" he whispered into her hair as he wrapped her up in his arms again. "I'll never leave you, you'll always be safe."
He meant every word.
Back at school, Summer had finally fallen asleep. She had been up for three days straight, calling Ryan every 20 minutes, asking for updates about her best friend. It was only when Ryan told her that he was about to walk into her room that she relaxed, knowing that he would take care of her and bring her home soon, that she relaxed against Seth's chest and fell asleep.
Seth wasn't quite sure how he had handled Summer lately. It was like a constant stream of rage blackouts, only these were more like sorrow and worry blackouts, and they lasted a lot longer. He had proved his love for her more than ever in the past few days. He knew that she was worried, and had plenty of reason to be, Seth was too; but my God that woman could be violent!
As soon as Summer's eyes fluttered closed, Seth let his drop as well. He had been kept awake trying to comfort his girlfriend, and was tired to say the least.
Ryan held Marissa, Seth held Summer, and they slept
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