Ashley closes her diary and runs downstairs to the computer. Relieved to see that Toby's not already on it she slumps into the chair. "I haven't been on in a week watch my mailbox be stuffed" She thinks to herself.

"You've Got Mail" says the computer.

She never did like that stupid voice.

"54 messages!" she says out loud realizing she's talking to herself she looks around to see if anyone heard her. "Your really are going nut over this" she says to herself. She weeds through the junk email. "14 messages that's more like it"

6 of them are about the party

4 forwards "useless" she mutters

1 chain letter she deletes it. "My luck couldn't get any worse"

1 from Ellie "What?" She opens it. It's an invitation to read her blog. "It's about time she started a blog. I've been telling her to do it for like a month that way she can get all the stuff she's holding in out" she mummbles.

Message reads:

Hey, I finally did it here's the link, just don't tell anyone okay. I want to keep it anonymous. C U in skool.

Ash clicks on the link. She begins to scan through it looking for something about herself or Jimmy.

Reading in her head:

Mom's drinking blah blah blah next

Misses dad blah blah blah next

Shopping blah blah blah next

I lost my virginity "wait"

She stops and reads it slowly and thoroughly.

The message reads:

I lost my virginity yesterday. They say the 1st time is never that good; it's the 2nd time that's really good. My 1st was awesome. It was just so natural, we both new what to do even though it was his 1st time also. I like him for so long and fate brought us together. I spent the nite at his house. I woke up in his arms. I never thought love could be like this. Turns out he's liked me for 3yrs now. Sigh

He had sex with her, I can't believe it! I always thought I'd be his first. 3years? That means he was into her while he was with me.

She's fighting back tears now as she goes to the next entry.

The message reads:

My best friend, I'll call him "Mike", is crazy. He's all excited cuz there's a party next Saturday. He's harassing me and my boyfriend. That's right it's official! I'll call him Kobe. If want to here what has to say about me click here, it'll take you to his blog. We're open like that with each other that we read each other's blogs. We did it again today. I love his lips. I love him and he loves me. Life is good.

"I have to see his blog". She clicks on the link.

Blog reads:

Ok most of u r here 2day readin this cuz my girl sent u here. I guess I should talk about the 1st time we had sex. She took me by surprise kissing me 1st and all. It was perfect 3 yrs an now here she is on my couch kissin me. I took over an kissd her back next thing u knw we're havin sex. Gr8 sex, all nite. She fell asleep in my arms, as I played w/ her red hair. We woke up late da next mornin. I made the only thing I knw how 2 make—French toast. We ate and talked. I gave her my favorite Triple 5 Soul jersey 2 wear. She looked so good in it. On our way 2 the Dot I asked her 2 b my girl an she said yea. My dreams have come true. I have the most beautiful girl in Degrassi on my arm.

Ash couldn't hold in her tears anymore she began to sob.

"The love each other, he loves her more than he loved me".

thoughts raced through her head.

"I lost all chance with him! It's really over!"

She calms down and then signs off.

"I have to get Craig back" she says to herself. "I can't loose both them! I just can't!"