So sorry for keep you guys waiting for so long, i'm really sorry, but Kagura had been busy and well i wa stold before to never update before someone beta-readed me and beside i had wrote almost 4 versions of chapter 9! There were just to many paths that this story could take that it took me a while to decide wich.
Anyways, i'm kinda happy with how this chapter turned out, so plz read and enjoy!!
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Clowns :: Kyu :: Inside a Mind.
By: Nova
Beta-reader: Kaze no Kagura
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Two weeks after the dinner incident
I'm still thinking... How did I end up here? I'm not talking about a place in particular; I'm talking about a stage in life or something like that... You know what I mean, right? Like when you end up in a joyless life and wonder, when did everything turn out wrong?
What I'm talking about is... how the hell did I end up being the best friend of the boy I like?! In any other situation, that is a great progress or a signal that everything's going in the right direction, but it definitely is not a good sign when he has a girlfriend... Dammit.
You know, it sucks... It's awful just to watch!! How I wish to tear that bitch apart, stupid 'Kiki'... Geez, there're just too many things in my head right now that I can't even think straight. I can only watch.
Unless... Unless, of course, I do something!! That's it, I know how to solve this problem!! Tonight at midnight, I'll sneak out of my house and go to Kikyou's place, then I'll grab a rope from... somewhere –that's not important- and while she's sleeping I'll kill her!! Yeah, that's it!!... Uh, I can't do that, can I? Geez...
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And there she is again, talking to herself... What the hell am I going to do with her? Can't she see that people look at her strangely?! Stupid girl...
To be honest, she looks kind of funny. Keh! But what do I care?... I don't, because my girl is Kikyou... Damn right, she is!! Since the incident in the restaurant things got so fucking weird...
Inuyasha stayed at the kitchen door for a while after she left... He really was a stupid person, and for that, he didn't deserve her. He was made for someone who couldn't get hurt easily, who he could reject anytime he wanted and, who would always come back to him...
"This is it..."
Slowly he turned around, already dreading what he was about to do. As he was heading to his table he saw... her. So well mannered, even though she was alone, she didn't look pathetic. She most likely looked like company was not a need for her. Her black hair was so neat that it seemed like a magazine photo. She was what he needed.
"Inuyasha, where did you go to? You know it isn't nice to leave a girl alone." She looked up from her food after receiving no answer.
'She isn't Kagome... She is not her.' His violet eyes seemed so lost. It scared Kikyo.
"Inuyasha!! Stop staring. It's rude." She took a sip from her water, taking a silk napkin afterwards and folding it perfectly on the table beside her plate. "I'm done. We can go now."
"Kikyo."
"Yes?"
"You wanna be my girlfriend?"
"Inuyasha! I thought you'd never ask! Of course, I will! I'm the happiest girl ever!!"
'She's the happiest girl ever...'
"I can't wait to tell the girls about this!! Let's go!"
He nodded. He offered his hand to her to help her stand. She took it gladly, later on hooking arms with him as they made their way to the exit. When they reached the car, he opened the door for her. She didn't even notice.
On the ride, neither of them talked. Inuyasha was in monosyllabic mode, and Kikyou decided to talk to all of her girlfriends over her cell phone.
He had made his mind up: Kikyou wasn't Kagome, and that was why he had asked her to be with him. He knew she was as shallow as him, and both would survive just fine. Kagome would be ok. She had someone who cared for her and watched over her. Their weird friend-ish relationship would end, and everything would go back as once before at the beginning.
'Yes, everything's for the best.' Suddenly, that quote had become his motto.
And not everything worked out the way I wanted... Shimatta!! How hard can it be for things to turn the way I want them to!! The plan was to be.. ok with Kikyou and stop seeing and talking to Kagome. I could still think about her, but that was as far as it could get!! But NO! Mr. Destiny plays so damn dirty!!
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Well, now that it is cleared up that killing Kikyo is not an option, I must find another way to.. to what? Break them up? Nope, that's not me... they can do whatever they want, I just wanna stop feeling so bad every damn time I see them together!
Avoid.
Yes, avoid him! Now the problem is I don't want to... why couldn't I have just left things as they were?! No, little Kagome couldn't just go home and leave things the way they were. Nope, she had to lie to Kouga, saying that she would sleepover at Sango's house, when she was in front of a stranger's house, then asking very nicely if he could take Shippou to her house. Kouga left, she took a cab and went to the jerk's – also formally known as Inuyasha – house, sorry, mansion, to see him and "clear things up." Bull...
