Jake wrenched her door open and came in, not bothering to lock it behind her as the tears; she was trying to hold back, started uncontrollably to race down her face. But she suddenly heard an abrupt nock at her door and her heart stood still. Could it be Hamilton? She opened the door, and as she guessed, it was him.
Hamilton, without so much as asking permission, brushed past and walked into her room "Jake… I have something to say," He pleaded.
Jake was in no mood for another I don't want you to kiss me again to hear now.
"I mean…I have to explain," he continued.
"Explain? You don't have to explain any thing to me? Why would you? What the hell does it matter to you?" She said, her heart aching with pain.
A strange look came over Hamilton's face, he couldn't take any more of that, it was driving him crazy. He had to let all his feelings out NOW.
"It DOES! I, I came here to explain something to you. I can't take this anymore…I guess what I'm trying to say is that contrary to all what I told you before, it didn't gross me out when WE kissed either that day on the rooftop or that night here in your own room" he poured his heart out to her and all his feelings were out.
"wha…when did you say?" She questioned in a voice choked with emotion, her eyes brimming with tears.
Jake was shacking and looked like she wanted to cry as Hamilton inched his way to her, closing the small gap that was between them,
"Jake… I need you." He looked deep into her eyes and kissed her gently yet passionately and just as he was about to break the kiss and run and hide away from her, she returned it, both were letting all those hidden feelings, emotions, want and desire in that long kiss.
Jake, realizing what she was doing, reluctant pulled away. In fact, she had to tell him about her secret being a girl, Hamilton had just
Poured out all his feelings and she still did not let him in on it. Amazed, he smiled at her and started to lean forward again, when she turned her face aside.
"What's wrong?" he frowned confused, his face silently questioning.
"Hamilton, I've gotta tell you something… you must know about me" Jake said.
"Yeah, what is it?" he queried, looking puzzled.
"We're not gay," She replied, her voice betraying her. Her eyes grew dim with tears.
"We're NOT gay? After all what has just happened, you're still telling me you're NOT gay. What the hell is it going on here, Jake?" Hamilton shouted, out of his mind.
"I know… I know, but this is not …"
"WHAT IS IT THEN, JAKE? WHAT IS IT!" He repeated, fretfully.
"We're not gay, Hamilton, because I'm a girl" He looked suddenly confused; he looked at Jake as though she were plain crazy.
Jake started to undo her shirt as she talked "I'm a hundred percent female, I guess I could easily be taken for a boy" she took off the white corset she had worn around her chest and that had hidden her identity so well.
Hamilton stood there with his eyes wide open, dumbfounded at her too obvious femininity; he could hardly credit it. He looked at her chest then back into her eyes while Jake was searching his face for some sign of emotion. The confusion had cleared from his face and had been replaced by an utter shock and a great sorrow.
"Why?" He asked sharply, putting on a gruff voice.
Her voice kept breaking with emotion "This whole charade was just…to get my mother's attention and you've got to believe me I… I've never ever meant to hurt you or cause all this mess, but all I know is that… I like you too Hamilton and…" She confessed sincerely as she reached for Hamilton's arm to touch him and he moved it away.
"No, Please don't! You lied to me. You concealed the truth and made me think that I was gay, I don't know what to believe anymore." He responded, a note of contempt in his voice.
He made a motion as if to step back and recoiled in hurt. Panic-stricken, he stalked out angrily and in disgust. He was quite overcome; what he had seen just knocked him back, so on a sudden onrush of anger, he stomped out of the room and ran away. Jake was let behind alone to deal with his harsh reaction.
'God what have I done! What kind of mess did I get myself in? I've ruined everything and he'll never forgive me. I can't blame him coz I'm the one who caused this entire gap. What was I thinking coming here?' 'God. There's no good being here anymore? Why did he have to be so beautiful?' Her face bathed in tears, she flopped down on her bed and cried herself to sleep.
Why did you have to be
So beautiful, so good to me
When I was only looking for
Someone to hold just for a while?
Why did I have to see your smile
Hamilton had a feeling of mingled disgust and anger. He was upset at Jake for what she had put him through, for confusing him and for turning his life into a confusing and a hectic world; those long sleepless nights. She had been lying to him from the beginning, how could she be that bold enough to pretend being best friends with him.
Why did you have to be
The one who stayed in all my dreams
Why did you have to say
The words that took my breath away?
I didn't want to fall in love
Why did you have to be so right?