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Rocky Road
Mr. Evans heard the front door slam. That was either a good or a bad sign. he looked at Lily and opened his mouth to speak.
"Don't you think you've done enough damaged for one day?"
"I was just going to ask where you have been," Mr. Evans replied.
"Out. Dinner with Alex actually, broke up with him as well," Lily said suddenly realising something. "You know he was going to propose and you thought that if I wasn't with James I would say yes. How well you know me dad!"
"What so your going to raise that child on your own?"
"Oh for the love of god there is NO child. I'm not pregnant."
"Well according to this you are," Petunia said waving the test about.
"Argh gimme that," Lily said snatching the test of her sister. Lily snorted, before bursting out into giggles.
Before she had met James she often got bored and played around with muggle medical (things that could be bought in pharmacies) items and made them into different things. Such as the one she was now holding, it used to be a pregnancy test but now it was a male fertility tester thingamajig.
"Aww Pet you should have said something about Vernon not having any ink in the cartridge, well hardly any ink anyway. I mean what will you do, it's not the kind of ink that you can buy in any store," Lily was mocking her sister. "Mind you its probably a good thing to know your having sex even though its with a lump of lard, it gives hope to us who don't have husbands," Lily glanced at her father he knew what she was telling him.
"No, you are staying here."
"Oh and how are you going to make me?"
"I'm not going to make you stay but you will stay because you broke it off with that boy and it will stay broken off. Now all I have to do is find someone else for you."
"No, dad enough. I want someone who will accept me for who I am, what I am. I want someone from my community."
"But James isn't from your community now is he?"
Lily realised she dug herself into a hole, she screamed and stormed into her bedroom like a child having a tantrum.
She began to debate whether she should go and see James or just stay and sulk in her room because she knew now more than ever that she loved him. Four weeks indeed. It wasn't impossible to fall in love in three weeks. She knew that now, now and all to late. She looked at the clock on the wall it was quarter to eleven. He would be at work and that was too public a place to have a private conversation. She would go in the morning.
Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away
Now it looks as though they're here to stay
Oh, I believe in yesterday.
Suddenly, I'm not half the man I used to be,
There's a shadow hanging over me.
Oh, yesterday came suddenly.
Why she had to go I don't know she wouldn't say.
I said something wrong, now I long for yesterday.
Yesterday, love was such an easy game to play.
Now I need a place to hide away.
Oh, I believe in yesterday.
The Beatles – Yesterday
James threw something at the radio as the song finished playing. Things were indeed better yesterday than they were today. He slammed his head against the wall of his room had he told her how he felt before he wouldn't be in this situation.
He needed to pack. He hated packing. It meant leaving on place to go back home that sucked.
So he now sat on the floor in his bedroom two bags in front of him. True his things would fit into one bag but it would feel wrong to leave Lily's stuff just lying around. Although most of her stuff was actually his at some point he didn't mind really. When you love someone… Love. That word rang out in his mind he loved her LOVED her.
He needed alcohol, but that would be a bad idea considering that he need to leave the house at nine in the morning to get to the port on time, he damned the person who decided that the port at which he was being taken home from was the one five hours drive away from his house. He yawned as he got a scrap piece of paper and began to write a note on it for Lily. By the time she got it he would be well on his way to the port and she wouldn't know which one.
Lily after finally coaxing herself to go and see James in the morning managed to fall asleep and found her bed cold and she didn't know what to do with her arms. Normally there would be a James to cuddle to or dig her nails into his back as he caressed her body making her scream with delight, tonight there was no-one and she would have to get used to it unless she could get him to talk to her tomorrow.
When she awoke it was nearly mid-day, she cursed her sloth like tendencies and rushed to get dressed and out of the house before anyone could stop her, although she failed one had to give her credit for trying.
"Where are you going?"
"To see James," Lily answered her father's question.
"Why?"
"Because I need to see him to say I'm sorry and that I…" Lily stumbled over the words, "Want to keep in touch,"
"Lily! Your not going, because I know you and you'll do something stupid."
"Yes but I've already done something stupid, dad, now please let me go."
Her father would not move out of her way. "What stupid thing have you done?"
"I didn't listen to him, I listened to you. I didn't even explain properly why I couldn't see him anymore because you didn't explain to me why although I think I understand now, and I want to know if he would accept me as a witch because well I want to know if he feels the way I do."
"You love him?" her father asked
Lily bit her lip and looked at her father her eyes portrayed her uncertainty about her feelings towards James, "I care about him a lot, and I think I love him."
Mr. Evans stared at his daughter she had chosen this life against the life he had planned for her, one with certainty of there being food on the table, a life where there would always be money to spend on things that weren't needed, a life of ease no worrying about how much the bills would cost because there was ample money to pay them.
She had chosen what he called the Rocky Road, although these comforts could be there, there would be other things that the life of plenty would not always hold. Time for one another, comforting in times of need, arguments about complete nonsense, and other things that love bullshit brought along.
It was in effect the path of life he had chosen to take. It brought him much pain, anxiety and didn't want his precious gems to go through the same. He wanted them to have a life with out heartache but it seemed as though he had failed to stop that
"Then I suppose I can't stop you," Mr. Evans said after a moments pause. "Here take the car," he said handing the keys over to Lily who engulfed him a hug.
