In this chapter I am using the song Lullabye (Goodnight me angel) by Billy Joe. I do not own this song.

Sesshomaru stood on the balcony of his large estate and looked out over the small forest that was all that was left of what had once been. He took a long deep breath and the smells mixed in his nose. The pause in the storm was only that, a pause, in a matter of minutes the rain would begin again and try to clean the filth from the world. He wished that the rain could clean out his heart and cleanse him of what he had done, but it couldn't. The only one that could heal him was her, and she was gone. Softly Sesshomaru began to sing along with the song that came on. It was a lullabye that she had played over and over to put herself to sleep and Sesshomaru had memorized it. He had been waiting for the perfect moment to sing it to her, but he had waited to long.

Goodnight, my angel / Time to close your eyes

He imagined her eyelashes flutter as her icy eyes closed, somewhere far away she must be sleeping.


And save these questions for another day

So many times she had kept him up late into the night to ask him simple questions. Always they were questions that a child would ask. "Why does a flower bloom?" she would question him. She was never satisfied with the usual answer that a parent would give, she wanted the true reason, she searched for the basic, true, final answer. Sesshomaru had taken to answering her questions with a kiss on the back of her hand and the simple answer "To please you."


I think I know what you've been asking me / I think you know what I've been trying to say

Within each question was a small plea for him to stop doing what hurt her soul so much. And each time he answered "To please you." he told her to wait one more day.


I promised I would never leave you

But she never returned the promise.


And you should always know / Wherever you may go / No matter where you are / I never will be far away

She was always in his thoughts, everything he did now was dedicated to her, and there was no way that he would taint her memory.

Goodnight, my angel / Now it's time to sleep

Her deep, rhythmic breathing of sleep filled his mind.


And still so many things I want to say

If only he had said those things sooner.


Remember all the songs you sang for me / When we went sailing on an emerald bay

She sang him to sleep ever night and ran her finger through his hair.


And like a boat out on the ocean / I'm rocking you to sleep

His arms ached to hold her once more


The water's dark / And deep inside this ancient heart / You'll always be a part of me

She had taken part of him with her when she left.

Goodnight, my angel / Now it's time to dream

She never told him what she dreamed, but often she would wake up screaming and sweating. Nightmares of the past jarred her sleep and he would hold her until they left her in peace. Who was holding her now?


And dream how wonderful your life will be

Soothing comforting words he would whisper into her ear, and tell her about the future.


Someday your child may cry

"Never." A tear slipped down a porcelain cheek.


And if you sing this lullabye / Then in your heart / There will always be a part of me

He hoped she still thought of him.

Someday we'll all be gone / But lullabyes go on and on...

The lullabye would never leave his mind, and he would sing it forever to keep her alive in him.


They never die

"Just like you and me."

That's how you / And I / Will be

A small smile graced the lips of the sad face of Sesshomaru, the first in years. "I will never forget you, what I did, or who we are." Despite the smile another tear slid down his face and the rain began again. He raised his head to the sky and felt the drops hit his skin. The tears he had shed for his mate. The tears he had let fall for his mistake. And the tears he had seen hit the ground for the other girl he had driven away the same night. The second most important being in his life and the first in his mate's. He looked at his hands in the rain and the drops that fell from them seemed to turn red from her blood. The pained look on his mate's face when he walked from the room, leaving the small, cold body behind him.

"Goodnight Kagome, truly, I am sorry." The simple sentence reached out through the night and traveled on the winds of time, and it touched another soul in the moonlight.

Okay, so you find out at the end there what he did, and if it isn't clear, just wait a few chapters and I will say it right out.

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