How Well Do You Really Know Lilly Evans?

Discalimer: You know who the characters belong too...if not you don't deserve to read these stories!

Thank You To my Beta...hehe...Flocky a.k.a The Real Life Jenny


James smiled to himself, and just stood there for a moment and watch her sleep. He couldn't believe that she knew it was him. James walked quietly out of the room with a smile on his face. He thought that that was the happiest moment of his life. His Lilly was safe, and he would make sure she always was. Maybe now she would go to him, realize that they were meant to be together. She didn't need to be this way to get his attention. The things she had been doing to get back at him, they were not needed.

"Oh Prongsie! Where ever could you be?" Sirius said in a singsong voice; as he came bounding down the hallway.

"Shut up Padfoot. Just not this morning alright?" James said trying to hide his smile. He knew he couldn't tell Sirius yet, because he would freak. But Sirius being Sirius saw the smile on James' face. He knew something was going on. For some reason Sirius thought that this was time for a little game of 20 questions, maybe it would snap his friend out of that annoying happy stage.

"So, prongsie, where were you last night? hmm…"

"Out"

"Where was out?"

"No where special"

Who were you with in this 'no where special' place you speak of?"

"What is this 20 questions? Just stop asking me you know I won't tell you."

"Why yes, this is indeed 20 questions, however did you guess?"

"Just lucky I suppose" James said as he rolled his eyes.

"So, back to the game" James let out a low sigh, but kept walking "What's up with the perma-smile? huh?"

"Nothing, I just had a very good morning, well that is until you came flying into it."

"Awww, is Jamsie a little ticked off, well that's too bad, I won't go away until you tell me what's going on."

"No Sirius, SHUT-UP! Alright? Ask me later, but now its food time, so piss off!"

"Alright, alright, what's wrong with you, I was just having some fun…Wait! Did you say food? im excited for food. I love food!" Sirius said very animatedly before both he and James entered the kitchen. As they walked in they saw Jenny Potter in the kitchen just finishing up making breakfast. The boys were ecstatic, she had made waffles, and they loved waffles.

"Now boys, don't eat them all, we have to save some for…" She was abruptly cut off by James.

"Dad, we know how much dad loves these. Mom makes the best waffles, how could we not save some of them for dad. That would just be mean." James said very quickly. Jenny gave him a strange look, but shook her head and continued cooking. Sirius wasn't that easy to fool, he knew something was up and when Sirius got an idea into his head it would never leave until he got what he was looking for. Either that or when he ended up getting smacked or yelled at.

"Oh Mrs. Potter..." Sirius said in his sweetest singsong voice.

"Yes dear, what is it now?"

"Who's staying in the house?"

"Pardon? No one's staying here, unless your talking about yourself, but I highly doubt that."

James seeing where this was going got up, and walked over to his mum. He bent down, seeing as he was quite a few inches taller her, and whispered something into her ear. Mrs. Potter smiled and nodded her head, giving a soft laugh she took out her wand and began cleaning the dishes she used to make breakfast. The boys, as hungry as they always were, began eating. They devoured about half the large stack of waffles within minutes.

Mrs. Potter, as sneaky as she is, grabbed a small pile of waffles that she would soon bring up to the presumably starving girl upstairs. She had been through quite the ordeal lately. Jenny was shocked when James told her about Lilly, they're whole history, and what she had been doing for the past month. Jenny was not about to let Lilly just leave like that. Jenny knew how Lilly was feeling and she couldn't help but want to help her. The boys were far too busy eating to notice Jenny as she put the waffles and syrup on the tray, as well as a glass of juice and some coffee. She levitated the tray and began to walk upstairs.


She knocked on the door of the room where Lilly was staying. When she heard no sound she let herself in. Lilly was lying on the bed, just staring up at the ceiling. She was completely confused. She didn't know where she was, or how she got here. She remembered being in a cave, with that horrible death eater. Then everything happened so fast, and then she heard that voice. Next thing she knew she woke up here, with a woman standing over her. A cloaked figure was sitting in the corner. Then she fell asleep, for some reason she felt safe, she felt at home here. She knew everything was out of her control. So she just let it all happen. She hoped it was a dream, but in her heart she knew for certain it wasn't.

Jenny walked in the room, and Lilly slowly looked over at her, then back up at the ceiling.

"Here is some breakfast dear. I figure that you would need some food after what you have been through." Jenny said trying to sound happy, but truly she was sad, she hated seeing such a young beautiful girl have to go through something like that.

"Thank you, would you mind telling me who you are, or where I am?" Said Lilly staying calm. She knew this was the woman from last night. At least something was familiar.

"Well, dear my name is Jenny, and I'll wait for my son to tell you where you are. It might help you understand. You went through quite the events last night. All of your physical wounds are healed, as I am a healer, I mended your wrists, and the rest of your wounds. The bruise on your face will stay for a little while though."

"Thank you, uhm Jenny. I just am so lost. I don't know how last night even happened. One minute everything was alright, that feeling was there, like someone was watching over me. Then it all happened so fast. I never would have done it if I knew he was a death eater. I never would have gone with him if I knew that he would hurt me. They usually don't. I just don't understand how I could let myself get so deep into that." Lilly said all of this still just laying still, staring into space. She had a soft and confused tone to her voice. Suddenly aware she had spilt her feelings to a woman she didn't even know, she placed her hand over her mouth and shut her eyes.

