A/N: I honestly think I was on drugs when I wrote this…Oo
Disclaimer: I don't own Destiny! Otherwise Mia would be dead.
Mistaken Identity
"Come with me,"
His hand stretched toward me. His piercing emerald eyes showing panic. Showing confusion. Showing… pity. The rain falling down everywhere. Down, down, and down… the droplets hitting my face like daggers. My world slowly coming to a stop and filling with gray. No, no, no, NO! I desperately want to shout. It can't be gray! Not anymore, not again! I'm in Lacus Clyne's world, I am Lacus Clyne! Her world isn't gray and ugly! It's everything I want! It's not gray, it's not, it's not!
But the gray kept swirling all around; the rain kept beating down… the color of pity stared back at me, pleading to come along, pleading me to move, pleading me to do what? I can't go with him! People need me now! I'm Lacus Clyne; people want me! Why was he asking me to throw it all away! Why was he being so cruel!
"Mia-"he calls. He seems really desperate now. His eyes are boring into mine. He tugs me along, but I violently rip away from him, thinking to all the times I sang. I was Lacus Clyne; those soldiers loved me, loved lacus Clyne! I frantically shook my head, backing away from him. My eyes were wild and maniacal, I knew it. The pitying gaze kept following me… Lacus Clyne didn't need pity! I DIDN'T NEED PITY!
"No! NO! NO!" I yell, nearly shrieking. Lightning flashed and I remembered Mia Campbell. She was desperate, clingy, needy, ugly, repulsive, unwanted and unneeded! I was someone else now. I was Lacus Clyne! Mia was gone, Mia didn't exist anymore, Mia didn't have to haunt me anymore! "NO! I- I- I'm… I'm-"
"Mia, please-"he begs his expression portraying surprise.
"NO!" I scream. "I'm LACUS CLYNE! LACUS!"
Fixing my wild gaze on him, I see that he looks surprised. I back away from him once more, back away from the one person who saw through me, backed away from his gaze, that pitying, fearful gaze, and threw away my last chance of being with him. But I was Lacus, and Lacus didn't want him now. And he called me Mia. Mia was gone, she was dead. Buried deep, deep, deep… He needed to know that; that repulsive Mia was gone forever and ever!
"I'm LACUS!" my voice as shrill panicked, even. "DON'T CALL ME THAT!"
He said nothing. Just seemed surprised.
"DON'T YOU SEE!" I went on, screaming. The times when I used to be Mia flooded my head. When I'd sit hours by the TV watching a Lacus concert, how I spent all my money on her concert tickets, how I suffered trying to sound exactly like her… I had nobody back then. But now, I WAS Lacus! EVERYBODY loved me, needed me, wanted me! "I'M LACUS! It's OK I'm Lacus, because everything's ALRIGHT! DON'T TRY TO TAKE IT FROM ME!"
I was desperate to make him see that Mia was gone. I was desperate to prove to him I was good enough to be wanted. Lacus was me, and Lacus was wanted by everyone, after all. I had to make him see I could be better than Lacus. I had to make him see that there was only one Lacus and that was me! ME! I was Lacus Clyne, now!
"Go away! Go away! I'm not Mia anymore! Mia's gone!" I cried, shaking my head violently.
"Mia!" his voice was sharp, commanding, scolding.
"NO! NOT Mia! NOT Mia! Lacus! I'm LACUS!" I scream.
He seems… disappointed. Pitying. Why couldn't he stop looking at me that way! Lacus Clyne didn't need pity! She needed nothing! But he tries again. His hand is outstretched to me, and I stare at it pathetically, eye wide like a deer caught in headlights… Tears well in my eyes, and they fall over, but the rain washes it all away… all away…
Trembling, my hand goes to his… but then the gray comes back, swirling around. Lightning flashes and I scream, slapping his hand away from mine. I shake my head violently once again and sit down on the steps, hugging myself. "Lacus, Lacus, Lacus…" I murmur to myself.
"You're not…" he says softly. Disappointedly. Pityingly. And then he's gone. Just like that, he leaves without a second glance. He just walks away, away from me, away from Lacus, his fiancée. Heavy footsteps are echoing off the pavement as my tears spill over again. I hear them yelling as I rock back and forth, cradling myself. I cry, my sobs, Lacus' sobs, drowned out by the pounding rain. I can't even feel it anymore. Mia's gone, the rain's here, Mia's screaming, the rain's pounding… but I can't feel them anymore.
He was wrong. I was Lacus. Mia was gone because Lacus didn't need her anymore. I couldn't go back to being repulsive. I can't go back to being that. I wouldn't go back to being invisible! NEVER!
My tears keep falling. They won't stop. Even when I assure myself I'm Lacus, they keep falling. It's like… it's like…
I'm not Lacus Clyne…
A/N: Well there it is… it seems odd, kindda. I still hate Mia, my feelings toward her hasn't changed, actually I kindda hate her even more now. I haven't seen the episode; I'm still trying to get hold of a site that DOESN'T have Bit Torrent. Anyway, I do feel sorry for her to some point, being your idol and all, and it's understandable that she doesn't want to go back… (she looks REEAAALLLYYY old) but still. Well, RnR please:D:D
