" Not Afraid of Dying"
Disclaimer: I do not own the characters featured her, but I wish I did. But, I do own the one's you have never heard of those are all mine.
I am sorry that I have to re-post this story! I looked over it again as I was wondering why many reviews contained how crappy they thought the ending was. THIS IS NOT THE END!
.Hey there! . So I tried to make this as best I could for you, so enjoy. This chapter is also mature like the one before it. It's sad but it has a decent ending I think. Read now. .
For Sesshomaru, the night had lasted forever and the presence of the rising sun was something to behold with wonder. He hated being away from her and knew that she was in danger. Inuyasha was still asleep and Sesshomaru wanted to move quickly. If it were that lowly human girl of his, he would want to get there fast as well. But, Sesshomaru never slept in as long as his half-brother could.
Of course if it had been a night of pleasure with Rin he would sleep until mid morning, but never the afternoon.
" Half-breed."
The Lord had mumbled the last statement as he walked over and pushed Inuyasha with his foot; hard. Inuyasha awoke and looked straight at Sesshomaru and frowned.
" What do you want?"
The dog was an utter fool. He couldn't remember what had happened just yesterday. He dared to ask such a stupid question.
" We are to find Rin, Inuyasha. Now get up."
" Yeah, yeah."
" You chose to come with me and yet you sleep in like we are running around your life. This is not your home and I am certainly not your mother, now move it!"
" Yeah, I wouldn't want you to be. I don't know how on Earth Rin could put up with you, let alone love you."
Sesshomaru walked off and into a field of flowers. Rin loved them. He always remembered this, because she always smelled like them. Even when she had been stabbed to save his life; through all of the blood he could still smell her scent of flowers. She would just walk past him in the palace and the smell would touch his nose.
No matter where she was, the smell followed her. Now, for some reason the smell he had used to follow her had fainted. All he had was the remembrance of where the palace of the East was located. He hated the fact that he wasn't able to get to her yet, but soon he would be there. If that stupid Inuyasha would hurry up.
Sesshomaru turned around to see Inuyasha looking at him strangely.
" What are you starring at?"
Inuyasha said nothing to Sesshomaru for a moment. Trying to find words that would not anger him.
" You miss her don't you?"
The Lord turned around and glared at him but gave no answer.
" It's just a question. Kagome told me about that look that I get when I miss something. She told me that I used to get it when I would remember Kikyo."
Sesshomaru still did not reply. But he did give some sort of sign to answer Inuyasha's question with a 'yes'.
" I simply want back what is mine."
Sesshomaru quickly transformed and started to run again.
" Yep, he loves her all right."
Inuyasha smiled and then took off at fast pace.
Rin was once again looking at the sullen walls when she woke up that morning. Nothing was the same after last night. Sesshomaru would not come for her, for she was unimportant. Rin had tried to keep the thought of returning to his safe palace and her son, but nothing seemed to stay. The walls were her captors and she was a caged bird, willing and ready to fly, but passers by would see her and turn away. She would sing a sad siren's song, but no one would help her; no one would open the door.
Thinking back on it, she remembered how she used to follow him around without folly and believe that everything he was doing was good. Now she saw that he killed instead of compromised. The Lord of the West was only known as having a pitiful human as a wife and for him showing no mercy. Two things that were never in his benefit through out life.
Rin knew that when she first chose to love him that she was setting herself up for failure, but at that time she hadn't cared. Thinking that he would always be there to take care of her and to love her. 'Love', a four letter word that had once held itself high in her heart, now held nothing. Love; a word that used to be thought of with what they both felt. Rin finally realized that from the beginning their love had been one sided, but not on his part, but her own.
" I have no one to blame, but myself."
The Lord did not bother Rin for three more days. He was to send for her again to try and get a confession, but it wouldn't come.
Rin awaited the end of the day when she would be raped again. She knew it was coming and she was scared. She wanted to see her son again. She knew that if she produced the heir to the Lord of the South's throne, then he would have no use for her and kill her as soon as she had given birth. She didn't want to think about it, but it came to her.
