Games, changes and fears
When will they go from here
When will they stop
I believe that fate has brought us here
And we should be together, babe,
But we're not
I play it off but I'm dreaming of you
Hamilton was sitting on the edge of the docks staring at the setting sun that gave the lake a pinkish tinge, and trying not to be reminded of Jake. All of a sudden, he heard footsteps along the docks; he turned his head around to glance at Jake coming over to sit next to him then turned it away again.
"Hey" She said, carefully.
He did not reply; he was trying to look more mad and upset than he wanted to. She turned to look at him then added,
"Listen Hamilton, I know you are mad at me but you have to know that I was longing to tell you from the day we met. You were my best friend" She wanted to reassure him of her sincerity. However, Hamilton was looking out at the lake straight ahead, not wanting to turn and stare at her.
Jake was determined; after ruminating over and over her situation she adamantly decided to leave. She actually came down here just to give him the letter she had written to him. She slipped it next to him and got up to walk down the docks.
Hamilton cast down as something arrested his gaze; he saw an envelope that was addressed to him. He picked it up and held it in both hands, studying it. His curiosity got the better of him; he hurriedly tore the envelope open; unfolded the letter to start reading it.
Dear Hamilton,
I think I owe you an explanation. To tell you the truth, I meant to tell you about that secret of mine, I guess I was just waiting for the right moment, to my lasting regret it did never come.
You see, I was in such a quandary over whether to tell you, I was so afraid of your reaction. I cannot find the words to tell you how sorry I am for all the confusion and the pain I have caused! I know this does not alter the fact that you should have known. But I want you to know that you were the only one who set my heart aflame; meeting you was the very best thing that could have happened to me.
The sad thing I knew that it was bound to happen sooner or later, that is why I am leaving; I had resolved that I would have to transfer to another school, though I don't know where for sure yet. So you do not have to worry about you and me anymore.
Take care,
Jacqueline.
Hamilton reread again, what seemed a letter of apology and of a farewell, a thousand ideas raced through his mind; that implied that Jake …Jacqueline was leaving forever. He froze, tears were sliding down his face; her words pierced his heart and greatly affected him, same feeling expressed in several different ways recurred. Wasting no time, he got up, ran down the docks and back to school, all the way through the hallway and to Jake's room. Without even bothering to knock, he turned the doorknob and breezed in.
"Jake…" His voice trailed off, she was not there.
He stepped forward to find the place deserted, there was nobody. He took a quick look through the drawers and found them emptied out. Lots of her things and her laptop were missing. Her scent was gone. His heart felt as if it would burst with grief.
"Oh, God, what have I done?" He had come to the point that he did not have to be angry with her eventually. He might have already lost her, FOREVER. He had to think quickly. Undeterred, pining to be given another chance, he soon sprinted outside and headed for where Jake used to hide her bike.
I keep my cool but I'm feignin
I try to say goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and stumble
Though try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you're not near
Jake was under the delusion that Hamilton would have read her letter and would come to stop her. Take her in his arms and tell her that he had forgiven her, that none of it did matter anymore. However, she could not stall her self for departure; she could not stand by helplessly until his arrival, she had waited quite long enough for him and he unluckily, did not come.
Goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you're not near
She snapped out of her daydreams 'I guess that's just the way it has to be.' As she prepared to get on her bike and put her helmet on, she halted. A voice stopped her,
"Wait Jake…Please!" by the most amazing twist of fate, she was still there.
Her heart leapt. She froze instantaneously, not wanting to turn for fear it would not really be real, that it was just an allusion, that she was hearing that voice just because she wanted to.
"Don't go!" He pleaded
"Why?" in a hollow voice, turning around and releasing the breath she had been holding. On the verge of tears, she looked at him with glassy eyes,
"Because I need you, I can't live without my best friend anymore" He stepped closer to her and took her hands in his, stroking their back.
Jake found that moment so surreal, suddenly she lost control and threw herself in his arms, "Hamilton, you have no idea how sorry I am…for not having told you right from the very beginning…" Her voice was trembling, betraying her, and tears rolled down her cheek.
He wiped them away with a finger, and held her face in his hands,
"Forgive me?" She asked.
He could not hold back a smile then, said softly, "But of course you're forgiven! Besides, there's nothing to forgive." Then he kissed her with all his pent up emotions and burning passion.
Pulling away, he stared into those finest emerald green eyes of hers, and smiled slightly, his kiss left her breathless. He hugged her, reveling in the feeling of her back in his arms again. Then hid her bike back in that hiding spot he once showed her when she first came here. Picking up her bag, he took her hand in his and walked her back to her dorm room.
