1 If only he could tell me that he loved me. If only think weren't so different. Eiri Yuki. The novelist. Every girl loves him for his looks, talent, and the way he's so mysterious. But if only they would know what a heartbreaker he could be. To leave you crying in the rain. He wouldn't care, that's why I'm sitting at the corner of a street, waiting. Waiting for someone who would just bring me somewhere far away.. Forever..

It was dark. Only a few cars passed by. I looked at my watch. 1:30 A.M. Yuki kicked me out five hours ago and usually I come back by now. Maybe he's worried about me. No, I doubt that. I doubt he even cares where I am. Maybe I should go to Hiro's. Sleep at his house for a night. No, I don't want to bother Hiro. There's my parents, but I don't want to bother them either.

Sprinkles of rain fell upon me. I better find somewhere to go, before it starts to actually rain. Few drops of rain fell, as I looked up to the dark blank sky. Maybe it just isn't meant for me and Yuki. I want to know what you think of me, Yuki. I care for you more than anything in the world.

Rain pored down hard.

Why is it Yuki that every day you make me cry, make me upset, but I still love you. I would do anything so I could be with you. Thoughts always rushing through my head. There's never a time when I'm not thinking of you.

My hair was soaked, and so was my clothes, but I didn't care. I got up, stepping under a tree. This would do for now. I rubbed my arms, keeping from freezing.

There's nothing that gets me to sleep at night, just listening to myself breathe. Just to wish you could be there me. My heart beats so fast when I'm with you. I just wish to love you and you not mind. I've never been in so much love with someone. Never seen anybody so beautiful and talented. And at times, you can take so much pain away in my heart.

I looked over to the park. I walked over into the grass, then started to spin around. Spreading my arms out and singing. Singing words that first came to my mind. I closed my eyes. And started to cry. But kept on singing and spinning. Just me and the rain. Why did it feel like all the heavy pain was being released? I felt so free.

I fell to the ground from being so dizzy. I laid on my back, looking up at the night sky. It felt so good to be by myself for once. I felt alive again. But every time I think of him, I can just die again. You're the only love I have ever known. Please don't bring me down.

"Please" I whispered.

Just don't think of him, just be happy.

I got up, laughed, cried, and screamed. All these emotions filling up inside of me at once. Just wanting to run, run, run. Nothing can stop me now. I started to spin again, spinning faster and faster. I stopped.

Loving you is a nightmare.

I hate you.

Your ruining my life.

Stop killing me inside.

I love you.

Stop.

Stop!

Stop ruining my life this way!

Get away from me!

I hate you.

I hate you.

I ran. Ran as fast as I could. Crying harder. This is my nightmare. All the things you've said.

Faster.

Faster.

Just keep running.

My legs because weak. Arms swinging back and forth beside my sweating wet body. I stopped at a swing and sat on it. Pumping my legs back and forth, moving higher and higher into the air. My breaths came harder. The wing blowing through my hair. I'll never go back to him. I shot my eyes back open and jumped off the swing, landing in the muddy grass, sliding a few feet. Laying there seemed so peaceful. Listening to the rain pour down. My body hurt. My legs, arms, head, heart. I got back up, ignoring the pain.

Never going back to you.

I'll never go back.

"Shuichi"

My eyes became wide, knowing who's voice it was.

I turned around, and there was Yuki.

"Come home Shuichi" He said.

Never go back.

Run.


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