Three days had taken it's toll on Sesshomaru. He reverted back to his human form and was now walking with Inuyasha across a bright meadow of green grass. The wind rolled along the hills.
" A storm is coming."
Inuyasha heard him speak for the first time in two days, since this morning when he again told Inuyasha to get up. He was determined to find her and Inuyasha knew he would. He didn't know how ruthless this Lord of the South was, but it was enough to make his brother tire himself out to a walk. He hadn't seen him work this hard in ever seeing him. Inuyasha sniffed the air as well.
" Yeah, we should look for shelter."
" No."
" Why not?"
" Were almost there. Keep moving."
" What if we get caught in this coming storm?"
" Then, we'll walk."
Inuyasha just kept walking.
Sesshomaru had never been so confused in his life. The palace that the servant had told them about was not far away and Rin's scent was no where to be found. It was odd that he was so close, but yet nothing of her came to his senses. If that little creep was lying there was nothing to do to him, he was probably eaten by lowly scavengers by now. He continued walking.
The Lord of the South was frustrated. He had to get it out of Rin, before the Lord of the West attempted anything. He had to know whether or not Sesshomaru had the sword. If he did, she wouldn't tell him. Maybe he would rape her and get the information he wanted and an heir.
An hour or two went by when Sesshomaru caught the scent of the Lord of the South. He didn't transform into a dog. Sesshomaru wanted to make sure that Rin was safe before he attempted to rid himself of a pest.
" Is that his palace."
Sesshomaru caught the palace far off in the distance and looked back at Inuyasha.
" It was the Lord of the East's' but now it is his, but he will not own it for long."
Sesshomaru sprinted to the palace and stopped before he got into range of a demon's scences. He stopped and so did Inuyasha.
" Why are we stopped, let's just go and get her and get the hell out of here!"
" Quiet Inuyasha. I do not know if she is safe, so I'm not going to barge in and kill the disgusting pig. I do not want her harmed either. I cannot smell her scent. It's just not here."
" What does it smell like?"
Sesshomaru closed his eyes to describe it perfectly.
" She used to play in the flowers when she was younger. She would pick them for me, but I would reject them. She smells like flowers. "
" Yeah, well that helps."
Inuyasha smelt into the air, but no sign of flowers.
" I got nothin'."
Sesshomaru wanted to know where she was, maybe she was somewhere else? There was no scent of death, so she was okay, right?"
The Lord of the West walked into the range of scent for the demons outside of the gates to the palace and they quickly ran back to their own Lord.
The Lord of the South was standing and looking out of his bedroom window when he heard a loud knock.
" Enter."
A small human soldier came into the room looking frantic.
" My Lord..."
" He's here."
" Y-yes."
" Get him away from my lands."
The small soldier bowed and ran out of the room.
" Well, well she was right."
Sesshomaru came to the palace gates and met opposition. They quickly made haste of getting rid of these worthless demons. They were quickly mounting up into hordes of demons that were to protect the thing he wanted to get to. They fought for what seemed like forever.
" Inuyasha!"
Seshsomaru had yelled that command after slicing through the first fifty of his own enimies.
" Yeah, Yeah."
Sesshomaru watched as Inuyasha used the wind scar to get rid of the rest of the demons and they made their way to the palace doors.
The Lord of the South was now willing to compromise now that Sesshomaru had gotten to his front gates. He had guards to protect the soon to be transaction. He sat in the throne at the top of the three stairs that led to the first level of rooms. Sesshomaru and his half-brother came into the room with a loud bang of the doors against the walls that they were hinged on.
The villagers had given them no fuss when they intruded on their Lord's land. They were glad that the foreign demon looked as if he was after the Lord of the South. He had taken their money and taxed everything he could and they were slowly dying. They watched in wonder as the two demons went through the front doors of the palace and then closed behind them.
They fought off the two guards at the doors and saw two more coming at them.
" Stop!"
The command came from the Lord of the South for the two soldiers to end their attack.
" I wish to speak to these two."
The two soldiers bowed and stepped a ways back, but far enough to protect their Lord in time of an attack.
