Sesshomaru stood before the window and stared at the large expanse of his estate. As the humans had started to take over he had kept several acres of forested land around his mansion safe. Nobody entered them for fear of facing his wrath. Golden orbs reflected the moon light and the shadows from the clouds caused his flawless skin to become cloudy. The rain had stopped and the windows were flung open, letting the scent of the freshly cleaned air seep into his bones. It had been her favorite scent when she was with him, the scent of the air and the trees after rain. She hated the smell of the pollution and hated to see how the humans were destroying the world. She loved to walk along the small paths in the small forest below him. Sometimes she would sit by the trickle of water that flowed through the center and would listen to the sounds. Her head would be flung back and her long white hair shimmered and flowed around her form in the wind. He would watch her silently from the treetops and she was so immersed in her thoughts and feelings she never noticed him. It was her little piece of heaven, and Sesshomaru would never change it. He walked out onto the balcony as the next song began to play.
She waits for me at night, she waits for me in silence
He would come home from a hard day at work and she would be there, always.
She gives me
all her tenderness and takes away my pain
She would rub his shoulders and run her claws through his hair and every time she touched him it seemed that she was drawing out all of his pain and stress.
And so far
she hasn't run, though I swear she's had her moments
She put up with him for so long, and then, he made a mistake. Sesshomaru shuddered at the memory and looked down at the claws that were gripping the railing of the balcony, causing chips of plaster to flake off. The memory of those same claws gripping something else just as hard, and instead of flecks of plaster and paint, flecks of blood fell to the floor.
She still
believes in miracles while others cry in vain
Nothing was beyond fixing in her eyes. Even him.
It's all about soul / It's all about faith and a deeper devotion
She was different than anyone he had ever met and he loved her for it.
It's all
about soul / 'Cause under the love is a stronger emotion
He thought that he knew everything about her, but every day he learned more, and now that learning was gone.
She's got to
be strong / 'Cause so many things getting out of control
Being mated to the lord of the western lands came with it's dangers. She had been threatened, kidnapped, and more just so that people could get to him. She had weathered it all without a word of malcontent. He never thanked her for it, and now he regretted that.
Should drive
her away / So why does she stay?
She stayed for him.
It's all
about soul
She had soul, and heart enough to fill the world.
She turns to me sometimes and she asks me what I'm dreaming / And I realize I must have gone a million miles away
She cared for him so deeply and had kept him from losing to his demonic side so many times.
And I ask her
how she knew to reach out for me at that moment / And she smiles
because it's understood there are no words to say
She always seemed to know what was going on
It's all about soul / It's all about knowing what someone is feeling
She knew his deepest desire, his fears, everything about him and she knew what to do.
The woman's
got soul / The power of love and the power of healing
Not only could she heal his wounds, but she healed his soul.
This life
isn't fair / It's gonna get dark, it's gonna get cold
Sesshomaru didn't know what he would do if it got worse than it was now, and if he didn't have her.
You've got to
get tough, but that ain't enough / It's all about soul
She was tough, but delicate. She was innocent and He wanted to protect that. She put her life in his hands and he betrayed that trust. No better than his half breed brother.
There are people who have lost every trace of human kindness
Not her.
There are
many who have fallen, there are some who still survive
She was one of those few.
She comes to
me at night and she tells me her desires / And she gives me all the
love I need to keep my faith alive
She told him everything and gave him her soul, she loved him unconditionally.
It's all about soul / It's all about joy that comes out of sorrow
There was no joy anymore
It's all
about soul / Who's standing now and who's standing tomorrow
He had taken it one day at a time and he couldn't do it any longer.
You've got to
be hard / Hard as the rock in that old rock 'n roll
He was before he met her and then she showed him emotion, taught him how to feel again, and it was ripping him apart. But he didn't regret it.
But that's
only part, you know in your heart / It's all about soul
She was everything to him and now she was gone, and it was his fault. Sesshomaru released his hands from the balcony and looked at them with disgust. He thought he could still see the blood, and it seemed to burn. How many times had he woken up in the night and tried to scrub it off until his hands bled? He couldn't remove it and it hurt him. Tears slipped down his face and he raised his face and looked at the moon. He felt his black blood boil and swirl in his veins and he let it take over. He felt the form he took to walk among the humans fall, and his tail began to swish and the marks appeared on his face. He stopped his blood just short of changing into the large white dog, but he stood on the balcony and red eyes stared at the forest. He closed his eyes and let out a howl. The sound rang through the forest and was the cry of a soul being ripped in two, the sound of surrender. Sesshomaru felt himself lose the small grip on reality and the red flooded his vision. Instinct began to take over but he concentrated on the music and it saved him from completely changing. Her face as she lay in bed holding a small bundle in her arms, the memory flooded through his mind, then there was blood on the floor and the look on her face stabbed him to the soul. The look was pure, untainted sorrow coming from an innocent woman. He remembered looking at her without any feeling and leaving her in the pool of blood. A feral growl left his throat, his one mistake, his one mistake, it had cost him everything. Tears fell from his face and he remembered how she hadn't shed any that night, she accepted what he had done, but she couldn't live with it, and she left the next day.
I know, I know, it is really sad right now, but if you cast your vote for a happy ending it won't be! I only got one vote so far so I am going to wait before telling you the result. You got a glimpse of what he did there at the end, and if you can guess what he did then...well you will get a huge pat on the back! I'd give you a prize, but I don't know what I could give over the Internet sooooooooooooo...yeah. Well, I hope you liked it and keep reviewing!
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