A/n yah I know..i'm not using my beta….so bite me! Anyhoo….i really needed to get this posted! I'm sorry beta I'm sorry! Pls don't kill me!

Me:no..not again…

Muse: say it!

Me:no own..no sue

Muse: good girl…takes leather straps off…

Salt Water

I always run

I'm always running away

From things that don't seem to go my way

Always making excuses…

"He doesn't love me.."

" I don't deserve him…."

" He's dieing and leaving me all alone…"

Never thinking how it will hurt those who love me..

The truth is, I don't deserve them

And as I stare out to the endless blue before me

I now know that this is true

My white silk dress drags me down

The water making it heavier

It becomes a dress of steel

Tears, I thought would no longer fall

Tears that are no longer black

Retrace their steps along my cheeks

Falling to the blueness below

Mixing and melting in the churning mass

(As I wish our hearts would)

Salt water meets saltwater

Not leaving even the tiniest trace of their escape

The liquid blue crystal reaches my mouth now

Ruby red meats jaded blue

My hair fans out above me

Small unwanted bubbles flow upward from my nose

As I breathe in

Salt water lost, finds me again

As the blackness closes in around me

I imagine your face

Your beautiful face

And silky hair

These images make it all the more easier

I see the white light

And up ahead….

A/n pleeeeeeeaaaassssse review! Anyway sorry for the cliff hanger….i promise I'll update soon…any guesses on what happens….? Review and I'll tell you if your right!