"Isn't this house huge?!" As soon as she shouted, a camera turned to look at her. It made little sounds, and focused on her, zooming in and out.
"Ma ma, and he says he only lives with his parents... now, how do I get in?" She got closer to the black gates and stared hard at the front door of the house, as if with telepathy it would open.
"Who are you?"
"Nan de?!" Kagome jumped at hearing the electronic voice, coming out from a little box beside the camera.
"Uh... I'm Higurashi Kagome, kinda Inuyasha's friend.. classmate, or something like that. To be honest, I'm not sure what we are, but-"
"Stop the blabbering."
"No, I really mean it. Maybe you can help me. You see-"
"Stop."
"Just listen a little, mister monotone voice, the thing here is that-"
"If I let you come in, will you stop?"
"Yeah, sure. Why not?"
The big black gates opened, letting her inside the gardens. She followed the stone path to the front door of the house.
"Sugoi wa!" Kagome stood in front of the door. A little later she heard some steps heading her way and later on, a little click and the door was open.
"Inuyasha's room is on the second floor" His face was just as monotone as his voice.
In a way Kagome was amazed, the guy was... beautiful. His long hair was one thing, but silver?! Where was he from? Then, he was really tall, but not in a skinny way, he was built, making him kind of intimidating. His golden eyes just buried into you and... well, his presence was just as overwhelming as him. She was amazed... he looked just like a guy from a manga she read a while ago!!
"If you had more muscles and an arrogant attitude with some lecherousness, you'd be Bastard!! He's more.. manly than you, but the silver hair gives it all away!!" She was surrounding him, like if he was her prey. Of course, she wasn't intimidating when a huge smile was on her face.
"Girl, stop the nonsense, just go to my brother's room and stay there." He walked away from her.
"Matte yo! You don't look like him at all. How can you two be siblings?!"
"Ask that question to Inuyasha" He was out of her sight.
"I bet he thought I called him a Bastard... baka."
The stairs were right in front of her. She walked slowly, taking her time to view all the paintings and stuff on her way. Rich people spend lots of money in useless stuff, ne.
When she was on the second floor a question came over her: "But where is his room? This place is huge!"
Then she saw it. The whole second floor was his room. "Dammit, he'd better hurry up. I don't want to be here all day searching for his official bedroom." She sat Indian style in the hallway, waiting for the jerk to show up.
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Tadaima... That was one word he had never used in his life. As always, no one was home. There was no use in saying he was there. He plopped down on the couch in the living room. It was a huge couch and very cozy. The red velvet covering it made it very warm. It was his favorite place in the winter, but now, in just two days, spring would come.
"A girl is waiting for you in your room." As a shadow, his brother was on the chair beside the fireplace, book in hand. He had barely made a sound. Inuyasha wasn't startled by his sudden appearance; he was used to it.
"So you're really not leaving..."
"I'm done with college, and I don't plan on traveling this year. Besides, father asked me to stay this year to watch after you." Seshoumaru turned a page of the book he was reading, knowing the tantrum his brother would throw after hearing the news he was about to give him. "I'll be your guardian."
"What the hell?!" He stood up as fast as the word guardian left his half brother's mouth.
"Father said that the lawsuit Hyouga is trying to file on him will take longer than he planned, so he's going to stay in China for this year, and mother will be staying with him."
"And then the house is too damn big for me, so they sent you here! Kuso..."
"A girl is waiting."
"You already said that a while ago."
"And yet, you keep her waiting."
"Because there is no one there. You're just messing with me." He crossed his arms, glaring at him.
With a simple look from Seshoumaru, Inuyasha knew he wasn't kidding. "Why did you let a girl come in?! Maybe she's a stalker from school, or even worse, she's Kikyou's friend, and she's here to-"
"She wouldn't stop blabbering, just like you, so I let her come in."
"Then she is Kikyou's friend!! Why would you let her come in?!!"
"Higurashi."
"What?"
"Her name is Higurashi Kagome, and she didn't look like a friend of the girl you were with this afternoon."
When Seshoumaru looked up, Inuyasha was nowhere to be seen. The only thing left was his jacket on the floor. He went back to reading after hearing the loud steps of his brother running up the stairs.
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He didn't know what had possessed him to run like a maniac. Just after hearing she was there, he couldn't help himself. Then he saw her. She was leaning against a door sleeping.
For some reason she hadn't go into his room. 'I bet Seshoumaru just sent her here, without telling her where my room was.'
