A/N: I'm so sorry it took me so long to update, but there are so many things going on in my life right now... Anyway, I feel horrible about not updating. Especially because this story means a lot to me. I'm feeling kind of down, so please, review, even if it is just say that I suck, I mean, if you say it in a nice way.

"When I saw myself

Having to live

Just with the world and myself

You came to me as a good dream

And I got scared

I'm not perfect, I don't forget it

The richness that we have

No one is able to notice

And thinking about this

It makes me, a grow up man

Get scared and not be able to sleep"

Chap 4 - Josh - Part II

Josh woke up in the next day, took a shower and went to work. He was a very successful businessman and worked in a big company, but Rory never got to know what were their services more specifically. When Rory woke up she found a note on the nightstand next to the bed.

'Went to work. Will be home at 5. If you want to go for a walk there will be some kind of town festival downtown. Think you gonna like it. Josh'

Rory got up, took a shower and went downtown. When she reached the celebration she realized how much this little town remembered her of Stars Hollow. She saw a couple hugging and laughing across the street. She missed it. She didn't have it with Mark, and she never felt that way with Dean. Just Jess could provoke those feelings in her. Just he had this power.

*Flashback*

Rory and Jess were at the Stars Hollow Anniversary Celebration. She had spent two weeks trying to convince him to go to the festival. At the end he gave up and they went together. There was a lot of decoration and tends selling souvenirs from Stars Hollow. Rory went from tend to tend with Jess following her. When he reached her in one of this tends he could see her playing with a key ring the said "Yours forever". She tried to hide it from him when she realized his eyes observing her, but she had already been caught.

She smiled saying, "It's nothing really. I just thought it was sweet". Knowing Jess wasn't really a fan of heart to heart gestures, she said the words more to herself than to him, trying to convince herself that it really wasn't big deal the fact that her boyfriend wasn't able to open up and do some cheesy gestures once in a while. She didn't want to pressure him. He hated when people did it to him. But it was something she hadn't learned how to deal with yet, and sometimes it bothered her. Jess reached her hand and took the key ring from her.

'It's not a dig deal', she told herself. 'So what he doesn't like to be mellow. He loves me, he just has another way to show it', Rory thought.

Jess took the key ring from her and bought it, to Rory's surprise. Than he took a permanent pen from his pocket, that he usually used to vandalize benches and walls at school, and wrote something in the key ring. Taking her hand in his and opening it, he put the key ring on it. He kissed her lightly and started walking to another tend, just like nothing had happened.

As soon as he was out of sight she opened her hand to see what he had written on the key ring. In one side it was written 'Yours forever'. She turned it around and read in a low voice, 'From Jess to Rory'. She smiled like a fool. After all he wasn't that bad when he tried to romantic. Who said bad boys couldn't be mellow?

They spent all day at the festival and when night came Jess walked Rory to the Gilmore's house. They entered the house to find it empty. She took his hand and led him to her room. They lied in bed next to each other, Rory resting her and hand on Jess' chest, listening carefully his heart beating.

He stroked her hair, "What's bothering you?"

"Nothing"

"You know..." he said in a thoughtful voice. "You're probably the worst liar ever."

Rory laughed softly. "It's nothing big."

"What's it?"

"The key ring."

Jess seemed slightly surprised. "Why? You didn't like it?"

"No, no. I loved it. It's just...is it true?"

"What?" he asked playing dumb.

"You know what", she answered, hitting him playfully on his arm.

"Yeah, it is", he said honestly.

"Huh."

"That's my quote"

Rory stood in silence, and it was making Jess grown uncomfortable. "Why? You don't believe it?" he asked with a hint of hurt in his voice.

"It's not that. It's just...it's so not you to be romantic and stuff"

"I can be this way for you...sometimes. Just don't get used to it", he smirked.

"Ditto."

"What?"

"What was written on the key ring. Ditto."

"Written on the key ring? I can't remember what was written there. Could you remind me?" he said teasingly.

Rory smiled and locked eyes with him. "I'm yours forever. I'll be yours forever." she said and kissed him passionately. When they broke apart she could hear him whispering something, but she couldn't figured what he'd said. "What?"

"I'm yours forever. I love you". She smiled at him and they started kissing again.

*End of Flashback*

Rory went to Josh's again. When he got home he wandered through the house calling for Rory, but no one answered. He finally found her sitting on a chair on the porch. He took a chair and sat next to her. They stood looking at the horizon in silence until Rory broke it.

"I love him", she stated simply.

"Who?"

"Jess"

"Huh"

"That's all you have to say?"

"Are you insane? Are you sure? They are all valid questions too"

"I don't think I'm insane and I think I'm sure"

"What about your boyfriend?"

"How do you know I have a boyfriend?"

"Jess told me"

"How?"

"It seems that Luke had told him"

"Shit"

"It's not like it was a secret or something, right? People talk. Did you really think that Jess wouldn't get to know sooner or later?"

"I know. I know"

"So, you do love him?"

"Yeah, in some way"

"In what way?"

"Not sure"

"You should try to figure it soon"

"Yeah, maybe it's just his memory"

"Maybe. Maybe not"

Rory was silent for a moment and then got up and entered the house. "I'm leaving tomorrow", she said while passing by his side.

Night came smoothly. Rory was lying in bed, trying to sleep, but her eyes were fully open. Talk to Josh made her remember a past that she had long forgotten. And now she felt the memories rushing back. She missed his arms around her waist, his lips brushing her nape, his scent all over the place.

*Flashback*

They were lying in his bed. He was sleeping; after all it was 2 a.m.. But she was awaken, starring at him. It had been a stressing day and he supported her even not knowing why she was so angry. It was something she really liked about him; he was always there for her. Now she was calmer. Just the sight of him made her calmer.

"I love you", she whispered.

He put his arm around her waist and pulled her closer, in a protective position where all his body was touching hers, as not to let her go.

"Same here", he replied.

"I thought you're sleeping", she accused him.

"Nah. I just thought you weren't in the mood to talk"

"Huh"

"What?" he asked with his eyes still closed.

"You're so caring, and still no one knows. Just me."

"And they won't ever know", he kissed her hair and paused, "Why? Does it bother you?"

"No. It makes me feel especial actually"

He laughed softly and brought his mouth to her era, "That's because you are. You are the one I love."

*End of Flashback*

Rory wondered if it'd ever be possible to hold moments like that forever and relive them repeatedly. She knew that if she could, she'd live all her moments with Jess again and again and again. Even the fights. Because then they would make up, and this was the best part. Oh, she loved making up. It was all so slow and each touch was so calculated. It was like some especial kind of dancing, like art. She missed that too.

She felt empty and lonely. Closing her eyes she put those feelings aside, remembering his words, "I'm yours forever". That warmed her. Later that night she fell asleep, counting all things that she missed so much in her life with him.

Next morning Rory packed her belongs and with Josh's help loaded the car.

"Thanks, for letting me stay. And thanks...for everything, you know"

Josh smiled, "Your welcome. Anytime."

They hugged for a long moment. "You have Gyn's address?"

Josh took a small piece of paper from his pocket and gave it to Rory, "I thought you'd ask"

"Thanks", she said and gave a peek on his cheek. Entering the car she looked at the paper that read 'Santa Fé Street, 402 - Syracure'. Starting the car and driving off she hoped get in Santa Fé before Jess has left. Again.