"It's alright dear, you're safe here. I won't hurt you, and neither of the two lovely boys here would ever dream of it. Don't fret, you can trust me, I know what you're going through. When I was about 18 the same thing happened. I thought that I would do anything just to feel wanted. That it didn't matter who it was. After a while you get so far in, that you can't get out. Unless someone saves you, that is, I was saved by my husband, Adam. When he told me how…how shall I put it? Well there's only one way really… excuse the language dear, but how fucked up I was, I didn't want to believe him. You my dear are one step ahead of where I was. You realize how deep you got and your savior came earlier." Jenny said, she could see the sadness on Lilly's face.

Jenny was happy that Lilly was trusting her with her story, but she did realize that if James didn't come up soon, the poor girl will start to worry. I haven't told her where she is and this must be awful nerve-racking, she thought. Jenny had been sitting on the bed with the tray of food. She stood up, and gave Lilly the tray, casting a quick heating spell on the waffles.

"I should go now, but enjoy the waffles. I will send James up soon." Jenny said quickly, and left the room. Lilly was sitting there with a confused look on her face.

"James...please don't let it be my James. It has to be, doesn't it? James, why did it have to be him! This is just perfect. Well maybe it is. Maybe this will give me a chance to, I don't know, talk to him. Oh great now im talking to my self!" Lilly said as she started eating the waffles. She was grateful that Jenny came up first, if it had been James she would have started to yell immediately. What Jenny had said made sense. She would never have believed that James had saved her otherwise.

I can't believe that it was him. I thought that he hated me. Was he telling me the truth. Does he really actually like me? Oh god, what have I done! The question I must ask is, do I still like him. No, I cant, i've had all those other guys. No I do like him, I have to. I Can't, but I do…Lilly's thoughts were interrupted by a shy knock on the door.

"Lilly, can I come in, please don't yell at me." James said shyly. He was truly scared of her reaction.

"It's alright, I'm not going to yell, you can come in Potter" James' heart dropped at the fact that she went back to using his last name. What could I expect, she doesn't even know. She'll never know. At least she's not yelling. James thought as he entered her room cautiously.

"Hey Lilly, how are you feeling?"

"I'm alright, just a bit confused. Last night was really intense."

"Yea, it was. I'm sorry this had to happen to you."

"It's not your fault James, you couldn't have done anything." shit I just called him James, but just look at the way his face lit up at it. She smiled slightly at that. That the simplest thing she did could make James so happy.

Holy shit, she called me James, Hallelujah! This is the best day ever! "Yea, I guess, but I feel like I should've saved you. I wasn't there for you. Lilly you have no idea how hard it was, it is, for me to see you like this. Doing all of this to yourself. I just don't understand why you did it?" James asked with a concerned look on his face. He looked like he was about to cry. Lilly saw this, and her heart broke in half. She couldn't believe that he cared, that he actually was worried. It was that moment that she knew she couldn't lose him. She knew that she loved him. She had never felt like this about anyone. I just hope he feels the same.

"James, don't do that to yourself. It wasn't your fault. It was stupid me. I can't believe that I was doing that. The reason, I don't even know the reason anymore. James I'm just so confused. Everything that I thought was right is wrong. The only constant I've always had is you. Even after I was a complete bitch to you, you stayed. You watched over me, you protected me. James, it was you wasn't it, you were the one watching over me. You were the voice in the shadows. You saved me James, and I don't think I'll ever be able to repay you." Lilly said this, and by the end she was crying.

James didn't know what to do, so how went over to her and took her in his arms. She sat on his lap, and cried into his shoulder. She let out all of her hate, all of her pain. James had no idea what to do, but he thought of what his mother used to do when he was sad. She would hug him and tell him everything would be alright. She usually ended up crying as well. That always made him feel better, so when it came to Lilly he did just that. He held her and in a soft voice he was telling her it would be alright. He was slowly running his hand through her hair. He didn't even notice but he had started crying too. He cried for her, and her pain. He cried for that fact that she was with him. He cried because he couldn't believe he had the most amazing girl in his arms, and that she knew he had saved her, and she actually wanted to be with James. Her breathing slowly settled down, but he knew she wasn't sleeping.

"James, thank you. I'm sorry for not believing you. It had hurt so badly, and I didn't want to believe you cared, because I didn't want to be hurt. Except in the end, it was that alone that hurt me. I'm sorry James, will you ever forgive me?" Lilly said, slowly and sweetly. She turned her head up to look at James. He looked back at her. She didn't understand what she saw in his eyes.


So, did y'all enjoy this chapter, review and tell me! i hope that thissatisfys all mydear readers! This chapter is signifanctly longer, like double the rest. So i hope its enjoyed. I won't be able to post again until the weekend or maybe later, seeing as its a long weekend i might be busy.

I know that this chapter is a bit confusing, but be patient. Think of it likethis, Lilly shows her true self. The other her was a mask. We might be seeing that again, maybe not...Read my next update to find out what james was thinking...dun dun dun!

THANK YOU, to all my reviewers, i'll answer reviews next time.