The Way I Feel….
Disclaimer: I don't RFR if you think I do… well then you're stupid.
If you haven't read SktzoDJ you'll never understand what's going here. You have to read it first just click on my name and click on that story. I added a new character and it takes off from where Sktzo DJ left off. Hope you like it. Once again make sure you read Sktzo DJ first.
A/N: If it's in Italics that means its thoughts usually of the last person who spoke if not it will be stated otherwise but for this chapter it's all Ray's point of view so all italics are his thoughts.
As the gang sat around at their usual table and talked Ray surveyed the group. Robbie was wearing a blue shirt with a blue plaid shirt over and a blue sweatshirt of that.
Ray chuckled to himself. Sam sat next to him with her arm around his chair playing with Robbie's curls. She was doing the "gangsta" look today with a two-faced fitted cap tilted to the side with her hair flowing down her shoulders. She wore a gray hooded sweatshirt with a wife beater (men's undershirt- the tank one) and baggy black jeans that sat on her hips revealing what looks like men's boxers.Robbie's always so damn coordinated. Everything perfectly matching, his mom probably still picks out his clothes in the morning.
Lily and Travis were talking closely. They were matching today and Ray hoped it wasn't on purpose he always thought that was corny. They were wearing lime green shirts; Lily in a simple t-shirt and Travis in his usual collared retro styled shirts trimmed with blue. They were wearing medium blue jeans and sneakers.Psycho! She's like a different person everyday!
As they laughed and talked together Ray couldn't help but feel left out. Not that they weren't talking to him, but his feelings and interests seemed to be lost in their flirting and smiling. Ray drummed his finger on the table.
"Hey, Ray do you want to do Kim segment today?" Robbie said to his best friend.So everyone's happy…How come I'm not happy?
"On what?" Ray asked sitting back in his chair.
"Today's announcements. Weren't you listening?" Sam answered putting a lollypop in her mouth.
"Yea sure I was" Ray said. Travis and Lily smiled.
"Ray, you can't fool me. You weren't paying attention." Lily said giving him a small shove.
"Fine you got me! I wasn't listening" Ray said trying to perk up and enjoy the attention he was receiving from his friends.
"Man, Ray that would have been so perfect for today. I can't believe you weren't listening" Robbie said.
"Yea well what are you going to do right?" Ray said as the bell rang.
"So what's on your mind? Is it a girl?" Sam asked teasingly.
"Ooooo Ray's gotta crush!" Lily said.
"Yea sure" Ray said and headed off to class.
Later that day…
Ray turned over in his bed.
He lay there in his boxers on his bed as he thought about what to do with himself.It's 7:30 on a Friday night and here I am with no place to go….
Ring
Ray's thoughts were interrupted. He picked up his cell phone.
"Hello?" Ray said.
"Hey, it's Sam"
"Oh hey what's up?"Why is she calling me?
"Nothin much, just worried about you. You seemed kind of out of it today during the show…"
"Did you forget I was on the phone?" another voice said.
"Oh, sorry! Ray, Robbie's on the phone too." Sam said with a chuckle.
"Oh hey man" Ray said.I should've known
"Hey" Robbie replied. "So what's up with you?"
"Nothing man"
"You sure?" Sam said.
"Yea, I'm just tired"
"Ok, you want to catch a movie with us?" Robbie offered.
"No, I'm not feeling to well. I think I'm getting sick"
"Oh well feel better" Sam said.
"Thanks"
"Later man!" Robbie said.
"Bye" Sam said.
"Okay B…"
Click!
"Bye" Ray put down the phone slowly.
Maybe I should've went…Nah I would've just been in the way….I've been way to down and lonely lately. Not that they've noticed…
Ring!
Ray grabbed the phone, it was Lily
"Hello …lady" Ray pulled out the pretty at the last moment.
"Hey!" Lily said cheerfully. "What page was that math assignment?" Ray's heart sinks through the floor.
"Uhh…187"
"Thanks! Oh hold on."
"OK"
"Ray?"
"Yea, I'm here"
"I got Travis on the other line. I'll call you later"
Click!
He sighs and puts his phone in the charger. He glances on his desk and sees his brother's yearbook.Too bad I don't have a girlfriend to hang up on my best friend for!
