Important, read!
First of all I'm so sorry for not updating sooner, but let's say that I didn't have the inspiration to write a new chapter. I had one done but it wasn't good, and I didn't want to write one just to update, and this chapter is very important to continue the story.
Also I would like to make clear that this story is not finished yet! (Some people seem to think that) When I said that the first part of Clowns was over, it was like a first season, the story continues. But now the problem will not be if Inuyasha and Kagome get together, now I'll try to focus on relationship problems and other stuff.
Gossa in is translating my fic to Spanish at the website: www. Elportalfic . c o m, and it seems that she thinks that the fic is over from what I read when she translated the last chapter I wrote, but well, hope you're reading this so you can keep on with the story.
Also, someone asked what the title "Clowns" meant. I can't reveal that yet, when the fic is over is when I'm going to tell why this fic is titled clowns.
Anyways, thanks a lot to my reviewers from last chapter: Verito.S, KagInuLove, Kagome1992vi3tdream27, wasoe, Tiki-chanAnimeObsessionFantasy, pippet jimmy, pupy ears, gossa and Sailor X
Mikoyasha: Thank you for the song, it is really sweet and I really like the title "Wishing on the same moon" I'll use some verses in a future chapter, really thanks a lot!
And now (FINALLY) chapter thirteen of Clowns! Enjoy.
Clowns
Jyu-san: Beyond Words
By: Nova
Beta-reader: Lady Xiu Mei Phoenix
23-2405001
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Through the darkness, a green fluorescent glow can be seen from my clock, the numbers telling me it's almost one o'clock in the morning. I've been lying in bed for three hours, doing nothing. I can't sleep, I just can't.
It's like my head keeps playing the images of what happened today, complete with sound track, and my eyes just won't close, damn it! I stare at the ceiling as I've been doing all night long.
And even though I try to force myself to sleep, I can't. I think I'm way too nervous about what's going to happen tomorrow…
» » » » » » Flashback…He walked her home, neither saying a word, the moment had just been perfect and if someone said something wrong then maybe this perfect little moment could be destroyed. After walking the stairs, both stood outside her house.
Kagome tuck a strand of hair behind her ear, a habit she had when she was nervous. "Ano… Inuyasha, I don't want to ruin the mood or anything but…" She looked up to him and she saw that he knew what she wanted to ask.
"I don't know Ka-chan." He scratched his head before continuing, "Maybe we should let time decide what we are or where we stand don't you think?"
"Hai." She smiled at him. "Then I guess I'll see you tomorrow at school, right?"
"Yeah, definitely. Sleep well Kagome." Without thinking, he gave her a kiss on her forehead and started walking off.
Kagome felt herself blush. "I'm not a little kid Inuyasha!" She yelled.
"That's what you think!" He yelled back at her.
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1:30 am, and Kagome was finally asleep. She had decided to listen to some music, and with the lyrics in the background as a lullaby, she could stop replaying the images and let herself drift to sleep.
I don't know what other people see
or what they think is love
But I know what it means to me
I fall in love so easily
And it's hard to let your guard down
Something you never wanted to
I gave you my love and if you turned away
I guess I'd be screwed, but...
I'm a hopeless romantic
You're just hopeless
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It was time for lunch, and she hadn't seen Inuyasha at all, which was weird.
For first class she had Tanaka-sensei, and he was in that class, then she had English and he was also in that class. He hadn't shown up at either of the classes. They weren't in anymore classes together today until last period.
"Where the hell are you Inuyasha?" She sighed, putting inside the locker a few of her books.
Before she could close the door of her locker, she felt someone behind her, and when she was about to turn around someone was choking her.
"What the--!"
The grasp on her neck got weaker and she turned around ready to either run or beat the crap out of whoever was messing with her, depending on the person of course, 'cause what if it was a psycho with a gun in hand!
But it was no psycho, they were two psychos. In front of her, Ayame and Sango, both with matching, beaming smiles. Highly unusual, since they were on school grounds.
"Sorry Kagome, for the aggressive hello!" Ayame said, while she hugged her friend.
"What the hell is wrong with you?" Kagome said while laughing.
"Last night we had a sleepover and past midnight she snuck out of my bedroom and went for cookies and stuff, so she went on a sugar high, and she's been like this since like, four am or so." Sango patted Ayame on her head, while the redhead was nodding at what Sango was saying.
"So she hasn't slept at all?"
"Nope, not a bit," –Ayame started to jump - "but wait till math class and I'll be dead!" She exclaimed cheerfully.
The three of them walked to the cafeteria, Ayame jumping around, Sango trying to calm her down, and Kagome laughing at them.
"Hey guys, why didn't you call me last night for the sleepover?" While she had been walking, the question had popped into her head.
