1"Yuki..." I whispered bringing my hair over my eyes to hide away the shining tears that filled my purple orbs. I only heard the last words he told me as he passed me. The words playing over and over in my head, like a record that didn't work.
I will always love you.
He loves me. Bringing so much heavy wait to my heart again, just to know that he loves me. I should have known, never to fall for someone else. I should have known that it was hard for him to express himself. Why was I so blind on to see that? But I knew that. I knew. But I can't go back to him. I love someone else. Don't I? Then why do I still have feelings for Yuki? To see him, to know how much joy he gave me, when he excepted me. But I didn't see that. I didn't notice him staring at me, smiling, telling himself over and over again that me loved me. I know I can't hide from myself that I love him. Everyone knows that I can't hide it.
I watched him walk out of the coffee shop, his perfect shape walking out into the sunlight, his golden hair shining. He didn't look back at me. Of course he wouldn't, he wouldn't give into me so easily like that. I turned my head over to Asahikage, he was looking at me, his green eyes locked on mine. No, I didn't want this. I didn't want him. I love Yuki, not him. Never him. I know Yuki has always been mean to me, yelling at me, calling me names, making me cry. But there's always something about him that I love about him that I haven't found yet.
Asahikage opened his mouth, and started talking to me. But I wasn't listening, I had something on my mind. And I didn't want to include him in it.
"Lets go home." He said finally as I tuned into what he was saying.
We walked home in silence, as he took a sip of his soda now and then. That made me annoyed. He opened the door to his house, I walk to my room and close the door, sitting down on my bed, staring down at me feet, playing the day all over again in my mind. He knocked on the door, then came in, sitting down next to me. That also made me annoyed. Coming in without asking.
"You doing okay?" He asks putting a hand on my leg. I wish he would stop touching me all the time.
I nod, turning my head so I wouldn't look at him.
He grabbed my face, pulling it towards his. Anger swimming in his eyes. "Don't you ever fucking turn your head away from me!" He yelled grabbing my arm and throwing me to the ground. I stared at him in disbelief. He walked over to me, kicking me hard in the stomach. "I'm sorry.." I wheezed curling up in a ball. He got down on his knees next to me, whispering in my ear. "Big strong Yuki isn't here to save you, isn't that right? He's not here because I have you now."
I closed my eyes tight. Just go away.
Asahikage grabbed my wrists, squeezing them until there was bruises forming. "Look at me!" He hissed slapping me across the face and grabbing my hair, pulling me up to him. He gave me a rough kiss, trailing down my neck, nibbling on my collar bone. I tried to squirm away, but he pulled me closer, as I whimpered.. "Shhh..." He said in my ear.
He dug his hands into my back and I yelled in pain, pushing him away and going into the corner of the room.
"You don't have to play hard to get, Shuichi." He chuckled getting up and crossing the room to where I was. He crawled on top of me, playing with my hair and licking my cheeks.
I started to cry. I didn't want this. I didn't...
I tried pushing away him again, but he punched me across the face, making my face snap to the side. My body hurt so bad, why was he doing this to me?
"Now, don't be scared..." He said lifting my shirt up. "No! Stop it!" I screamed, pushing him as hard as I could. He stumbled to the floor, glaring at me. He got up, his teeth clenched, then started kicking me. Harder every time he took a kick. "You will listen to me!" He hissed. Asahikage stopped, walking out of the room and into his room. I laid on the ground, breathing hard. Crying harder each time pain shot through my body.
I slowly got up, stumbling out of the room and out of the house, waiting at the corner of the block to get a taxi. One finally came, as I put my hand up in the air, waving it gently around as it stopped next to me. I got in the back seat staring at the taxi driver.
"Take me to Cedar Street."
He nodded and got onto the road. The taxi driver looked at me then looked back at the road.
"You in a gang?" He asked.
"What?"
"You seem beat up."
"O-oh. Yeah."
"Need to go see a doctor?"
"No. I'll be fine."
He shrugged, taking a turn, speeding up. He stopped at Cedar Street, as I gave him the money I owed him, stepping out of the car. I shut the door, using fences to support my balance until I got to Yuki's apartment. I knocked on the door, leaning up against the wall waiting for him to answer. There was a pause, then the blonde novelist answered the door.
"Yuki.." I said lifting up his head. "I need you."
