"There I said it, I love you" The red head cried, "Even after the stupid ho. I never hated you, it was just too much. You left me for a blond, seriously Greg blonds are not better than red heads"

"I know" Greg wheezed, "Blasted tubes" He tried to turn, "I was an idiot, I screwed up everything I ever wanted. I threw my life down the tubes, just for one night"

God must hate me

Cursed me for eternity

God must hate me

Maybe you should pray for me

I'm breaking down and you can't save me

I'm stuck in hell an I wanna go home

"Not just yours Greg, mine too, you knew I was a jealous person, always paranoid, I knew I wasn't good enough for you, even my parents told me that, they told me every time I saw them, 'You ain't good enough for that Sanders boy, you got lucky, he's gonna leave you one day, fer someone purty'. And they were right, every last thing they ever said about me was true, I'm a failure and I'll always be one" Noelani hugged her hospitalized friend, "Love wasn't in their vocabulary, at least I never heard it"

"You know what? They were wrong, I left you cause I was an idiot, not cause you weren't good enough, and you're not a failure"

Noelani nodded her head even though she didn't agree with Greg, she had gone 19 years hearing that she was a failure, and that's all she ever knew, she did everything just for someone else's approval, never for her own, Grissom had continuously told her "Do it for your approval. Not someone else's, that will get you no where in life" She knew it was true but couldn't follow it, it wasn't her.

"Guess what" Noelani mused

"You're gonna marry me?"

"No" She shook her head at an incredible speed, "I'm out of the slammer for a week"

Greg smiled, "Only a week? That's all you asked for?"

"Actually I asked for three days, I got a week though, I just freaked and started bawling and Jim let me free for a week" She acted fake proud, "Was that a proposal?"

"Maybe…" And with that he drifted off in to a deep sleep

CSI

"Jesu Cristo!" Noelani was pacing back and forth in Nick's office, "Jesu Cristo!'

"Snaps if you keep pacing your going to pace a hole in my floor. Now tell me what is 'Jesu Cristo'"

"Jesus Christ in Spanish, the only Spanish I know"

"No, why are you freaking out?"

"Greg proposed to me in the hospital! I don't know what I should do, if I should forgive him, if I should say no, if I should say yes, if I should take the ring and flee the country, if I should make him bleed out his ears for what he did to me, if I should say yes, if I should scream at him, if I should beat him till his eyes turn brown…" Noelani was talking so fast that all Nick got out of it was 'Greg, proposed, me, bleed, ears, eyes, and brown.

"Greg proposed!" Catherine walked in to the room, she could apparently understand flipped out Noelani language, "When?"

"You understood her?" Nick asked as Noelani replied, "In the hospital"

"What should I say Catherine? I mean I love him, but he hurt me, but he's sorry, but it killed me, but I love him…" Catherine put her hand over the over excited girls mouth

"We are going to start at the first phrase, 'I mean I love him'. Tell us about that"

"Ok, Greg and I went out six years ago, and we were going to get engaged, but it never happened."

"Second phrase"

"Um, the day we were going to go buy the ring, I found him with some stupid blond ho"

"Greg did what now?" Nick yelled

"He gave a blond, he found in a bar, a happy! I called it off right after I found him and that witch, I kicked him out of the house and didn't return anything that belonged to him, so I have a box full of Greg junk in my attic"

"I remember that you came crying to my house in Vegas about it being over and how you saw no reason to live any longer, if I remember correctly you took a knife to your arms, and didn't talk to Greg for three months"

"Yeah, I started just above my elbows and worked my way down to my wrists, I never got there though, either I fell unconscious or you took all the knives away, I'm pretty sure it was the latter of the two"

"Catherine what should I do? You're older and more experienced in love, I need advice please! Crap that sounds like a stupid:

Ask Abby,

The love of my life is a skany cheating loser, I love him with all my heart but I don't know what I should do. You're older and have more experience in love, I need help, please tell me what I should do because I'm to incapable to lead my own life so I turn to you for every last thing.

Love from,

I'm a confused moron."

Noelani said sourly and sarcastically.

"Well" Nick managed to get out, his cousin was obviously angry and was going to start throwing furniture soon.

