A/N: Whoot! I'm on a roll! I would've gotten this earlier, but for some reason my Internet refused to cooperate... Oo. ANYWAY, the next chapter is well under way! But for the moment, enjoy this little piece I thought up when I was listening to Gackt's Kimi ni Aitakute. I looked at the lyrics went OMG, that's SO ShinnxStellar! Yeah... well enjoy!

Disclaimer: I don't ANYTHING in this story escept the plot. How sad.

Foot Note: After the first set of lyrics, it's Shinn's POV, after the next set of lyrics it's Stellar's POV, and it alternates like that until the last two set of lyrics. Those two are Shinn's POV's. Hope it's not too confusing! Translations are at the bottom and the credit goes to because my dumb brain doens't know one word of Japanese except really simple stuff...


Kimi ni Aitakute

Kimi ni aitakute dare yori mo aitakute

Mou ichido kono te wo tsunaide hoshii

I miss you, Stellar. More than I've ever missed anyone… if there was any way for you to forget the world of pain that you've come to know… if you could just start over and be the girl that you could've been, instead of the one you are now; so plagued by death and riddled with problems that aren't your fault. If you could've only held onto my hand and never let go… if there was only a way that you could have done that, would you and I have been in this mess?

Kono heya ni mada okiwasureta kimi no omokage wo sagashiteiru yo

Me wo tojireba ima mo kimi ga soba ni iru you na ki ga shite

Itsuka wa atarimae no you ni

Wakare ga kuru koto wakatteita no ni

I don't remember where I put it, the empty face in my mind. I look for that single memento I've misplaced, desperately searching for the one thing that lets me cling onto my memories of him. Even when I squeeze my eyes shut, I can still hear him make that promise to me: "I'll protect you…" It feels so near as it is so far away. If I could only have that moment back I would've done everything so that I didn't have to leave. Whoever he was I'd tell him to not hate me if I forgot him. Wherever he is I'd tell him I can still remember the faint promise he made.

I don't remember what happened, I never do. I just believe what Neo tells me, because he's told me he wouldn't do anything to hurt me. It's odd, I feel like it was OK we parted ways. I feel like I knew what was coming; somewhere in my mind it's like I knew I wouldn't remember him. It's a natural part of life; people meet and people leave... At least, that's what Neo tells me. People will meet, and people will part someday, but if they were truly important they will stay.

Kimi ni aitakute dare yori mo aitakute

Wasureru koto nante dekiyashinai kara

Kimi ga mienakute nandomo kizutsuketa keredo

Mou ichido kono te wo tsunaide hoshii

I'm missing you right now, Stellar, if you can't see. I'm missing you right now, looking at the fragment you gave me. I'm still confused as to what it is, but it's what you gave to me, so it must have presented some importance to you. Luna asked me what it was; I told her I didn't know.

I remember how you were so afraid of death, and I remember the warm smile you gave me when I said I'd protect you. I could only hope you were somewhere safe, that your 'brothers' would take good care of you. I never forgot you during those times; I never could. Even through battles I thought of you, only if I'd known sooner that you were the enemy I was striving to kill. I can't see the girl I met by the ocean, and that hurts so much. I can't see the beautiful blonde I saved from drowning; I can only see an enemy that had killed so many. Could it really be you, Stellar? Can you really be the girl that I saved? The girl I promised to protect? I can't believe you could've been killed by my own hands… why did you fight if you were so afraid?

Either way, whichever one you may be, I still don't want you to let go of my hand. I still want to protect you, to return you to a world where you'll be safe and where you can dance and twirl all you want, without worrying about ever falling, without worrying about death that could strike you any day.

Deatta toki ni koi ni ochite omowazu kimi wo dakishimeteita

Sonna boku ni warainagara "baka ne" to karuku kisu shite

Daremo ga deai to wakare no naka de

Tashika na ai ni kizuiteiku

If I remembered you would I know the feeling I harbored when we first met? That impulsive emotion I felt for you? You looked so desperate, so torn apart when I first woke up. You begged me to remember you, when I clearly couldn't. If I did remember you would I have known the strange feeling? Now I remember you, and the feeling seems so clear; when I saw you for the second time I was so glad, when impulsively I said I remembered you, you looked so happy and promised you'd protect me.

Anyone could've seen what we held for each other. In between life, in between the partings and the meetings, anyone could've seen this certain love. Neo often told me love was just a flitting bird; flying away far away into the blue sky. I often asked him what he meant; he never told me. He simply smiled and patted my head, telling me I didn't ever have to worry about watching the bird fly away and feel pain watching it. Did he ever feel that pain? I once asked him that; he never answered either.

