Chapter 3: Lies
Pairing: Remus/Lily/James?
POV: Lily
You loved him. You loved him more than life itself, but you knew he didn't love you. You knew that you were just a prize to him. Just a prize that he happened to marry and impregnate. And yet, for some reason that didn't bother you. Because you knew that Remus loved you and you loved James. So somehow life was complete even if it felt wrong.
You don't really know why you loved him. Maybe it was his sparkling hazel eyes or his cocky grin or the way he was so passionate about everything. You don't know why you still love him. Maybe it's because he's such a great father. Or maybe it's because he does love you, just not in the way you want him to. He loves you like you love Remus.
And it hurts. Because life would be so much easier if you just loved Remus. Because then everything would be okay and James could be with the person he really loved. And then you wouldn't wake in the middle of the night to his tears and you wouldn't wake up screaming. But you do and it's not fair.
Maybe one day you'll be able to love Remus and then you can set James free. But right now you're holding on to James and your vision of him. You're holding on to what you want him to be and your believeing in a false love because it's the lies that are keeping you sane right now.
And sometimes it's easier to believe in the lies than it is to accept the truths.
Please Review-Nicole