Let me hear you say:

This shit is bananas

B-A-N-A-N-A-S

This shit is bananas

B-A-N-A-N-A-S

Again

This shit is bananas

B-A-N-A-N-A-S

This shit is bananas

B-A-N-A-N-A-S

"I still love him" she rubbed her eyes trying to keep herself from producing tears, "What should I say?"

"That's up to you, you can marry him, or you can find someone else"

"I can't find someone else! I'm not even good enough for Greg!" She bawled, "And he cheats on his soon-to-be-fiancé."

"What are you talking about? Did Greg tell you that?" Catherine ushered the girl over and sat her down like she did with Lindsay, she stooped to one knee, and hugged Noelani, "If anything Greg's not good enough for you"

Noelani knew 26 years were getting back at her, everything she had ignored in the past was coming back, like crying, she hadn't cried ever and like magic it was coming out like the Hoover Dam had busted open, everything that happened would set her off, she shook her head.

I have no belief

But I believe

I'm a walking contradiction

And I ain't go no right.

"Snaps I know what your parents said about you, none of it's true, not even when they told you that I was much smarter and would amount to at least ten times more, look at you"

"A 26 year old woman following in her cousin's footsteps, who has no life what so ever, and can be seen on the 9, 10,12,and 4 o' clock news, for assaulting her smarter better-looking and amounts to much more cousin, of who is telling her that she's worth more than he is. Yeah Nick, I'm smarter and worth more than you" You could find the obvious sarcasm dripping off her words

"I mean, babe, look at us, I'm 33 have no romantic life, and you 26, seven years difference, have been engaged and might get engaged again, see, now who is better looking? And who amounts to more?"

"You, look at me Nick, I'm fat, ugly, and seriously need to do something with my wardrobe, but I can't afford nice clothing like you can, and that's because your better than I am"

"No, No he's not better than you, he's older than you, he gets paid more, he's a higher level CSI. Fat? You're almost anorexic!" Catherine pushed her hair behind her ear and for the first time noticed the girl was hardly existent, "When was the last time you ate a whole meal?"

"Three years ago" Noelani looked at her shoes, "I started eating less and less about seven, but it was mainly the whole thing, but about three years I stopped eating any more than half, this year I don't eat breakfast, I have a package of tater tots for lunch and don't eat dinner, but it's not helping, I'm still getting fatter"

"You're fading away, you're not getting fatter" Nick added, "If you were fat we wouldn't be able to see your bones, we could count every single one of your ribs if we wanted to"

"Please, Noelani, asking this as a friend, who happens to be 10 years older than you, eat something" Catherine took the girl by the arms and gently shook her.

CSI

"I can't believe you brought me here" Nick and Catherine had taken her to Pete's Parlor, a place where they held you hostage until you ate everything on your plate, "This place should seriously be shut down for running a freaking hostage organization! I'm not going to eat a single thing in there"

"How long do you suppose we're going to be in there?" Nick asked worried, his cousin was the most stubborn person he had ever met

"Long enough for Grissom to send out a search squad for us and long enough for her to be arrested for obstruction of justice, and for making Jim look bad"

CSI

When they finally got their food, Noelani the steak with a side of refried beans, and Catherine and Nick both had chicken, all Noelani did was complain, "This is more than I eat in a month here in one sitting, you're trying to make me huge!" Or, "I will sit here until Jim comes back for me and I will not finish this meal!" Also, "If you lot want out of here, you best be eating this steak" All of which Catherine and Nick ignored, finishing their meals and staring at the freaked out girl

CSI

That night Grissom was annoyed that both Catherine and Nick were late, he was already down two CSIs and now they only had three to do a seven man's case, so he called them, "Catherine, you're late"

"I know"

"Explain, or be unemployed we have a huge case tonight and we can't afford to be four CSIs short"

"Well, it started off as a simple plan, get Noelani to eat, so we went to Pete's Parlor, and now since she refuses to eat, we're being held hostage by the management."

"I told you they should be shut down for running a hostage organization, but no, you turn us in to hostages!" Noelani screamed from the background

"Why is it so important that she eat?" Grissom asked angrily

"Due to the fact that she's anorexic, and weighs only 65 pounds when she should way about 190"

"I'll send a rescue squad" and with that he hung up

"Grissom's sending a rescue squad"