Chapter 3

(Terra)

The rest of the night I spent in my room. No one would want to talk to me after my outburst about Starfire being a Troq. I hadn't meant it, but it was still said.

"Look, even though she did save us, she's still acting like she's on his side," I overheard Raven say as she and Robin passed my room. "She's no good, and I still don't trust her."

"I'm not asking you to trust her, Raven," he said gently. His voice came louder as he stopped at my door. "I just want you to give her another chance. She seems... helpless now."

A knock-- I knew what he wanted, but I couldn't. I wouldn't. My door slid open with a touch of a button. "Hey Terra." The boy stated simply.

"I... I didn't mean what I said about Star. You know that. I'm just still..."

"Shaky?" he offered like it was no big thing. "Yeah, I've been there."

Here is where everything falls apart for the Titans and me. I broke down. It wasn't the first he had seen me cry, but it would be the last. "I just... I can't handle it, Robin! The memories, Beast Boy, Raven... I just can't do it anymore."

"You can." He said, but much like my comment, he didn't mean it. "I know you can." Another voice was added to the two of ours.

"Terra?" Beast Boy, "We need to talk."

"I'll just leave you two alone, then," Robin said, half grinning. I motioned for him to enter, though I found it unnecessary. He had entered the room as soon as Robin left.

"Terra, you can't just expect everything to be like it was when you first came. Things aren't like that anymore."

"You're accusing me, aren't you? I didn't mean for any of this to happen, Beast Boy."

"Then why did you let it? You could have been one of us... then Slade could have been destroyed for good. But you turned against us. You wanted control that you knew he could give you. You wanted the power. You liked what he did to you until we came back."

"That's a lie, Beast Boy," I said, turning away from him. "I liked and wanted the power until he stared to take advantage of my apprenticeship. I ran from one fight... It was the end of his world. He gained the city with my help. The beginning of total domination."

BB appeared in front of me. His smiling eyes met my tear-streaked face. "Now that you're back, we can kick Slade's butt until he won't come back."

"Yes, Terra, join them," A cold voice hissed in my mind. No, not a cold voice- Slade's voice. "Join them, and then I will know how to defeat all the titans perfectly. Come back to me, Terra, save them the pain of learning you're still in contact with me."

I had forgotten that Beast Boy was standing there. "No!" I said aloud. "I won't!"

"Whoa, there, Terra," BB commented, "If you don't want to help us catch Slade for good, that's fine with me. But there's no need to get hysterical."

"But-" No follow up to my 'but' came. There was no but. There never had been.

"I want to help you, Terra," Beast Boy mumbled. "You just have to want me to."