Sugar High and Delusional Thinking
I'M BEINNING TO FEEL BAD! I ONLY GOT THREE REVIEWS LAST CHAPTER! I WANNA KNOW HOW I'M DOING AND WHAT YOU GUYS THINK! I APPRECIATE THOSE OF YOU WHO DO REVIEW! passes out chocolate and kudos to Pia O'Leary, A Crazy Elephant, and fearthedark10 you rock, thanks!
TO MY WONDERFUL REVIEWERS! I WARN YOU NOW! LILY IS DELUSIONAL IN THIS CHAPTER!!!!
Pia O'Leary: Evil Lily! You'll find out why she was crying in this chapter.
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He is so-o-o stupid! I can't believe he caught me crying. I haven't cried since my mom died. I guess I needed a cry though. Mom gave me my first paint set when I was three. I can remember the day before she died she said she had always wanted to be able to paint, but she was never that artistic. She was taken away so suddenly. I hadn't painted since that day. I guess Potter made me so angry I did the only thing I could do to calm down. Paint. All the memories of my mom just flew over me and I just started to cry. I fell like such a wimp. Potter just doesn't get it, you knock first, and when someone says no they mean no.
Why does he have to be such an arse? All I ever did was study to please my dad and make my mama proud. Then Potter goes and calls me a failure, that makes me feel like I haven't made my mom proud and my daddy pleased. I try my hardest and get good grades and then Potter goes and wrecks it and I have to work twice as hard as I did before. I only have three friends but I don't have to tell him that. Well, you know what I just realized? To hell with, Potter. I don't care what he says because he doesn't even know me. He asked me out over a hundred times and then he goes and teases me and expects me to fall in love with him? I think not. He has no idea who the heck I am and unless he really tries, then screw him the bloody part!
I sat up in bed crying until around three in the morning. Finally I just got up and put the vase that I broke back together and made my bed. I wasn't tired and I only had four hours 'til breakfast. It's not that bad, at least it's Wednesday and there's only three days 'til the weekend.
I'm tired of looking the way I do. I'm not ugly, I know that, but I'm not anywhere close to pretty either. I took a shower and rapped myself in a towel-like robe. Sitting in front of the mirror in my bathroom was torture. I sat there for twenty minutes before I did it. I took my long auburn hair and the scissors and began to cut away. I'm rather good at cutting hair, which is a good thing for me. A half hour later I was fully dressed and sporting a very different look. Instead of the nerdy girl in the back of the room with long, ratty hair and perfectly intact uniform I had scruffed it up just a bit. My hair was now straight, shoulder-length and had choppy layers up to my ear. My uniform was nice and clean but I gave up trying to tie my tie and left it hang. I pulled on my black robes, that when I stood still, hid my scrunch socks in gray. Overall I hadn't changed my appearance that much but it was enough to satisfy me. I had never really felt the need for make-up, but I got bored. I still had two hours until even the early risers would be up and about. To top off my "new" look I didn't put my contacts in like I normally did, instead I put on my black/red oval glasses. I don't think I look that bad, I like my new hair cut actually.
Ok, nothing to do. I'm staring at that stupid painting I did last night. I have no idea what it is but hey, it looks pretty cool. It's so colorful and cheerful. I still have about a half hour. If I want to avoid Potter, then I better leave now.
I stepped out of my room and closed the door quietly with my back toward the common room. Turning around I felt the blazing fire in the fireplace. The warmth engulfed me and brought me to the couch. I sat down and looked into the flames. They're so funny, flicking and disappearing all the time. Never staying in one place for long. Suddenly I heard a loud bang in the bathroom and jumped off the couch. It was either face Potter or get down to the Great Hall early. I choose early.
As I closed the portrait hole I heard the bathroom door bang open. I quickly swept down four flights of stairs, six corridors, and two passageways. Finally I reached the Great Hall and opened the giant double doors.
There was no one there, unless you count the teachers. I walked towards Gryffindor table and piled three pancakes on my plate and slapped some butter on. I took a bite and grimaced. They needed SYRUP!!!!! I'm really tired, can you tell? I got no sleep and I have to get on a sugar high to stay awake in all my classes and function semi-normal. So-o-o it's syrup on overly sugared pancakes some Frosted Flakes and other sugary breakfast foods. YAWN Ugh...sugar not helping yet...need more sugar. Need more sug...
