Chapter 4: Needs
Pairing: James/Sirius
POV: James
Note: This is the Final Chapter
He's your best friend, your brother, he's all that you have left. At first everyone thought that you were his everything, but they didn't realize that if anything, he's the one that saved you.
You might have saved him from the Darkness, and you might of rescued him form his family, but he's the one that took some of the weight of the world off of your shoulders. He's the one that told you that expectations are for squares and that your parents would love you even if you weren't top Auror. He's the only one that kept you sane through all of it. He's the person who gave you a shoulder to cry on when your sister died. He's the person who understood your grief and shared it to the same degree when your father passed on. And he's the only other one who visits your mother every day in the nursing home.
And you love him for it. You love him and you know it's wrong because not only are you both male but he's your best friend, and your brother in every sense of the word but blood. And he loves you but he can't have you because even after all of these years the prejudices in his brain are still there and he thinks it's wrong and twisted. So after every shag he looks at you with guilt. And after every kiss he turns away in fear. It's as if you're satan or something.
But no matter what, you know that he is your only salvation. He's the only one that keeps you sane and yu need him.
Sometimes what you need and what you love really are two different things.
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I understand that Sirius doesn't have a chapter, but I'm pretty sure this chapter covers how he feels.
-Nicole