Lily pulled up outside James house, his car was gone and there was a note on the door. She got out of the car and went to look at the note. It had her name on it so she opened it.
Lily,
By the time you read this I would have probably been long gone, that is if you ever read it at all.
I got a call a couple of days ago saying that I needed to come back to work a week early, ok so that's a lie more like a week ago I got a call but I couldn't bring myself to mention it to you because I couldn't bare to think of leaving you.
It was only the day before yesterday I realised that I wanted you to come with me and live with me because I care about you, a lot actually. I was going to bring it up but there never seemed to be a right time for it but considering what you said to me yesterday at the Pizzeria I didn't see the point in asking you then, so you got your wish. Shame I didn't have the guts to talk to you about this earlier, but hey as they say. Ladies first.
Hope to keep in touch. I'll call unless you don't want me to, so call me.
James
P.S. there is a bag of stuff that you left here round the back Sirius will watch it till three
Lily walked round to the back of the house where she found two men sitting with bottles of beer and a black bag at their feet.
"You Lily," Sirius asked while the other surveyed her thoughtfully.
"Yea," she replied taking the bag from the floor, "er how long ago did James go?" Lily said turning to leave she really didn't want to cry in front of them.
"About erm," the other man said, "He left at nine, had to go down to Longside Port"
"Oh right," Lily said looking at the ground, "Thanks."
Mr. Evans heard the door slam once again, "That door won't last forever you know," he called out from the kitchen before coming to see who came in.
"Yea well, that's probably the only you can fix," Lily said thrusting a note into his hands before running into her room locking it and lying on her bed curled up wishing there would be someone to comfort her but the person she wanted was long gone.
James had now been driving for nearly five and a half hours but all he could think about was Lily and how he should have gone and talk to her, told her how he felt. Maybe she would feel the same way about him as he did her although he doubted it after all she did leave him once her father told her to.
Lily to him was a mystery, or at least part of her was. He knew there was something about her that was undeniably being kept from him although he wouldn't be the one to talk considering he was keeping the fact that he was a wizard away from her.
He sighed and pulled over at a station, as he was low on petrol, while he was there he spotted a pay phone so once he had paid for his gas he went over to the phone and acted as though he placed some money into the slot whereas really he poked his wand at the machine to make it so that he could hear the other person and they couldn't hear him.
Lily was lying on her bed when her phone rang, it was on the floor under a pile of clothes so she had to be quick and find it when she picked up for some reason she knew it was James.
"James?" he heard her voice, "James is this you?" oh he wanted to be in that room with her, "James if it is you, I'm sorry I shouldn't have listened to my dad, I'm sorry I really, really am. I miss you James," he could tell she was crying. "James talk to me please," she sobbed. "James I love you," he cursed himself for that dratted spell. He hung up the phone angrily and went to his car. Now all he needed to do was find a way to get going in the direction of where he was coming from.
"James?" Lily said and the dialling tone of the phone came on. She hoped that it was him that called she wanted him back with her so much.
Lily took the bag that he had given her and emptied the contents of it, in them she saw a couple pair of knickers that she had left there a bra or two and some other random non-important objects. Or at least they were until she spotted his red t-shirt and the black boxers she always wore. Instantly she changed into those and grabbed the teddy that was in the bag, flung everything on her bed onto the floor and climbed into bed.
It was cold, she was still alone, she still wanted James to be lying by her, holding her telling her that everything would work out to be just fine, she grabbed one of her spare pillows and placed it so she could hug it. It wasn't quite the same thing but she figured that it would have to do.
At quarter past four James decided to stop at another station to eat. As he was sitting down his phone rang, he pulled it out of his pocket and flipped it open.
"Hello…I'm not going Sirius…because I left some stuff behind…no I can't…I will find a way to London…don't worry about me mate…I'll just see you later…Bye."
What a pointless conversation James thought after hanging up.
It was five when he started back out on the road again he would be back with Lily at around half nine. He smiled to himself as he got into the pickup truck that he drove.
It was eight and starting to get dark and James was steadily creeping along the highway, he wished he could just make the car invisible and zip through the small amount of traffic that was on the road, but rules bring rules. He just wanted to get there so that he could see Lily's face, hold her in his arms, kiss her, make her his. As he was musing about how to tell Lily he was a wizard his phone rang.
"Hello…oh Lady J…no I didn't…yes well this is more important to me…right then why are you having a go at me for not leaving when I did the right thing?…disobeying orders right ok…what's happened?…hold on a sec," James said pulling the car over and getting some paper and a pen out, he still hadn't quite gotten over the fact that he didn't need to dip the pen in anything for it to write. "Ok who, when, and where?"
"James," Lady J said, "there will be an attack on a woman called Lily Evans, she happens to be a witch but she hasn't been very active recently" James froze at the phone, "she will be in her home and the attack will be lead by a man called Alex Piantnik and from what we have gathered it will be sometime soon, how close are you?"
"Err I'm about an hour or so away there wont be time to get her out of the house and Lady J what am I going to do?" James asked he couldn't think straight.