He approached her silently, crouching in front of her, staring at her, watching every breath she took. "Kagome..."
"Yes?" Her eyes opened slowly, sending Inuyasha to the floor from the scare she gave him.
"Weren't you sleeping?!" Had she been awake when he was so close to her?
"Uh-uh, I woke up when you said my name."
"Stand up."
"Yes, sir."
"No, I meant-"
"I know what you were trying to say. I'm just kidding." She tried to straighten her dress after standing up. When she looked up again, Inuyasha was way ahead of her. "Matte!"
"Seshoumaru didn't tell you where my room was?" He looked over his shoulder to see her trying to catch up with him.
"So Seshoumaru is his name... Nope, he didn't tell me, and there are just too many doors in here to go searchin' in each one for your room."
"And it didn't pass the idea in your little mind that the big door at the end of the corridor may be my bedroom?" When the only response he got was silence, a big smirk was plastered on his face. "Stupid girl."
"Baka."
Kagome didn't know what else to say. Besides, what was she going to say to him when he asked her what she was doing here?
"Come in."
She nodded and sat on his bed. Inuyasha closed the door behind him, sitting afterwards on a chair that was beside the desk in front of his bed.
"You know what I want to ask." It was a statement, not a way to start an easy conversation. He wasn't going to make things easy for her.
It was almost as if what happened had been her fault; he was blaming her!! Anger took over her. "What the hell happened there?!!"
"What are you talking about?!" No girl was going to yell at him.
"Why did you take Kikyou's side, when she was being a total bitch, even though she was the one that came to my table and started yelling at me, even though she made me.."
"Even though she made you cry?" Was it just her, or did his voice take on a gentle and soft sound?
"She didn't make me cry. She just got me mad." She played with the cover of his bed.
"Damn... I took her side 'coz... 'coz she's my girlfriend." He passed a hand through his hair. Standing up, he walked to the bed, sitting beside Kagome.
"Oh... I didn't knew that..."
"It just happened a while ago... I thought this dinner would be the perfect time to ask her. That's why I told you that, well..."
"That's why you stood me up."
"Sorry..." His voice was barely loud enough for her to hear.
"No prob... it meant nothing. Besides, you leaving me there all dressed up gave me the chance to go out with Kouga. He is a really cool guy."
He forced a smile "Then everything turned out fine."
"In a way. So we're still friends?"
"Yes. We're still friends."
"But Kikyou hates me. Is she gonna be ok with it?"
"Kouga hates me too."
"He isn't my boyfriend; he's just a friend."
"For now..."
"No really, he just wants to be friends with me. Even though he was weird in the car, I think he was a little sick. His face was kind of red."
::Chuckle:: "So naive, Ka-chan."
"Nani?" He looked at her and couldn't help feeling how this was destroying his insides. He wanted her... so much.
"Nothing... it's late. You should get going. Your mother is probably worried."
"Yes, you're right.. Then I'll see you tomorrow at school, right?"
"Right, I'll tell someone to take you home. Wait downstairs."
Kagome did what Inuyasha said and found Seshoumaru reading in the living room, where Inuyasha had left him.
"Seshoumaru's the name, ne?" She sat on the big couch.
"And Annoying is yours."
"Some people call me that, but it isn't one of my favorites."
Seshoumaru put the book down and stared at her. She didn't notice. "Are you going to be around here all the time?"
She stood up after hearing Inuyasha call her name. "I don't think so. Another girl is going to be around here, I'm... just a friend."
Her eyes lost the glint she had a while ago. She smiled at him, said goodbye and left.
"... just a friend" He took his book back and lit the lamp that was on the table beside the chair. The fire in the fireplace had gone dull.
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"Dammit..." Kagome muttered. She gathered her things from the desk after hearing the bell ring. Another day of classes was over.
"Walk you home?" Inuyasha was right behind her, startling her a little.
"If that's what you want," she said with a smirk.
"That's my deepest desire." He bowed a little, offering his arm to her. A smirk donned his face.
"Mine too." She smiled, linking arms with him.
It had meant nothing, just a joke between friends. That was the only thought in both minds as they made their way out of the school.
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1 Bastard: Bastard is a real manga. I can't remember the author. The principle character is a guy named Bastard and he has silver hair, he is also a very perverted guy, chasing girls everywhere; maybe if you find a pic of the guy I'm talking about, you can understand the joke better.
2 Tadaima: It means "I'm home!" Ya know, to tell your family you're there.
Thanks again for reading, i promis i'll update on a regular basis from now on =)