WHOA! Almost fell asleep there. Gotta stay awake. Gotta stay awake. Gotta stay awake. Crap, here comes Potter. I have to stay awake now. I have noooooo choice. But I'm so tired. SHUT-UP!!!!!!! Ok, I'm ok now. I am alright. I'm awake. I'm awake.
"Morning, Evans." Potter said from behind me. I looked around to find that there were only three of us in the hall. Potter, Professor Dumbledore, and me.
"I'm awake!" I replied groggily. Crap, I said that out-loud. "I mean, I'm...uh...morning. Yeah, morning, Potter." That was screwed up. Ugh, I am never going another sleepless night again. They're bad. I felt a hand on my back and looked up. "What are you doing, Potter?" I asked him as he stared at my plate still filled with sugar and sugary substances.
"How much sleep did you get last night?" he asked. Was it that obvious? Really I look pretty good for not having slept at all. "Um" was all I could manage. "You have to go back upstairs and go to sleep. You can skip today's lessons, can't you?" I shook my head firmly and replied coldly. "No, I cannot skip class and sleep. It's the first day of lessons and I have to be there. Plus I'm not tired!" I stuffed a chocolate glazed donut in my mouth and chewed.
"I like your hair by the way." It was Potter. I nodded a thanks and finished off my donut as a wave of students came in. I got up and tapped Potter's shoulder. "Gotta hand schedules out, Potter." I handed him half and we began to hand them out. When we finished I glanced at my schedule and sighed. Yes, today would be good. I had a Double Charms with the Ravenclaws, Transfiguration, then Defense Against the Dark Arts, lunch, and then Arithmancy and Potions last. I had taken all the classes I could and that would be quite a few. I had a busy schedule and at least I didn't have Potions with the Slytherins (sp?). The day can't be too bad can it? I mean a double Charms is always good. I need some chocolate pudding. That was so-o-o random! I'm going to sit back down and wait for my friends to get here.
Potter is poking me. "What?" I groan and look at him sitting next to me. "You fell asleep. We're going to be late if you don't get up now." He said this so soothingly. My brain didn't register this information. "That's nice." I was closing my eyes again. "WHAT?!?!?! I FELL ASLEEP! HOW, WHY? WHO CARES!" I shrieked at the top of my lungs and jumped up knocking over my chair and Potter's as I dragged him out of the hall. I was running full speed with Potter still being dragged behind me. "Oomph!" I heard from behind me. I looked back to see Potter's face being hit with my book bag. "Sorry." I meant that. Scary. I reached the Charms classroom and threw open the door with one hand. I rushed into the room forgetting I still had Potter in a death grip from Hell.
"Evans! Leh go!" Potter choked out, since I had been dragging him by his tie. I quickly released my grip and walked to my seat before anyone could notice. Potter took the seat behind me and class began.
"We will be learning the charm Manlioga. It enables you to levitate yourself and a small group of people very high into the air..." Flitwick droned on and on and on. I felt someone poking my back. I turned around to find Potter with a worried look on his face. I gave him a questioning look and he mouthed, "Are you ok?" I nodded and he gave me a serious look.
"I will now assign you partners to work with. Lupin and Campbell, Black and McAnthony, Pettigrew and Alvetario, and last we have Potter and Evans."
I groaned inwardly as Potter took a seat next to me.
"What's wrong with you today, Evans?" Potter asked with concern.
"What do you mean? I'm perfectly fine." I said innocently.
"First you eat a whole bunch of sugar, I have never seen you eat that much in the first place. Second, you fell asleep at breakfast. Third, you were almost late to class and finally, you fell asleep in your favorite class." He really looked worried. I sighed and picked up my wand.
"Lets just practice the spell ok?" I was annoyed now and glared at my hand.
"No, it's not ok. What is wrong with you today? You've been acting like a brat all day." Ok, he's ticking me off now.
"I'm perfectly fine. Nothing is wrong. I simply lack sleep is all." I said through clenched teeth. He gave me a weird look and shook his head.
