Chapter 10
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"Hey Gunn, Illyria, um Gunn, do you think that maybe you could talk to Angel, he's gone back to brooding mode, and I'm kinda getting worried."
"Sure Harmony," Gunn said before heading into the boss's office.
"Hey Angel man, what's up?" Gunn asked, sitting in the chair opposite Angel.
"Nothing."
"Angel don't give me that 'nothing' crap, I know you well enough to know when something's up, so spill, what's the deal?"
"I don't know, I guess a part of me always believed that I would end up with Buffy, but now she loves Spike and he loves her, where does that leave me? I mean, if I'm not with Buffy, then what do I do?"
"You've managed fine for five whole years without her Angel, what makes now so different?"
"Before there was always a chance she would come back to me, but now, that hope is gone, with Spike, it's final, I think she's too far gone now to turn back, and I'm left with no one, sometimes I wish I had never left Sunnydale. It's not supposed to be this way."
"Well Angel, I'm glad you left Sunnydale, I would probably still be on the streets if it wasn't for you, or in prison, or even worse still,I might have been dead by now, like many others. Angel you've touched so many lives, think of all the people you've saved and that includes the rest of the guys..."
"Yeah, and look where they are now, they're all dead, because of me. Doyle, Cordy, Fred, Wes. Because of me they're gone and nothing can bring them back."
"Ok, yeah, but if it wasn't for you, none of them would of had the chance to help save this sorry world, just by knowing you they got their expiration dates were postponed. We are all better people having been your friend, and you know it. They never would have gotten as far as they did if it hadn't been for you. You need to stop beating yourself up about it Angel. It wasn't your fault, it was never your fault, we signed on to save the world, we knew there were consequences, and it was a risk we were all willing to take, we all believed that it was something worth fighting for. You may be the boss, but in the end, we all make our own decisions."
"I know, but I can't help but feel responsible, but thanks Gunn, that means a lot."
"No problem, I suggest that you come to terms with what I said though, cos you're gonna stay miserable if you don't."
"I will, but it will take time."
"Then let it take time, we just want you to be happy Angel, you deserve it man."
"Thanks."
After breakfast, Buffy went to check on Dawn before she and Spike went out on their first official date. Dawn had pretended to be asleep when her sister came in the room, Buffy had gone over to her bed gave her a kiss on the forehead before leaving. Dawn ran over to her window to make sure they were gone before going downstairs. She picked up the phone and was halfway through dialling Connor's number when she changed her mind, slamming down the phone. She didn't know what to say to Connor or anyone for that matter, 'Hi Connor last night was great, oh and I'm pregnant with your baby by the way.' She had to tell someone though, she would explode if she had to keep something like that to herself, but who would she tell. Well she couldn't tell Xander because well that was out of the picture because he would freak big time, Willow and Tara would want me to tell Buffy. Anya, well she's just a big blabbermouth. She decided to watch tv to take her mind off the whole thing, she would have to figure everything out later.
Buffy and Spike had gone to the movies, and were now sitting in an ice-cream parlour, sharing a sundae.
"I can't believe we got away with it," Buffy said, feeding Spike more ice-cream.
"Well there weren't many people there and the movie was pretty loud."
"Yeah but what if one of the ushers had caught us?"
"Well they might've learned something," Spike said, watching Buffy blush, he loved it when she did that.
"Spike."
He leaned over the table and kissed her. He was amused that Buffy still got embarrassed about doing it in public, considering all the places that they actually had done it back in Sunnydale. Nevertheless he loved to watch her cheeks go pale pink, tilting her head down and that smile, she looked so adorable.
"I think we should go back home now, just to check and see that Dawn is ok," Buffy said looking back into those amazingly blue eyes.
"Ok then, let's go."
"Are you sure?"
"Of course I am pet."
When they got back Spike suggested that he go check on Dawn, Buffy had wanted to check on her but decided that it would be a good idea.
"Dawn, love, it's me, are you awake, just wanted to make sure you were ok."
"Hey Spike," Dawn said rolling over to face Spike, her tears glinting as the light caught them.
"What's wrong pet, you want me to get Buffy?"
"No, Spike don't get her."
"Why not?"
"There's something I need to tell you but you have to promise not to tell Buffy, please."
"Ok, I promise," he said sitting down beside her on the bed and giving her a reassuring smile.
"Well, last night Connor and I well, you know and well today I..."
"What is it?"
"Well, I'm pregnant."
"What?"
"I'm pregnant, I know it's sudden, and I didn't believe it at first, but I took a test, and now I don't know what to do, and you were the only person I could tell, cos I trust you."
"Well Dawn, I don't know what to say, I'm feeling a mixture of shock and flattery. I won't tell Buffy if you don't want me to, but I think you should tell her."
"Thank you, thank you, thank you, I will tell her, eventually, but not right now, I haven't even told Connor yet."
"Do you want me to go with you to tell him, for moral support?"
"Yes, would you, thank you Spike, your the greatest," Dawn said, hugging him.
"No problem niblet."
As she looked out over the city, she wondered what she was going to do, should she call Angel, or would it be better to just show up, well he would probably think it was a practical joke if she called him, so she decided that she would go see him in the morning, besides she was really tired from her transdimensional journey from heaven. She needed to come up with something to say anyway, she started wracking her brain as she descended the hilltop. It probably wouldn't take her long to come up with something though, because if there was one thing Cordelia Chase was great at it was talking.
