In this chapter I am using River of Dreams by Billy Joel. I do not own it.
Sesshomaru closed his eyes and let the next song fill him. He drank up the beat and the sounds like a dying man. It entered his mind and the song began to sing.
In the middle of the night / I go walking in my sleep
Dreams.
From the
mountains of faith / To a river so deep
From one end of his mind to the other
I must be
looking for something / Something sacred I lost
My soul, my heart, my love
But the river
is wide / And it's too hard to cross
He had drowned too many times trying, and he would keep doing it until he got across
And even though I know the river is wide / I walk down every evening and I stand on the shore
Wide enough to keep him from succeeding, short enough to keep him going
And try to
cross to the opposite side / So I can finally find out what I've been
looking for
So I can be healed, so I can live once more
In the middle of the night / I go walking in my sleep
Every night, every day, every minute, every hour, every second
Through the
valley of fear / To a river so deep
He searched through it all
And I've been
searching for something / Taken out of my soul
It was his soul
Something I
would never lose / Something somebody stole
She took it from me, and I deserved it
I don't know why I go walking at night / But now I'm tired and I don't want to walk anymore
"No more, please make it stop." A tear slid down his face and joined the rest on the floor.
I hope it
doesn't take the rest of my life / Until I find what it is that I've
been looking for
He had all the time in the world, and he would do whatever it took to find her
In the middle of the night / I go walking in my sleep
He never had a rest
Through the
jungle of doubt / To a river so deep
"Please not again."
I know I'm
searching for something/ Something so undefined / That it can only be
seen / By the eyes of the blind
He was broken, shattered and couldn't pick the pieces back up
In the middle
of the night
Not only then
I'm not sure about a life after this / God knows I've never been a spiritual man
Human religion was not for him
Baptized by
the fire, I wade into the river / That runs to the promised land
It ran to her
In the middle
of the night / I go walking in my sleep
He kept walking and walking and walking and never stopped, and never would stop
Through the
desert of truth / To the river so deep
Again and again and again and again
We all end in
the ocean / We all start in the streams
We start at the beginning and work our way through life, only sometimes, it never ends
We're all
carried along / By the river of dreams
If only it would take him to her, all the way home
In the middle
of the night
The song ended and Sesshomaru raised his head. He floated down the flowing, rippling, and painful river of memory. It scorched him and he felt his body being burned away to reveal what he really was. He shied away, not wanting to see himself that way. So completely exposed and his soul bared so clearly. He saw himself as Kagome saw him and he shuddered. There was no blame, only sorrow. She had blamed it on his demon instincts, and she accepted it. No demon lord could accept a female as their firstborn and their heir. Every demon lord would kill their firstborn child if it was a female. Even him. She couldn't live with it. How could anyone live with someone who had killed your child? No tears were shed by her that night, but the look on her face tore him to shreds. She left him to linger on his thoughts. For what seemed like thousands of years she left him alone, at first he blamed her, but now he knew he deserved it. All of it. Slowly he sorted his thoughts out again and looked back over time, he started at the beginning.
Okay, so it is kind of a cliffy, but it sets it up for the next song! Thanks for all the reviews! Keep them comin'.
Thanks to: Unicorn'sWhisper, Secrets N Lies, MacDuffyGirl, Kira the Mizu Ryuu, The Squabbit, DarkMistress44
I know is confusing and I repeat myself, but that is just what fits with the lyrics. Sorry, and bare with me! Only two more chapters, maybe a third.