"That explains the sugar and sleeping." He muttered under his breath. The annoying git. Maybe we can practice the spell now. I voice my thought and we began. I feel like I'm going to die. I have such a headache. Oh CRAP!!!! Oh no, I feel a sugar high coming on. I forgot sugar highs come with eating a lot of sugar. Oh no, what did I just do?
"Oh my...I am so-o-o sorry Sirius!" I rushed to him and bent over him trying to see if he's ok. I had been out of it and had said the spell and directed it nowhere in particular, which happened to be where Sirius sat. He lifted into the air and when I realized what I was doing I fell backwards out of my chair. He consequentially fell on his back knocking the wind out off him.
"Didja geh th' number ov that broom flew by?" his words were slurred. Holy crap.
"Sirius, I am so sorry! It was an accident." I said a quick healing spell and he sat up.
"What did ja do that for Evans?" He asked in an angry voice. I knelt next to him and put my hands in my lap.
"I am so-o-o sorry, Sirius. It was a complete accident. I was out of it just now and didn't even realize that I said the spell out loud and then..." I trailed off and I felt a tear slide down my cheek. Oh not now. This is going to be ten times worse because of the sugar high if I don't stop now. Wait I have no control of my body. Crap! Now I'm a freaking waterfall!
"I'm ok Lily, really. It was rather fun until I fell." Sirius tried to calm me down but it wasn't working. I have no control and this is about to get ugly. I could do or say anything right about now. I need someone to get me out of here before I make even more of a fool out of myself. I am so tired. Oh! Why am I laughing? Everyone is staring! Ugh, help me! Oh thank you! James you're my savior. Thank you thank you thank you! He is so-o-o-o sweet!
"Professor, I'm going to take her to the Hospital Wing. I think she's unwell or has been the victim of a bad prank." Flitwick nods, and James steers me towards the door. I'm still laughing and crying at the same time. What? What's going on? Why are you sitting me up against the wall? Why are you kneeling in front of me and staring? I'm not in a good sitting position. I pull my knees under me and lean against the wall.
"Lily, are you alright? Do I seriously need to take you to the Hospital Wing or do you just need a nap?" Oh, how sweet. He looks so concerned. Hang on a sec. This is Potter we're talking about right? Ok then. But it is sweet, if you think about it. I can only nod because I've gone back to crying.
"The Hospital Wing?" he questions and I shake my head no. "A nap?" I nod and lean my head so it rests on his shoulder. I sigh as he begins to rub my back. He takes one hand and strokes my hair. I calm down a bit and stop crying. I take a few gulps of air and James hugs me I lean into his protective arms and close my eyes.
"Thank you, James." There I said his name too. Yeah go me! Go Lily! You rock. Ok now all you have to do is get up. I pull away and attempt to stand. Nope, doesn't work and I topple over. It was even more ungraceful than it sounds too. You are so sweet James. He just helped me up and is walking me towards...Hey wait a minute! Our dorm is the other way! This is the way to the Hospital Wing.
"Where?" Is all I manage to get out because I've started to cry again. He looks at me and smiles a gentlemanly smile. I can't help but smile back.
"Hospital Wing. I think you need to see Madam Contifeller." Hey! She's mean. I wanna see the new one Poppy. I think. Yeah Poppy. Enough babbling. Oh yeah, and for those who think I like Potter. I DON"T! So get that stupid idea out of your head!
But really it's not a stupid idea.
Yes it is.
No it isn't!
Yes it is!
No!
Yes!
NO!
YES!
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
FINE! I give up! It isn't a stupid idea! I just don't like him! So there!
Oh yeah, sure ya don't.
Ok that stupid voice in my head is annoying! Hey look, we're already at the Hospital Wing. Haha I didn't know that. Oh good. Evil Madam Contifeller is busy so Poppy will be helping me out.
"What is it children?" she asks in a sweet voice. I am dazed and don't answer. James does though! He's so sweet, isn't he? Ok, that's enough of you! Mentally stuffs voice in a trunk I'm a voice stupid! I can't be locked up! I just grumble a bit and listen to the conversation going on.
"Lily, here, isn't feeling well. I think she just needs a nap but I'm not sure so-o-o we're here." James said. Poppy nodded and took me to a bed and sat me down. Ugh! I really don't feel well! Oh No! I think I'm gonna be sick! I jump up and run to the Hospital Wings loo. Groan. This sucks! I feel really light headed...