He picks it up and opens it plopping back on his bed. There are little hearts everywhere.Huh? Mom must have put it in my room by mistake.
He smiles to himself and begins to read and realizes his brother is in fact not gay but apparently the most popular guy in school. Everyone that signed his year book is a girl. They put those little hearts there. He's got phone numbers galore. One girl put her house phone, cell phone and fax number. Ray shook his head. As he reads there notes to him they all say "I love you Tim" and "I'm going to miss a hottie like you" "Thanks for the all the good times ;)" "Tim, I going to miss the way you…."Ha! Let me find out my brother's gay!
Ray knew his brother most likely wasn't a virgin but didn't think he was THAT active. Not enough to have girls outlining what he did and what they want to do with him on paper and definitely not in a yearbook. Reading it was turning him on. He counted 10 girls who wrote like that in the yearbook. He turned the pages to find the pictures of the girls who wrote to him.What?!
He lay back in his bed beginning to fantasize about the girls his brother's been with. Some pictures fell out. It was some of the girls that had signed Tim's yearbook although these were not yearbook photos. Ray let out a small breath almost a gasp. Then he heard pounding on his door. He knew it was Tim no one knocks that hard he tried to put the pictures back but Tim opened the door before he could put to them back.Now I know where all the hot girls are – they're at Tim's school!
"Gimme that!" Tim said snatching the book from him. He surveyed his brother and laughed. "Little brother getting off on my girlfriends' pictures" He said. Ray looked down and grabbed a sweater and quickly placed it over his lap as Tim called him a "perv". Tim laughed harder. "Don't worry runs in the family" He said ruffling Ray's hair. Ray looked at him questioningly. "Dad never had "the talk" with you?" Tim asked arching an eyebrow.
"Yea but he didn't say anything about anything running in our family…" Ray said almost innocently. Tim sat down beside him his weight almost making the slim Ray bounce on the bed.
"The men in our family are "gifted" I guess you can say" Tim said. Ray still was confused. Tim shook his head "We tend to be a bit bigger than the average guy" Ray thought for a moment and eventually caught on. Tim laughed and began to walk out.
"Wait!" Ray called after him. Tim turned around.
"What?"
"Can I ask you something?"
"Yea"
"Close the door" Tim closed the door behind him and sat down on Ray's bed. "How come…How do you….Why are all those girls writing in your year book like that? I mean how'd you get them to even look at you like that?" Tim smiled.
"Having trouble with the ladies?" Tim said.
"No! That's the problem! There are no ladies for me to have trouble with!" Ray said sounding exasperated. Tim chuckled but smiled knowingly.
"Hey, I know what you mean. I wasn't always the stud you see before you" Ray rolled his eyes. "When I was your age I didn't know where to start."
"So then how'd you start?"
"There was this girl…" Tim smiled as he remembered how it all happened. "Simone. She wasn't hot, she was cute though and she was a total slut. She was my first"
"You lost your virginity to a slut?" Ray said almost disgusted.
"Hey don't get all high and mighty with me virgin boy. That's why I don't even talk to you about this stuff you act all like sex is sacred, get over it! Everyone's doin it with everyone!" He practically yelled him. "Plus, you have to start somewhere." Tim said shooting a look at him Ray pondered on what he had said. "Anyway she was a gossip too. Next thing you know every girl in school knew about my "gift"" Tim said and shrugged his shoulders. "Next thing you know girls are dying to get to me" Ray shook his head at his brother's arrogance.
"So that's all you had to do?" Ray said seeming unconvinced.
"Yea and they ran to me. I haven't chased a girl in awhile." Tim said seriously. "I haven't needed to" Ray couldn't believe it. "Look if you really want to be messing around all the time like that I'll help you but if you want to be all pious with me then whatever"
"How could you help me?" Ray said with and attitude leaning back.
"I'll set you up" Tim looked at his brother. "Forget it you'll never do it" Tim said shaking his head and began to leave the room.
"No, wait. I'll do it" Ray said Tim turned and smiled at his brother but with a wicked grin this time. "Ok get dressed"
"What now?"
"Yea. Plus you're already ready." Tim said with a laugh and walked out. "Let me know when you're dressed" He called out as he headed to his room.
