Buffy The Vampire Slayer/Angel Fanfiction

The Way It Should Be

picks up just before Angel season 5 finale

Chapter One

Buffy couldn't believe it. She knew that Andrew had been hiding something. She had been so angry when he finally told her. Spike was alive. Or as alive as a vampire with a soul could be. Andrew had known ever since he had gone to get Dana (an unstable slayer who had been put in a mental institution after here family was brutally murdered and had been abducted and tortured by the killer). How could he keep something like that a secret? After all she had done for him. Ok, so he had been tied to a chair for most of the time, but that wasn't the point. She had allowed him to stay in her house and he had practically become one of the gang. Well, sort of. Giles is training him to be a watcher.

To tell the truth Buffy wasn't all that bothered about the whole L.A. thing. The thing that bothered her was that he didn't tell her when both Angel and Spike where here in Rome. What made it even worse was the fact that Andrew had told them to move on and forget about Buffy. How could he tell them that? She had never planned to stay with the Immortal for long. Buffy had just wanted to have some fun with a guy who already knew she was the slayer. Ok a slayer. Even though she wasn't the only the only slayer anymore, she was by far the best. She was the leader. Now back to the point. Losing Spike had hurt real bad. She missed him so much. Back in Sunnydale she really had started to fall for him, although she had always had a soft spot for him, even when she had still been with Riley, but she had never wanted to admit it. Yes, Buffy really had fallen in love with Spike. There had been moments in that last year they had together when she thought she might have told him, but she had always chickened out at the last second. There was that one time in the basement when she almost did, on the last night they spent together, but every time she looked at him she forgot how to form the words. Then they were down in the hellmouth and Spike was sacrificing himself to save the world. Buffy deeply regretted waiting until that moment to tell him. If only she had made her feelings clear earlier then maybe, just maybe, he would have believed her.

Buffy had been putting on a brave face for her friends but the truth was that it hurt so bad that she wished that she could have been the one who'd died. Third times the charm. All the old feelings she had had when she had been dragged out of heaven had come flooding back to her. What was the point in life if the one person she truly loved wasn't there to live it with her. She knew she couldn't give up on it though. Too many people depend on her. She has lots of responsibilities, more than enough, Dawn, her friends, the new slayers and watchers, saving the day. Buffy had been taking a break for a while but it was time to go back to work. She was calling all the shots, her friends still felt kind of guilty for kicking her out of her own house, so they were letting her take the lead as it is what she is best at. Her feelings for Spike weren't the only thing that she was hiding from the gang. It was the only thing that kept her from breaking down into tears in front of the scoobies.