"Oh… that." Sango had a mischievous glint on her eyes. A little niggling voice in Kagome's head said, very loudly, "Run, run now, now I say!".
Ayame grinned at her "Well last night we went to your house, 'cause all day long we tried to call you, but no one answered. But when we were about to walk up the stairs, we saw someone coming down."
Kagome started to blush; now she had to tell them. She hadn't told them last night or this morning, not because she didn't trust them, but because she was embarrassed.
Sango continued. "To be correct on our history, we saw Inuyasha coming down the stairs, and he was all smiles. But he was so off in lala-land that he didn't see me, and he bumped into me."
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- Flashback…-
Kagome felt herself blush. "I'm not a little kid Inuyasha!" She yelled.
"That's what you think!" He yelled back at her.
He couldn't wipe off the smile that was on his face. This day had been just surreal, going on a date with her, kissing her, finally being able to be around her without trying to deny what he felt for her.
Inuyasha for a moment had been afraid that he was dreaming. He felt as if he had been watching everything from outside, like if in a moment the movie would stop and he would be back in his room.
He paid no attention as he walked down the stairs, and suddenly he bumped into someone.
"Huh?" He looked at the two girls that were glaring at him.
Sango spoke first. "What the hell do you think you're doing here!"
'Isn't she aggressive?' Inuyasha thought sarcastically to himself, but he didn't say anything.
"If we walk into her house and find out that you've been a jerk to her again, you're going to regret it! Don't you think you've done enough!" Ayame walked in front of Sango.
"Besides, shouldn't you be at your girlfriend's house instead of here!" Sango kept glaring at him.
"Are you done?" His attitude changed immediately towards them, he turned into the almighty Inuyasha again, the cocky bastard they'd always known.
Ayame was ready to send a punch to his face, but he spoke first. "First of all I've done nothing to her, and stop being so damn overprotective, she can stand up for herself."
"We are her friends, and we know she can beat the crap out of anyone she wants!" Sango said always looking at him directly into his eyes. But this time she found something weird.
Even though his attitude was as arrogant as always, his eyes were like, shiny or something, she wasn't sure what, they were just different.
The aggressive tone of her voice changed to a more serious one and she asked him, "What… what happened between you two?"
Ayame turned to look at her surprised by what Sango was saying.
"If Kagome ever needs someone to protect her, you're not the ones to do it. That's my job. Goodnight ladies." Giving one last glance at them Inuyasha walked away.
Sango and Ayame stared at his back before turning to look at Kagome's house. They saw her shadow on the window of her bedroom and a moment later the light of her room went off.
They both left. According to what Inuyasha said, something big had happened and if Kagome was going to sleep at 10 o'clock, then she really was tired. Waking a sleepy Kagome, for whatever reason, was a guaranteed suicide wish.
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"I see…" Kagome whispered.
"So, aren't you going to tell us what happened yesterday!" Sango asked her while Ayame was poking her in the arm while repeating 'tell us, tell us, tell us'.
"Fine, but first let's go for lunch, I'm starving!" Sango was speechless.
"Hey, no changing the subject!"
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"Why didn't you let me go to school? Damn it!" Inuyasha was pacing around the living room, clenching his fists and glaring at Sesshoumaru.
"Be patient." Sesshoumaru kept reading his book, not bothering to look at Inuyasha.
"Be patient! I have stuff to do, important stuff!" He stopped in front of Sesshoumaru, yelling.
"Very mature of you Inuyasha, throwing a tantrum…" He drawled, but put the book aside and stood up. "Sit now, Father has arrived."
"What? Didn't you say he was staying in China for a year!"
Sesshoumaru didn't answer. The room was suddenly enveloped in a weird atmosphere, the quiet steps of their father silencing Inuyasha's yells. His aura was overwhelming, but serene at the same time.
Both sons stood without saying a word. Inutaisho's eyes first settled on his elder son, then his younger. They'd been squabbling again, and he knew it.
"What are you doing here?" Inuyasha's voice was one of indifference, but his eyes betrayed him, and his father with one look at them, knew everything.
"Can't I pay visit to my sons?" He walked towards the velvet couch, sitting on it; Sesshoumaru following his example, sat back down in the chair he was in before.
In the meantime, Inuyasha was losing the little temper he had. "No you can't. Stop acting as if nothing is wrong in here! If you came all the way from China while you're on business, and Sesshoumaru knew, then something is up!" He glared at his father.
Inuyasha had this gnawing feeling inside him, telling him that something was very, very wrong.
"Fine, do you want me to tell you what's going on?" Inutaisho looked his younger son straight in the eye, amber-gold meeting their perfect reflection.
"Father, not now." Sesshoumaru interrupted him, and unlike his half-brother, kept his rarely seen temper in perfect check.
Inuyasha stood silently, watching the exchange of words between his father and Sesshoumaru, both with their usual serious expressions on their faces.