And now I wonder if this love will flit away, like Neo said love would. But I wish different. I'm wishing with everything I have that it'll stay with me and protect me, like it promised it would.

Kimi ni aitakute dare yori mo aitakute

Hajimete kimi ni atta hoshizora no shita de

Kimi ni tsutaetai todokanai omoi demo

Boku no kokoro wa mada kimi wo sagashiteiru

Now I'm missing you, leaving that island, with only the trust of a stranger that you'd be alright. I'm missing you more than I ever had before. Will you be safe, like that man had promised? Or will I meet you again, striving to kill you? When the next time we meet, will we meet under the blue sky, by the ocean, just like we did the first time when we were unaware of the pains of goodbye?

I only want to tell you, as I numbly fly away, even if my feelings aren't returned, I just want to tell you hoping that you'll remember when you're afraid. I want to tell you, so you'll gain hope when you feel there's no one to catch you. I want to tell you, so you can know that when you're dying, there's someone who loved you until the end.

I just wanted to tell you I love you that my heart's searching for you as the days go on, hell I still do.

I asked you to remember me, I asked him to keep you safe, where you wouldn't have to go near war ever again. I blindly trusted him and I left, only the blind trust with me. I had no choice but to trust him, because he's someone you trusted. And even as I leave I wonder if I should've just held onto you for myself, or if I should've done what I did just now; setting you free and chancing you being hurt again.

Itsuka wa atarimae no you ni

Wakare ga kuru koto wakatteita no ni

As I watch you leave, as I watch you take off into the sunrise, I knew. Neo was right. Love is a flitting bird. Even as you carried me toward Neo, I knew we were parting. I knew it was bound to happen, I just hoped it wasn't so soon. I just wished Neo wasn't right. As I clutch your memento in my hands, I'm still wishing we didn't have to part. Even as Neo carries me back I'm wishing you'd stay with me. I'm still wishing he didn't have to be right. I'm still wishing for that bird to come flying back to me. I'm still waiting for its promise to protect me.

Kimi ni aitakute dare yori mo aitakute

Wasureru koto nante dekiyashinai kara

Kimi no tame nara sou kimi no tame nara...

I miss you so much… sitting here in the cold cell, I'm missing you, can't you tell? I'm missing you because I could've held onto you. I'm missing you because I let you go. I'm missing you because I could never forget you. You would never have to feel that, Stellar. And I'm glad. Even as I asked you to remember me a part of me knew you couldn't. It's not that you won't, right? It's simply because you can't. I can only hope you're safe and sound.

I'll keep my memory of you alive. I'll remember your every word and smile and feature, I'll hold onto them for you. So if you forget, I'll remember for you. If you don't remember, I'll remember for you, Stellar. I'll remember our moments for you; I'll keep your memory alive for you. So that maybe, one day if you remember, we'll see again what we first saw in each other. I'll remember so I can find solace in those memories. If it's for you, Stellar, I'll remember. If it's for you, I can withstand the pain a little bit longer. I'll keep those memories a little bit longer if it's for you, I swear it.

Mou ichido kono te wo tsunaide hoshii

Itusmo tsunaida te wa atatakakatta

I don't want you to let go, Stellar, I really don't. Even as I know you will, facing you now, with a gun in my hand, I truly don't want you to let go. Even as you face me with a gun in your own hand I sit with the glimmer of hope that you'll remember how you held onto my promise. Even as you and I pull the trigger I'm hoping we can avoid this path and walk along a new one. A fresh, paved one where we don't have to know the pain of goodbye. A new path where we don't have to know the pain of loss.

Please don't let go, Stellar, my hand was warmer when you held it.


Song Translation:

I Miss You (Title)

I miss you, I miss you more than anyone

I don't want you to ever let go of my hand again

I forgot where I put it again

I'm looking for my memento of you

If I close my eyes, even now, I feel like you're near

I knew, as if it were natural

We'd part ways someday

I miss you, I miss you more than anyone

Because I could never forget you

I can't see you, and it hurts me so much

But I don't want you to ever let go of my hand

I fell in love the moment we first met, and without thinking I hugged you

While laughing at me, you called me silly and lightly kissed me...

Anyone would recognize certain love

In the midst of meetings and partings

I miss you, I miss you more than anyone

We first met under the starry sky

I want to tell you, even if my feelings aren't returned

My heart is still searching for you

I knew, as if it were natural

We'd part ways someday

I miss you, I miss you more than anyone

Because I could never forget you

If it's for you, yes, if it's for you...

I don't want you to ever let go of my hand

My hand was always warm in yours


A/N: Amazingly, I actually whole-heartedly LIKE what I wrote! Criticism is welcome, and please review! It's nice to know what my readers think!