A/N- Yea, Yea My story might be just a touch angsty, and she might just the teensiest bit like a heartless bitch, but you must be patient, all will be explained in time.

Okay, so this chapter is significantly longer, and very relationshipy. When I wrote my first chapter, it was never meant to be posted, but I did anyways, the rest should be more like this one.


Chapter2- The Reason

James sat there for what seemed like forever, just watching as Lilly Evans; the girl of his dreams got on his broom. He's been doing this for some time now, every night coming and sitting there, just to get a glimpse of that red hair again. James hated that this was the only way he could see her. He hated that he was 16 and yet, he was so attached to one girl, one amazing, sweet, and drop dead gorgeous girl. Every night James would hate himself for what he did, for what he's done in the past.

>Flashback

Lilly sat quietly by the lake, reading her favorite book. It was a beautiful day outside, and Lilly was taking full advantage of it. After all she had just finished an O.W.L. and even Lilly Evans could take a break, if the occasion arose. All was going perfectly, until she heard the one thing she didn't want to hear more than anything, James Potter's retched voice. He and she assumed it was Sirius Black, were at it again. Probably that slytherin Snape again, why can't they just stop! Do they actually think what they do is cool, I wonder. Lilly thought, just desperately trying to ignore them, until she heard Sanpe scream, and heard fits of laughter. She put down her book and went to see what Potter was up to now. As, she saw what was going on, she immediately started yelling. (and the rest is history)

Skipping ahead until the same time the next year.

Lilly outraged stormed into the boys dormitory; searching for Potter. She was here to yell at him. He needed to hear what she had to say. How dare he do that to anyone, why me tho? I Hate that heartless ugly stuck-up annoyingass! I wish he would leave me alone. Why does he need to play this awful prank on me? I know he hates me!She thought, not expecting what was to come next.

"Potter you better get your annoying ass out here, right now!"

"Hold on Lilly, I know you want to see my ass, but have some patience woman." He said coolly, as he walked out of the shower clad only in a towel hanging loosely around his waist. His hair still dripping, and his ripped, muscular body glistening, from water still lingering. Lilly was standing there, hands on her hips trying desperately to be mad at him. Damn, he really does look nice doesn't he? hmm…no wait, anger, I forgot, but its just so hard to be mad at him when he looks so good. Thought Lilly trying to remember what she was saying.

"Oh sweet dear Lilly, it seems your at a loss for words. Let me help you with that." He said slowly and seductively. As he realized the effect he was having on her. This is my chance, I can finally kiss her, and those lips look so sweet. Thought James, while slowly walking towards her. Not wanting to go to fast, as to scare her. Lilly wasn't moving, she was too in shock. Am I really going to do this, am I finally letting Potter win, am I going to let my guard down. This can't be real, he doesn't actually like me, and it has all just been a prank, all these years. I'm sure of it, it has to be, is this real? Lilly thought to herself as she watched him slowly get closer until they were so close that she could feel his warm breath against her skin, her lips. Before she knew it, she was kissing James Potter, of all people her first kiss, was James Potter! She never thought it could be so… great, amazing, wonderful, and releasing. She slowly put her arms around James' neck, and her fingers slowly began to reach and tangle themselves is his hair. James on the other hand, too shocked that this was real, had his hands rested in the small of her back. Before either of them realized they were lying, Lilly on top of James, on James' bed.
They were kissing more passionately every second, like they couldn't get enough of each other. Soon enough, Lilly had no top or skirt on, and James' towel was barely staying on. Next Morning

Lilly woke up in a strange room, with someone's arms wrapped tightly around her. She screamed like she had never screamed before. She didn't know where she was, or who she was with. She didn't quite remember how she got here.

"Mornin babe, no need to scream, it's just me." James said, as he kissed her cheek, softly.

"Potter," she spat. "Why am I in your bed, what did I do, no! What have you done to me?"

"What the hell are you talking about, you know why you're here, and you came to see me last night. If you don't want to be around me that much, then just leave. GET OUT! I don't need you tricking me anymore. You've already ruined my life enough. I loved you and you hated me. This is the end." Said James, already furious. He couldn't believe that she would do that, it was her that came to him. She accepted when he kissed her, she didn't stop it. Why didn't I talk to her, ask her if she were sure. No. This wasn't my fault, I didn't do anything. Thought James, as he turned over and started mumbling.

"James, I didn't realize im sorry. I was just in such shock from waking up somewhere else, with your arms around me. Please don't hate me, I wanted to be here. James, please just look at me." Lilly sighed, and slowly got out, hoping that James would say something, but nothing came. She slowly left and decided that she would never show any kindness to James Potter, ever again. I will never be kind to anyone, i thought he understood. He's the only one who knows about my home life. Damn him, and fuck everyone else! They dont deserve for me to be nice, sweet, anything anymore.

>End Flashbacks

James hated thinking about how he treated her. All he wanted was for her to stay, but he had convinced his stupid self, that she didn't want him. That she just used him for her sick and twisted game. James had been angry, and stupid. He really did love Lilly, why did he give up his one chance with her. At that thought, James threw back on his invisibility cloak, and jumped on his broom. The night air felt so good against his face. Tears began to stream down his cheek; he ignored them and just took in the sight of seeing all of London from so high.


A/N-Okay, So how did you like that, i know that its ALL flashbacks, but i need to write about the reason lilly seem to be a cold, heartless bitch. I hope that i explained it. I'll haev the next chapterhappening in the time of the storyup in about a day, maybe two. And jsut to inform you, they're in they're summer after 6th year.

Review Replys:

Cora-leanna-Thanks for my veryfirst review. Yea i know what you mean. I tried to make her a bitch, but then i forgot why. I hope that this explain some of it to you. This is my first fan fic, so please be patient! Enjoy, and reiview again!

Sazinous- Glad you liked the chapter! Hope you enjoy this one as well.