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Hunted Chapter 9
Looking around, It was completely dark. I couldn't see anything, and the only sound was of a liquid, pittering on the floor at regular intervals. I put my hand out, and felt a cold wall, beginning to search for a light. My fingers hit a switch, and I flicked it up. Lights illuminated the area, but acted only as a spotlight. I blinked and shook my head.
"Wake up. Your sleep...ing.."
Opening my eyes again, I found Larx in front of me. My immediate reaction was to swing, but I was startled as he wrapped his hands around my throat. Looking at him, I realized he was crying.
"Larx..what..."
"Kai...I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I care for you...more than in a friend way...but...I'm sorry."
"What are y-" I stopped, as he leaned forward, kissing me on the cheek. I froze completely, my mind incapable of dealing with this. What the hell was this?
He turned his head to the side, clenching his eyes shut, then to my horror tightened his grip. I sputtered as his hands wrapped tighter, his fingers biting into my flesh. I couldn't breathe...my body felt numb...what was he doing!
"L...arx...let...letgo." I tried to raise my hands to pry his away, but for some reason I couldn't get his fingers loose. He was crying still, and he refused to let go. Everything was spinning out of focus...the faces of everyone Id killed looming over me. I shut my eyes tightly, whimpering.
"I'm...sorry...so, so sorry..."
A young voice echoed in my head. "Why, Kai? Why?"
"I...don't...I...don't know...Im so sorry..."
I woke up with a start, actually quite disappointed that I wasn't dead. There was a tugging on my arm, and I opened my eyes weakly to see her tending to my wounds.
"Go. Away."
"Kai, your blee-"
"I know. I was hoping I would bleed to death." I shut my eyes again, and felt Cypher lie by my face. Everything else was numb.
"Whats wrong?"
"You wouldn't understand how it feels." I bit my tongue. The empire had one thing right with emotion blocks. This kind of pain could not be fixed, and hurt more than anything I went through in the past.
"Kai-"
"Go. Away..." I hissed, rolling away from her. "I don't want anyone around."
"But-"
"Cypher, go patrol the city." I opened my eyes, dark and full of pain that wouldn't go away. "Thats an order." Cyphers eyes went crimson.
"Yes master." She walked away, and as soon as she was gone I tore the bandages off my arm. The cuts immediately began bleeding again, and the pain was strangely calming. The lime trickles were small in comparison to the rivers of blood I had shed. All those Id killed, did they really deserve it? Maybe I needed to be punished for my actions... after all, I was a killer. I needed help. And I needed something stable in the turmoil I lived in. I was sick of being chased, and as long as I lived I would be. I sat up slowly.
"Computer...bring me..." My voice was strangely calm. "Bring me a syringe of the Harelquinn flower toxin."
"Why?"
"Don't. Just bring it."
"Kai, don't do what I think..."
"Why not? Its not like it matters. Now, listen." As a mechanical arm handed the metal tube to me, I smiled as my eyes fell on the liquid. All it would take was one prick. One. My fingers tightened on it, and my hands began to shake. Just one simple move. The needle fell out of my hand, landing harmlessly on the floor. As I put my head into my hands, I heard a crash upstairs, and Cypher hiss the name "Larx." I didn't move, the needle swirling in the tearier vision I now had. I reached forward, picking it up, then put the tip by my arm. I wouldn't go back. Never. As I took one last breath, I heard a crash again, now closer. I managed to smile weakly. In a few seconds it would be over. No pain. Everything would just...fade. Just as I wet to slide the metal into my skin, Larx stormed into the room. He ran over, grabbing the metal syringe away from me and throwing it across the room. My fingers curled into my palms, and I shut my eyes as Larx knelt in front of me. I had been so close, but I couldn't. I couldn't end my life, as much as I wanted to.
"Kai..."
"I'm pathetic. I cant even end my pathetic existence right." I struggled to keep myself from falling over. Everything hurt. Larx put his hand on the side of my face, and I fell forward, curling my fingers into his shoulders. He never tensed, only wrapped his arms around me as I sobbed weakly.
"Its okay..." I looked up at him, broken as I had been upon entering Ceberos. I had missed him terribly, even through what he had done. Id never wanted him dead. I just wanted to know why. I had...loved him. And he had torn everything I thought was my life away.
"Why d-did...you-"
"Relax. Not now. Later." I took a gasping breath, burying my head into the shoulder of his uniform. I could feel my tears soak the fabric, and most of me knew that this was not proper. I should be fighting him. But all I could do was curl my claws tighter into his shoulders. He flinched slightly, but kept holding onto me. I wished he'd let me go, let me fall. I used to know the line between hate and love, but the longer he held me there the more blurred it got. Things were more complicated then I had thought.
"It wont stop hurting...I cant fix it, and it wont go away..." My chest was starting to seize, and I couldn't breathe. As my body began to choke for air, I kept muttering.
"Shh..." Larx stroked my head, trying to calm my breathing, but I just cried harder. Eventually, I calmed down, weak and content with where I was. Larx was leaning on the wall, and I uncurled my fingers. I let myself be turned facing away from him, and didn't fight when I was leaned back onto him. The feeling of his chest rising was very calming, and as I lay still my eyes began to close. The room had changed to its starscape form, and as I watched the sky glitter I fought to stay awake. Larx laughed softly.
"Relax. You need to rest and calm down. I wont hurt you. Its okay." As I listened to his words, I couldn't help but listen. It was what I wanted to hear more than anything in the world. This was peaceful, and the pain inside my body had faded. This was the way things were supposed to be, right. I closed my eyes, letting myself sleep, for once not the least bit worried about what he would do. In the morning, Id figure this out. There would be time to scream, to sort things out, to fight. But now, nothing was going to interrupt what seemed like a perfect dream, where everything in my life seemed fine, and I had what I wanted back. I was terrified that this was only a dream, and that it would fade. As I slipped into unconsciousness, I prayed silently that if it was a dream, I would never wake up.