"Tell me." He insisted. He knew he wouldn't like what was going to come out of his father's mouth, but he needed to know.
Inutaisho stood up, his business suit without a single wrinkle from his sitting position. "You're coming to China with me."
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Kagome was sitting under the cherry blossom tree, enjoying the nice weather outside. Her headphones on, her head was slowly moving back and forward, staying in rhythm with the music.
On her lap was an open notebook, a pen placed in the middle of some pages. The notebook was filled with unreadable kanji; everybody knew that her calligraphy wasn't the best, but of course that didn't matter to her. She was, after all, the only one who needed to read it.
Whenever she felt like writing, she would grab her notebook. If she was sad, happy, lonely, whatever, everything was in there. It was like a diary to her; of course, she didn't like to call it that.
And in the open pages of the little notebook her barely readable words said:
You are at the core of my heart
You are in the darkest corner of my mind
And you are here all the time.
So please don't go,
I don't like sitting here alone,
Don't make me beg and don't make me cry,
Just read closely these words that were written by my hand.
I could be screaming,
Or whispering sweet words to you
But with one look into me eyes,
You have my entire soul.
Don't make me beg and don't make me cry
Just read closely these words that were written by my hand.
Her head was leaning against the tree; sleep had taken over her…
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I'm standing in the middle of my room, the window is letting the breeze come in and I can see that today is a beautiful day; today was supposed to be the best day ever, but everything went the wrong way.
This day was supposed to be a happy day for me…
I let go myself fall into my messy bed, closing my eyes I start to replay the images of kissing Kagome, the same images that didn't let me catch any sleep last night.
It's weird but I can still remember her scent, and I can't help but smile at that.
:sigh:
I don't give a damn about my father's business, and I definitely don't give a damn about this new company he's opening in China.
"You have to know how this company works, and the sooner you get to know this the better. You don't even need to finish high school. You already have a job, and I want you to start learning what you have to, now."
Damn! Why do I have to hear his stupid voice in my head!
All I want to do is go and see her…
My Kagome…
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He rolled over in his bed, drowning himself with her name.
'This is pathetic…' Inuyasha thought.
Standing up, he grabbed a sweatshirt in a rush and went running out of his room. He still had some time before school was over, and if he didn't find her there, then she would probably be at her house.
As he was running down the stairs though, Sesshoumaru grabbed him by the arm, almost making him fall down.
"Where do you think you're going?" He asked with his back to him.
"None of your business." A growl seemed to escape Inuyasha's mouth.
"If you keep this nonsense –" Seshoumaru let go of his arm turning to look at him. "– you're only going to get hurt."
"Once again, none of your business."
Inuyasha finally made it out of his house. He couldn't take a car, his father would see him, and so he had no other choice but to run.
His whole mind was a white canvas. He wasn't thinking at all he was doing, just what he was feeling.
He wanted, no, he needed to see her, he needed to hold her; she was the only thing that gave him a little hope that maybe not everything was as screwed as he thought it was. She was the only thing that made sense in his life; she was the only thing that kept him okay.
Suddenly this girl that he had barely kissed the day before had become his everything, and that scared him, and for a moment he thought of going back to his house. He didn't want to depend on anyone. But it didn't matter if he went back now, because this hunger felt like it would consume him already, and he knew it would if he let it grow anymore.
When he came back to his senses again, the image that welcomed him was one of a sleeping Kagome, some of her hair covering her face, and as he got closer he could hear the music coming from her headphones.
Without giving it any thought he hugged her, stronger than he ever had. He heard her gasp in surprise at the sudden wake up, but she relaxed quickly when she realized it was him, and just hugged him back. For just a second, he let his mind drown in her scent.
Her notebook and pen had fallen into the grass, and he was kneeling in front of her, hugging her as if she was going to vanish in any moment.
"Inuyasha, is everything ok?" He heard her sweet voice ask him, and when he heard her voice, with it's sincere concern for him, it was like everything was all right again, it was like if he was in his most precious dream again, he didn't wanted to wake up. Not now, not ever. He could stay here forever, trapped in this moment for all time.
"Inuyasha?" She insisted and his hold on her weakened. He looked at her straight in the eyes, and she was surprised at the new emotion that was filling his eyes.
It wasn't the weird lilac that they had when he was depressed, or the purple when he was angry, nor were they the violet that they held when he was at peace. They were a pale violet, a lifeless violet, and they held so much pain.
She hugged him again, stronger this time. Whatever was happening to him was affecting her. She was feeling his pain.
"Just let me hold you Kagome…"
"Un."
This bond they both shared was beyond words…
And another chapter is finished, I hope the next one doesn't take much time to come out, thanx to everyone that has kept reading even though I take years to update.
Hope you all like it!
Charlotte Havok.
Chapter beta-readed.