" So, I see that the once powerful Sesshomaru has brought his small half-brother to help him."
Sesshomaru didn't say anything and his eyes were getting red and dangerous the longer the Lord of the South looked into them to try and hold a stare, but he was the first to break it. He noticed that Sesshomaru kept his eyes on him as he moved and paced back and forth.
" What am I to do with two intruders such as yourselves?"
When the Lord Mikano looked at the hand of Sesshomaru he saw him put his hand on the hilt of Tokigen. But then he noticed that there was another sword behined it.
" That must be Tensseiga."
" What do you want?"
" I want what you have."
Sesshomaru glared at the Lord and he just laughed, but Sesshomaru could tell that the laugh was covering up the fright that lay beneath. Inuyasha went to speak but Sesshomaru wanted to speak for himself without interruption.
" What do I have that you want?"
" Well, I was going to have your child killed but unfortunately he was brought back into your palace before that whelp and Rin were to be taken."
" What do you want from me?"
The Lord of the South looked as though he were pondering, but he knew what he wanted.
" I want the sword you hold."
" Tokigen?"
" No, the other one. Tenseiga."
They both looked confused as to why the Lord of the South wanted a sword that only saved people.
" Why do you want this sword?"
" Think about it Sesshomaru."
Sesshomaru hadn't taken long to notice that all of the other Lord's hated him once he had taken Rin.
" You wish to awaken the people that oppose me with it. And the only way you can take my lands and my life is to steal what is mine. And you want them to rise against me."
" Very good. I knew you would get it."
Sesshomaru still had his red eyes, but his expression gave no sign change.
" I will never give it to you. Do you take me for a fool. I can kill you right now."
" I don't think so."
One of the soldiers was motioned by the Lord of the South and then the scent of tears befell Sesshomaru's nose. Then, a scream was heard and Rin appeared kicking and screaming.
She thought he was going to rape her again and had sent for her. She tried to kick the guard but he punched her in the mouth and her cut from the days past opened again and blood came from a cut on her lip. She was nude and brought into the main hall.
Sesshomaru watched as she was screaming and trying to get away when she was thrown in the grasp of the Lord of the South.
" Ah, Rin. Why do you resist me? Look who's here to see you. Sesshomaru."
She didn't look. The only thing she did was hold her head in shame.
" You lie."
She felt her wrist being crushed under his grasp.
" He doesn't want me. He's not here. You want me off guard again."
" Awww, you've mad him sad. For a minute I thought you would love to see him again."
She wanted to just give away everything and die on the spot, but she still held her head.
No scent of flowers trailed in her wake. The only thing that occurred to his nose was blood, weakness, and a soiled woman.
" Come now Rin, look."
She heard her wrist crack and it seemed like it echoed through the hall and it's high ceilings.
" Ahh."
She said that as soon as her wrist was broken, but she didn't scream and she wouldn't. She heard a growl and looked up to see Sesshomaru standing there in front of her.
" S-Sess-Sesshomaru."
She hadn't spoken her words to him in a long time, but her voice was filled with shame and fear. She was nude and bruises as well as blood marred her body. Her shoulder was purple where he had bit her last and her hips were purple as well and followed her hip bone. Something had been done to make her submissive she always asked questions and now she shivered in pain.
" How sweet she notices you now. A lover's reunion wouldn't you say?"
There was no excitement and trust in her eyes, they were over cast and hollow as if her soul were missing. Tears started to run down her cheeks as she mouthed his name.
Inuyasha watched as she cried. She looked...broken. She had no life in her eyes and bruises everywhere and the scent of fear and self loathing filled the air. He knew that if he could smell them, then Sesshomaru was well overwhelmed in his scences. Inuyasha also caught the smell of tarnished flesh. Rape washed over her.
The once lively child he had seen a few times was broken as if she was a toy and at the mercy of someone who hated her and someone who hated ot compromise. He knew Sesshomaru had feelings for her, but would he trade his sword?
" I want a trade."
" Trade?"
" Why yes. I want your sword for this stupid whore."