"James what's wrong?"
"I was involved with her Joe and…" James trailed off.
"Dear God, James listen to me. Zip through the traffic and get that girl and get out of there and got to Gateway Port. I will have something waiting for you, but don't expect anything once your back here."
"Thanks Joe," James said, "No don't worry. I'll be fine," he hung up and breathed in deeply.
Not long after that he arrived at the hotel, he was surprised to see Sirius standing outside waiting for him.
"Took your time mate," he stated.
"Shut your trap Black, you didn't have to drive a car now did you," James snapped, "sorry."
"It's ok mate, now go."
James ran up the twenty odd flights of stairs to get to the top floor where Lily lived. He knocked on the door and it was opened by a tall giraffe necked blonde woman.
"Sorry not interested," she said before James even got to say anything and closed the door.
He knocked again this time a plump man opened the door,
"What did Petunia just say? Not interested," he said and closed the door.
James was getting aggravated, he knocked one last time and the couple opened the door said nothing and closed it. He clenched his fists and apparated into the penthouse.
"Oh my God," Petunia said whimpering.
"No not quite," James said turning around trying to remember which room was Lily's, "and I'm not going to hurt you," he added as he saw Mr. Evans coming out of the kitchen.
"What do you want?" Mr. Evans asked.
"Err I need to see Lily and I will even if you don't tell me which room she's in," James said eyeing Mr. Evans directly who raised a questioning eyebrow. "No time to explain."
"Fine the one in the corner, but she's asleep…" Mr. Evans started to say and James was pretty sure he was going to continue that she is a heavy sleeper etc.
James entered the room and saw Lily sleeping amidst a tangle of sheets and in what looked like his clothes that he had given her. She turned away from the door; he went over to the bed and moved her hair from her face had Mr. Evans not been standing in the door way he would have kissed her awake.
"Lily," he whispered close to her ear, she groaned in response. "Wake up," he shook her arm, she moved away from him so he sat down on the bed, "Lily come on wake up," James said shaking her a bit more.
"Go away," she muttered rubbing her eyes.
"Lily wake up please," James, muttered to her.
Lily although still half asleep damned the person who was trying to wake her up, she had been having such a nice dream. She and James were still together and everything was still all right, then she heard his voice and his hand resting on her arm. His touch sent electricity running through her veins, she opened her eyes to see him smiling.
"James," she stuttered, "You came back!"
"Course I came back," he replied, "and I love you too," he said remembering the phone call making Lily squeal and hug him, "But!"
"Oh no," Lily said she didn't like buts.
James laughed slightly, "It's not that bad but we have to leave, like now."
"Why?" Mr. Evans and Lily said at the same time.
"Well err how to explain. I work for the ministry of magic as an Auror and well technically my break was to find some leads as to who might be working for Voldemort," to his surprise Lily didn't flinch most people did. "And err yea your erm whatever Alex Piantnik although we aren't sure if he is working for Voldemort he's coming here tonight, because of some bizarre reason which I spaced out on in the car."
"So you're a wizard?"
"Yea, yea, yea I know and you're a muggle born witch. I really don't have time for this we have to go," James said to her.
"You came back because you were told to!"
"Actually no I was already on my way back when I got the call. You can ask my boss or my friends or whoever. Alex is going to be here soon, and its not going to be a pretty sight when he does."
"But what about my family," Lily said getting out of bed and looking at her father.
"We have that covered. Polyjuice potion," James said as he heard the door being kicked down. "So much for the get out of here before he gets here plan," James muttered while Lily sent a glare at him.
"LILY!" Alex yelled.
"Go," James nodded pulling out his wand and standing up from the crouching position he was in.
"What are you doing here Alex?" Lily said standing in the doorway from which her father had moved into her room.
"Making you sorry," he replied.
"Pardon," Lily said as she felt James come up behind her.
"You said you were sorry, but you weren't really. So I am making you sorry for what you did," Alex said muttering a spell under his breath.
Before Lily knew what happened James had turned her around and taken the spell that was aimed at her.
"Oh my god James," she said as James slumped to the ground, she grabbed him so that he wouldn't hit his head. "What did you do?"
"You'll soon see," Alex laughed. "Tell me when you want the counter charm, although there will be a price to pay."
"Go screw yourself," Lily said spitefully and then turned her attention to James, "James can you hear me?" he groaned in response. "James open your eyes," Lily said crouching beside him, "Please James don't leave me."
"Love you," James muttered to her.
"I love you too but stay with me," Lily said patting her cheeks.
"Get. Charm. Alex."
"No James you don't know what he's like," Lily said beginning to feel weak although she didn't know why, she grabbed a pillow off her bed and placed James' head on it. "Come on James stay awake please," she said just as he blackout out.
Tears rolled down her cheeks as she tried to wake James up, "No, no, nonono, James wake up," she whispered. She let out a sob and then collapsed falling on top of him.
ok just to answer some questions that song i felt was very appropriate for whats going to happen in the concluding chapter/s and i am evil i know in leaving where i left off but it must be that way because well actually do i have to explain my motives? nup :P
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