Could It Be Any Harder?

by cenagurl

Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter or the song… they are owned by Ms. Rowling and The Calling…

A/n: This is a sub-part of my story Will I Tell Her?There would also be another sub-part (Stigmatized) and finally, the sequel (still no title). Watch out for it!

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You left me with me with goodbye and open arms

A cut so deep I don't deserve

You were always invincible in my eyes

The only thing against us now is time…

I stare sightlessly at the horizon, standing in the exact position I had found him before. The water swished around my ankles playfully with every dance of the wind, and my hair floated around every other moment.

He's gone.

Could it be any harder to say goodbye without you

Could it be any harder

To watch you go, to face what's true?

If I only had one more day…

The mere thought immediately brought a hideous threat of tears at the corner of my eyes. No tears fell though, as I vowed not to cry until I see him return again. Smiling. With open arms.

But when is that? Just a month had passed since he left, but it seemed like an eternity to me.

I had not told Harry or Ron about what happened between me and him. It's not that I don't want to, but some things are just too painful to talk about.

They knew I was unhappy though. I barely ate or spoke to them. They questioned me many times already about what I was so sad about, but I refused to answer.

They wouldn't understand.

So I started to pretend. I always feigned a fake smile when they see me, and even forced down some food down my throat.

Things still aren't the same.

I lie down and blind myself with laughter

A quick fix of hope is what I'm needing

And how I wish I could turn back the hours

But I know I just don't have the power…

I wished Voldemort would come and attack Hogwarts NOW. So I can finally see him again, to tell him how I really feel.

I love him.

I'd jump at the chance,

We'll drink and we'll dance

And I'd listen to your every word,

As if it's your last, I know it's your last

'Cause today, oh, you're gone…

I want to steal one of the time turners and go back to the moment we were together so I could tell him that.

I wanted to take my time listening to his every word, touching him, kissing him, telling him everything I wanted to express…

Like sand on my feet,

The smell of sweet perfume

You stick to me forever…

And I wish you didn't go

I wish you didn't go, I wish you didn't go away…

To touch you again,

With life in your hands

It couldn't be any harder…

Could it be any harder?

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A/n: I was just listening to my CD of The Calling when I suddenly had this idea in my head. I think the song fit what Hermione felt quite well when Draco left in my fic Will I Tell Her? … what about you? Let me know! REVIEW please…