A deep growl came from Sesshomaru and Rin hit the floor in exhaustion but was held by her broken wrist. Her legs had given way from her and she was on her hand and knees with the other arm held into the air.
The necklace she wore was never taken off and it was swinging back and forth on it's chain. She never liked to misplace it.
She was jerked back up and the Lord of the South's sword was placed to her neck.
" You won't have my sword. What makes you think I wanted her beyond having an heir?"
" I tried to tell her that myself, but she protested just like everything else I did. I at first, wanted your son as well, but he was taken into the palace where my men would not wonder."
Rin had heard this and knew that by the looks of it, that Inuyasha did not have Kagome with him, she must be taking care if their son which made her feel relieved. Sesshomaru gave a confused look and the Lord went on.
" When I first brought her here I had to beat her, but yet she wouldn't give up as to whether or not you had the sword I wanted. Then, I asked her again. She still did not tell. So, I tried different means."
Rin held his gaze for a while and looked straight at Sesshomaru and tears ran down her cheeks again. But her eyes closed in shame of the next statement.
" It's true you can smell me on her can't you, but can you smell that I was in her as well?"
He hadn't notice, but then the smell hit him. The Lord of the South had raped her and he was to late. She closed her eyes when the Lord ran his tongue on the side of her face.
" She tasted good. She was such a good little girl as well. She had fun with me."
Rin still didn't open her eyes and she looked down at the floor to avert her eyes from seeing Sesshomaru's disappointment.
" She held her legs as tight as she could, didn't you Rin? Even after that she didn't talk. Not a word left her lips. She just wouldn't scream for me."
She finally opened her eyes and saw that they were back to their lovely golden color. She smiled at him halfheartedly. When he saw her smile it almost made him happy, but it wasn't a loving smile.
" Now about that trade..."
Sesshomaru took a step forward and the Lord of the South told him to stop, but he didn't.
" I wouldn't do that."
Sesshomaru thought that his threat was empty, but the blade cut across her skin and a thin blood line came upon her color bone and then the blade crossed the silver chain and it snapped.
Rin felt it brake and the burn of her skin and the bloodstone cracked down the three stairs and rolled across the floor. She looked into Sesshomaru's eyes and then ran for it, but she was jerked back by her bad wrist. Her lord had tried to get to her, but she wasn't fast enough. Before she was taken back under the blade she grabbed the jewel and clasped it in her hand as hard as she could.
Sesshomaru noticed she grabbed the marble and held it tight. He knew that from the moment he gave it to her that she loved it. It had been explained to her what it was and she never liked to part from it. Her knuckles were turning white from holding so tight.
" I wouldn't do that again."
He placed the sword to her throat and blood came to the blade.
Inuyasha had never seen someone so helpless like Rin. Kagome had been in bad situations, but nothing like this and he couldn't imagine how his brother felt.
" The trade Sesshomaru. You give me the sword and you get her back. If you don't she dies."
" Which one?"
He looked into Rin's eyes and she starred into him. 'No' was the answer she gave him with her look. Then she spoke.
" I'm not afraid of dying."
The Lord of the South began to laugh and then he himself spoke and moked her.
" Did you hear that? She's not afraid of dying, so what will it be?"
Sesshomaru closed his eyes and then quickly opened them. His mind was made up. He unsheathed Tensseiga and threw it into the air. It seemed as if it played out in slow motion. The sword was tossed from his hand and into the air and then the Lord Mikano ran the sword across Rin's neck as blood cascaded through the air.
She felt the steel slide across her neck and she closed her eyes. The burning stopped as she hit the floor and her arm slammed down on the top step and the blood marble once again jumped down the three stairs and then rolled it's way along the floor.
Sesshomaru watched as she hit the ground and them he quickly unsheathed Tokigen and ran at the Lord of the South who was walking to pick up Tensseiga. The steel ran through Mikano with unleashed rage and anger. Inuyasha had killed the two gaurds already and picked up the marble. When he looked up he saw Sesshomaru's sword stabb through Lord of the South.
Then, Sesshomaru looked over at Rin who eyes were fluttering up and down. He knew it all to well from last time and the huge gash on her neck poured blood that ran down the steps and she made awful gurgling noises.
Inuyasha watched as his brother pulled his sword out and spun around and cut off the Lord's head and it went flying sideways. He was dead and Rin was dying. He saw her with helpless eyes. She was dying and fast.
Rin could not feel much except for his warm body trying to heat her own fleeting cold one. She saw that as he looked down at her, his breathing deepened.
Sesshomaru dropped his sword and ran next to Rin. Inuyasha walked up and looked down at her.
" You have to.."
" I know."
Sesshomaru looked down at her and watched her try to breathe. She made the most awful noises he had ever heard come from a creature. She was looking at him and tears ran down her cheeks again. He had Inuyasha get Tokigen and he clasped it in his hands. She was to die a quick death by his hand or by drowning in her own blood and suffering.
Inuyasha witnessed just what Sesshomaru had to do to his own love. He admired Rin for her bravery and for her love in a man that would never openly admit it to anyone.
Sesshomaru bent down and whispered into her ear.
" I'm sorry Rin."
Rin tired to reply, but she couldn't speak a word. She wanted to tell him that it was okay, but her words wouldn't come. She even tried to smile, but she couldn't do that either.
Then, the blade was put into her heart and she stopped breathing as soon as it went in. Inuyasha was the only other person who had ever heard his brother apologize, besides Rin. He couldn't believe it. Even his brother deserved love.
" Get Tensseiga."
" What?"
" Tensseiga, get it now!"
" Will it even work?"
" I have to try, now get it!"
Inuyasha ran for it and placed it into his brother's hand. Sesshomaru stood up and placed his sword in front of him. And then he saw the demons after Rin's soul and cut through them. To Inuyasha it looked as though Sesshomaru had struck air, but then her chest raised. Inuyasha looked astonished. Although she was not conscious, she was alive.
Sesshomaru sheathed both of his swords and picked Rin up into his arms, but he covered her with his haiori and soon blood soiled it, but at least she was covered. He walked over to Inuyasha and he held up a marble.
" This has your blood in it right?"
" Yes, that's why it's red. I had it made last year. She doesn't like to be without it."
" Why did you give it to her?"
" I told her that it had a piece of me in it and that as long as she wore it, I would be with her."
" Oh."
Sesshomaru placed Rin into Inuyasha's arms and took the marble out of his hand and placed it into the pocket of his yakama. Inuyasha just held her and smiled. She was alive and safe Kagome would be relieved. Her cuts and bruises were still there and she looked healthy enough, but her mind was probably ravaged with thoughts of how wrong she had been.
Inuyasha blushed when Rin snuggled closer to get warmth from his body, but he noticed that when Sesshomaru had held her seconds ago she had snuggled closer to him as well. He looked down at her incredulously. Rin was beautiful, but nothing compared to Kagome, but there was no doubt that she was something to look at.
Inuyasha saw Sesshomaru take a pike from the floor and walk over and grab the Lord of the South's head and walk over to the doors. He opened them up and stayed them with the two slain bodies that Inuyasha killed. He let Inuyasha walk out first and a group of people watched as they came through the doors.
Sesshomaru slammed the pike down into the ground in front of the palace and pushed the head of the Lord onto the wooden end.
The crowed looked in awe as the Lord took back the young girl and they separated as he began to walk passed them. He heard one of them say something like 'what are we to do now?' and so he stopped to address the question.
" You are free to go. Although if you choose to stay here, the one's who were angry with the Lord of the South will come to claim their lands that were taken, when the word of his death reaches their ears. I suggest you leave. "
One of the peasants spoke up.
" Will you not rule these lands?"
" No, I have no use for expanding my territory and I have no interest in taking a place that took away one of my own. Now leave if you must."
The crowd dispersed with hushes of both praise to Sesshomaru and disgust, but now wasn't the time to pick a fight. It would take a while to et home; a week's worth of walking ahead and Rin was still not conscious and he was beginning to worry.
. So... did you like it? Hugh? I have to take a break. (huffs) The end of the school year is coming and I need to have my personal weeks off believe me they are well deserved. R&R! .
